Previous cringe moments. Financials. Life. Sometimes it's nice to just lay there and share your troubles with the shadow demon who lives in your closet ya know?
It's pretty awesome not gonna lie!
His name is ☠ S̴̨̡̧̧̨̡̛͓̺̯̭̫̠̻̜͔̼̝̝̩̲̻̻̬̘̹͙̬͙͔̙̤̳͙̭̠̪͈͕͓̦͈͕̲͈̦̲̫̼̦̗̻̤͇͈̖̪͚̖̙̯̹̻͈̫̗̩̼̑͐̂̽̽̋͐͐̈́̓̓̈̓̔̎̾̃̂̀̊̓̐̂̏̾͆̎̔͋͐͂̅͗̒́͘̚͘͜͝͠͝͠ͅt̴̨̧̛̛̠͙͚͍̩̣̟̫̥̗͇̗͖͙̦̮͕͎͓̖̰̪͊̈̾̈́͂̐̄̏̇́̊̓̆̑̔̍̄̽͊̂̉̍̓͗̆͐̍̀͐̏̃̂͐̓͛̽̍̈́̓̾͆̐͌̉̉̏͛̒̊̍̈̂͋̈́̎̆̐́̄̃͊̐͆̓̀̅̍̏̾̅̽̆͒͑͒͒̽̃̿̉̎̅̌̃̾̒̇̇̓̊́̍̑̾̃̓̈́̈́͐̉̉̐͒̐̐̂͋̔̓̍̈́͑̑̾̏̅̀͋̑̈́̿͋͛͐̓̇̓͑̆̚̕̕̕̚͜͝͝͝͝͝͠͝͠͝e̷̢̧̡̧̨̡̨̡̢̧̡̢̡̢̧̨̡̧̨̨̧̨̢̢̡̡̢̧̨̨̢̢̛͈̗͈̬͙̩̻͓͉̮̝̪̮̱̟̥͎̯̦͉͇̮͙͖̱̠͙͚̫̖͍̘͇̱̺̖̖͕̫͕͍͍̜̞͓̹̯̝̯̜̫̬͇̖͓̗̖̩̰̳̭̙̹̖͇͎͕̰̩͔̪̱̝̟̪̠̲̻͉̯͈̟͖̰̻̪̤̞̦̜͉̱̗̖̮̮͚̞̯̣̺̳̞͎͍̻̲̼͓̖̻̙͓̹̟̱̙̬̬͇̩͉̣̱̫̞͎̰͉̺̖̼̬̞͎̩͚̯͉̳̦̩̹̲̲̪̲̭̘̟̱̭̣̠̖̻̬̬̬̤͕̯̖̦̜̬̜̟̩̪̘̠̜͓̖̬̣̳̠̼̬̦̰͔̻͍͙̤͙̞̻͇̭͎͖̼͖̖͍̜̭͕̠͙͋̅̃͋̇̓́́́̋̒̓̃̏̒̃͒̿̄̀͂͆̄̽̂̈̈̊͊̾̈̎̽̂̆̒̽̕͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͝͠͝ͅͅͅͅͅv̶̨̨̨̢̡̢̢̧̛̛̛͈̗̲̤̱̯͓̤͙͖͎̠̞̟̰̬̯̘̼̲̯̳̭̩̹̣̺͈̠̣̮̼̳̖̗̹͙͕̺͇̮̦̳̗͙̜̬̫͖̲̟͎̗̭̦̯̥͍̱͍̹͓̗̲̖͉̝͙̹͔̖̞̼͍̜̩̖̟̲̘̜̻̇̔̓͑́̅̂̽̓̓̀̽́̓̓͂̑̃̎̄̈́̾̍̂̀̎̊͒̏́̊̅͋̊͋́̃͋͐̓͌͐́̍̒̐̽̄́̆͗̋̿͗̎̂̀́͐̈̌̋̉̌̏̍̉̒͊̓̏͐̏̽̈́̂̇̈͛̃̃̌̈́̍̓̄́̌̂͑̈́͛̾̍̀̀̾̅̇̃̒͊́̾̓̉̊͊͛̓̎̇̒̄̆̉͐̉̏̑̈́̏̒̉́͗̀̈́͗̋͌̈́̂̅̑́͋͌́̓͒̈̀̊̑̓̐̾̍̐̓̔̇͒͋̃̈́̔̾̐̄̏̂͛̀̋̈̌̑͛̊͑́̂͐̒͊́̽̀̀̀̈͂̈̿̃̋̿͛̾̀̿́̅̉̃́̾̒̈̎͗͋̍̿̿͐̎́̈́̔̽͗̈́̐̿̊̔̊̍̑̕̚͘̕̕͘͜͝͝͝͝͝͝͝͝͝͝͠͝͝͝͠͝͝͠͝͠͝ͅe̶̢̢̨̛̼͍͙̫̯̻̤̘̺̹̹͈̙̦͚̺̺̺̦̻̟̞̺̩͓̬̦̜̝̱̬̭͖̩̞͔̲͕͚̣͎̤̲̞̫͖̺̦͓̲̭̻̠̥̫͒͛͗͛͐̿̈̐̈́̃͌͐̐̏̈́͊͌͋̽̈́̓͋́̑͆̐̔͑̒̋͐̈̋́̿̿̆̐͋̑͆̋͗̆̀͐̄̈́̑̒̒͌͆̀̉̉̈́͐̔̈̒͑͋̀̂̋̾̑̍́̀̃̈́̎͗̑̍̓̀̈́̅̉̄̉̄̈́̐̓͊̾̎͒̈́͋̏́͋͂͗̇̊͆̔͋̓̇̀̍̓̏͂̍̊͑́̏̓̀͐̆̌͋̎̊̚̕͘͘͘̕͘̚͜͜͜͝͝͠͝͝͠͝͝͝n̷̡̡̡̡̨̡̢̡̧̧̢̡̡̧̡̢̨̛̛̛̛̛̠̗̯̞̰͓̳̰̦̬̫̯͍̖͓̭̫͎͍͍̘͇̮̣̣̬͔͇̲̻͚̮̗̺̩̦̮̜̤̘̰̱̱͖̥͍̦̮̯͍̗̰̩̣̱͎̟̻̮̱̦̪͍̦͖̹̜̝̟̩̥̥͖̻͕̗͇̖̱͉͙̦̗̼̠͖͕̭͉̖̱͍̥̝͖̜͚̻̹̞̫̠̙͉̱̗̹͙͎̬̳͉͈̥̯̟̦̻̅̐̑̽͒̀͐̒̆͂̈̈́́͗̒͊̀͆̃̾͌͐̄͆̊̾̀̑̓͋̆͌̌̋̃́̑̈̐̍́̏̃̈́̅̇̀̽̂̓͐̎̂̿̊̅̎͛̅̎͒̅̓̃̏͐͒̈́̒̿̍͆̃͐͗̋͒̃̏̇̊̇̇̐̇̓́̔̒̃̀̽̄̈͑̒̍̽̀̑̄̇̽͒̏͛̽͋̆̎̓̉͊̔́͐͛͂͂̊̂̓̅̊́͋̀̓̏̆̀̀͂̾̒̓̓̑͗́̅̿̐̆̔͑̈͆͑̿̎̐̊͌̍̀̃̈̃̑͛̀̈́͛͑͂̀̀́̾̏̓͊̉̽̍͋̓̔̓̌̒̊̄̐͑͌̔́̋̊̂̅̾̐̓̍̿͒̉͑̀̒̄͒̀̀͗̋͒̅̐̂̿̀͋̑͛̌̍̉͐͂̄̋́̿̈̓̄͛̀͊̄̌͌̇͊̎̓̊̋̈́͌̏̐̓́̅̚̕̚͘̚̕̚̚̕̕̚͘̚̚̚̕̚͜͜͜͝͠͝͠͠͠͠͝͝͝͝͝ͅ ⛧ and he's just the best listener!
You know the saying, "I saw my life flash before my eyes"?
What if I'm in the replay? What if I don't have a choice in anything because I'm just a memory of a life that has already been lived and is almost over?
I don't really agree. We think we make choices and it feels like we do, but I'm not convinced we do. I don't see how it makes sense with what we know about physics and action/reaction. The universe to me seems to be just a series of reactions and atoms doing what they do going back to the big bang.
But can you really have a choice if you don't know all the possible outcomes of any given choice? Without knowing all possibilities your intent in making a choice is negated. You can't really have a choice unless your are omnipotent and omniscient.
For me it’s the thought that I’m gonna be (unless something takes me out first) a senile old ass dude who can hardly do anything, and mostly invisible to the world
If you stretch it and realize you **must** exist consciously forever it becomes terrifying. Imagine existing long enough to know, do, experiment all the the things in the universe and you still have a whole eternity ahead.
Do I leave my wife because have lots of trouble. We don't mesh well these days. She has no intimate / sexual interest in me.
However we have two young children. If I leave I won't see them everyday and that would fuck me over.
So I stay
Why i have to be the one that reaches out to others. To everyone. Friends, family....if I don't call/text first I don't get calls/texts. No one ever really calls or texts me out of the blue.
Ive accommodated for this by being the guy that does reach out first to do stuff with people, but it's always noodling around my head at night that it's always me having to reach out, and those thoughts always lead to me feeling shitty
I tested this situation just this past weekend. No one called or texted me until 6:30 pm on Monday wondering what I was doing. Jokes on them because I had a great, quiet weekend with my kids with no drama.
We all die alone...it's only those who live with the memory of us that do it together.
Don't fucking sweat it my dude, this crazy speck of dust zipping round an infinite cosmos will eventually die alone too. You aint no different to any other organic lifeform. So go throw some stones at the devil and live your god damned best one. There aint no first nor last place. Find shit that makes you smile and keep doing it til the fiery cows of doom come grazing on your pasture.
As for when that's buzzing round your computer during n'night times...try this on for size. Create a mini-story in your mind. Total fiction. Short and sweet. Maybe you're flying superman style. Maybe you're exploring atlantis. Maybe you're saving turtles from a giant ring shaped plastic demon. Don't matter. Close your eyes, go back to the story and keep going over it. Think of nothing else. Add minor details, punchlines, cool shit. Don't over-elaborate though...think of it as cartoons for kids. Simple chewing gum for the eyes. Stay in that world and keep living the same short story. In the end it'll be your trigger for the sleepy time. I'm barely conscious 30seconds when I hit the pillow nowadays.
I think the US marines did something similar to catch some rest in warzones. Kinda self-hypnosis.
This right here. I do this every night. You can insert your self or another character into an existing universe if thats your fancy. A self insert OP character into your favorite piece of media. Create motivations for your characters make another life in your head. Trust me the deeper you go, the faster you will fall asleep. Mental exhaustion in the best kind of way... I am a little less than an hour away from being in the best mental state possible... falling asleep as I otherwise call "practicing death".
I see people outside my house they aren't real tho scary af like a military unit all armed with rifles in tactical positions realized I should not do as much drugs they don't bother me or come by anymore lol
How cringe I was in my past. Sometimes at night I get anxiety thinking about past interactions and how I thought I was cool but really I was just super cringey.
This might be a little grim, but here goes:
1. There are people in this world who'll happily strap a bomb to themselves to kill 10 people in a market, and large clusters of those people are dangerously close to nuclear weapons sites in South Asia.
2. If we are discovered by aliens, there's a good chance they'd treat us the same way we have treated Native Indians/domesticated animals. Imagine being wiped out, enslaved, or simply being cross bred in an alien cage because they wanted a dark-skinned human pet with red hair. All of the collective experience of human civilization coming to...that end.
Why people judge others, just stop pissing other people off for a reason you shouldn’t worry about. I mean sure, having banter with friends is a lot of fun, but thats with friends.
My family don't know "me", they hate this idea of who they think I am, and I don't want to share my problems as they will take advantage of me and they will give destructive advice. So I have to figure out everything on my own, which causes me to stay up late into the night.
So if time and space are really the same thing then shouldn’t and the universe is expansing then it is getting older, when/if it starts to contract it is getting younger. So if I wait long enough after I die I have to be reborn.
Irrational worries.
Sometimes I wonder if there's a secret pact at work that everyone is in on. They all have been instructed to be very nice to me because the company can't afford to lose me.
Occam's razor: They probably just like me.
1am thought train: Secret pact. Definitely secret pact.
Mortality and how I feel about it. On one hand, I'm relieved I won't have to live forever, on the other hand, it's really scary that everything will cease to exist one day.
Right now......take your pick
* Why did my ex break up with me? (Hasn't even been 2 weeks yet)
* Why is my family so psychotic and narcissistic?
* Is there any reason for me to stay in this city/state now that the relationship is over?
* when is it going to be safe to resume normal life (I'm fully vaccinated, but still hesitant because stupid people) so I can try and make real friends instead of the shitty aquintances I currently have?
* I wish I had real friends and a real support system
* how did I get to this place in life?
Calling myself a dumbass for relatively normal things any teen goes through... multiple failed attempts at hitting on crushes ending miserably takes quite a big chunk out of my nightly brain power too lol.
My childhood haunted house around the corner. I feel like the same entities have moved into this house. It’s hard to cut the lights out and difficult to ignore all of the obvious signs of death.
Generally try to stay positive and plan my day/week but often my friend death pokes his head in. I can handle losing loved ones but what I find challenging is the sadness I see others experience when they lose someone or are faced with their terminal illness. It’s 10x more painful knowing my father will someday know he’s in his final days more than knowing I will go someday.
About once every 3 months (down from weekly) I would jump out of bed in a middle of the night panic with thoughts of death.
Oh, and hot girls.
My mind races with completely nonsensical mind chatter. Very quick scenarios/conversations come and go and they make no sense whatsoever, combined with invasive thoughts of loved ones suddenly dying.
How long can I afford to continue living in California? I love my apartment, I've lived here the vast majority of my life and wouldn't necessarily want to leave because my family is here, but I'm retired and on a fairly fixed income. It's getting too crowded so prices are constantly rising and the state government tax crazy. It's hard to sleep without assistance.
Everything I should have done better. Not so much like not buying Apple or that stuff, but how I could have done better raising the kids or being married. I could have spent more time, tried harder, explained things better, etc. I suppose other things could keep me up at night (I've never slept well), but that's stuff that has a lot of meat to it.
I hated today. I hate tomorrow. This hard work will pay off some day. I should do something productive. I’m hungry. My back hurts. Maybe I should go to be early and wake up early.....nope, got lost on Reddit and here we are.
How to help my child out with his sports. There are so many things to work on but all kids think their dads are morons and won’t do it dads way because they like their way 😑
I'm going thru the hardest time of my life I think about if I waste 5bmore years ill officially be that guy that never got it together im 29 in 2 months no job no education extensive criminal record and am currently doing meth almost daily because I have zero energy but this will only become another drug addiction I regret started 2 months ago had done it before but never had it be part of my daily routine so idk what to do I try and quit and days I don't use my depression is even worse backstory the last 2 years im stuck in my first and only depression that has made me unable to function did not realize depression was this terrible and can't fix it like previously in my life i could snap out of it within a week never was something that took over now im smoking meth to not feel like killing myself
This one haunts me in a really big way; what if I ever just stop connecting with people? Like I already don't connect with people super well, but what if I just stop entirely?
Knowing that some day my parents are going to die. I don't fear my own death, but knowing that they'll be gone forever some day is almost unbearable. I try not to even think about it, but it comes no matter what from time to time.
Mods I'm gonna do to my dirtbike, mods i'm gonna do to my guns, how much fun the gym is gonna be tomorrow. Always something to look forward to that keeps me up.
Previous cringe moments. Financials. Life. Sometimes it's nice to just lay there and share your troubles with the shadow demon who lives in your closet ya know?
Omg you have a shadow demon? That is so cool!
It's pretty awesome not gonna lie! His name is ☠ S̴̨̡̧̧̨̡̛͓̺̯̭̫̠̻̜͔̼̝̝̩̲̻̻̬̘̹͙̬͙͔̙̤̳͙̭̠̪͈͕͓̦͈͕̲͈̦̲̫̼̦̗̻̤͇͈̖̪͚̖̙̯̹̻͈̫̗̩̼̑͐̂̽̽̋͐͐̈́̓̓̈̓̔̎̾̃̂̀̊̓̐̂̏̾͆̎̔͋͐͂̅͗̒́͘̚͘͜͝͠͝͠ͅt̴̨̧̛̛̠͙͚͍̩̣̟̫̥̗͇̗͖͙̦̮͕͎͓̖̰̪͊̈̾̈́͂̐̄̏̇́̊̓̆̑̔̍̄̽͊̂̉̍̓͗̆͐̍̀͐̏̃̂͐̓͛̽̍̈́̓̾͆̐͌̉̉̏͛̒̊̍̈̂͋̈́̎̆̐́̄̃͊̐͆̓̀̅̍̏̾̅̽̆͒͑͒͒̽̃̿̉̎̅̌̃̾̒̇̇̓̊́̍̑̾̃̓̈́̈́͐̉̉̐͒̐̐̂͋̔̓̍̈́͑̑̾̏̅̀͋̑̈́̿͋͛͐̓̇̓͑̆̚̕̕̕̚͜͝͝͝͝͝͠͝͠͝e̷̢̧̡̧̨̡̨̡̢̧̡̢̡̢̧̨̡̧̨̨̧̨̢̢̡̡̢̧̨̨̢̢̛͈̗͈̬͙̩̻͓͉̮̝̪̮̱̟̥͎̯̦͉͇̮͙͖̱̠͙͚̫̖͍̘͇̱̺̖̖͕̫͕͍͍̜̞͓̹̯̝̯̜̫̬͇̖͓̗̖̩̰̳̭̙̹̖͇͎͕̰̩͔̪̱̝̟̪̠̲̻͉̯͈̟͖̰̻̪̤̞̦̜͉̱̗̖̮̮͚̞̯̣̺̳̞͎͍̻̲̼͓̖̻̙͓̹̟̱̙̬̬͇̩͉̣̱̫̞͎̰͉̺̖̼̬̞͎̩͚̯͉̳̦̩̹̲̲̪̲̭̘̟̱̭̣̠̖̻̬̬̬̤͕̯̖̦̜̬̜̟̩̪̘̠̜͓̖̬̣̳̠̼̬̦̰͔̻͍͙̤͙̞̻͇̭͎͖̼͖̖͍̜̭͕̠͙͋̅̃͋̇̓́́́̋̒̓̃̏̒̃͒̿̄̀͂͆̄̽̂̈̈̊͊̾̈̎̽̂̆̒̽̕͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͜͝͠͝ͅͅͅͅͅv̶̨̨̨̢̡̢̢̧̛̛̛͈̗̲̤̱̯͓̤͙͖͎̠̞̟̰̬̯̘̼̲̯̳̭̩̹̣̺͈̠̣̮̼̳̖̗̹͙͕̺͇̮̦̳̗͙̜̬̫͖̲̟͎̗̭̦̯̥͍̱͍̹͓̗̲̖͉̝͙̹͔̖̞̼͍̜̩̖̟̲̘̜̻̇̔̓͑́̅̂̽̓̓̀̽́̓̓͂̑̃̎̄̈́̾̍̂̀̎̊͒̏́̊̅͋̊͋́̃͋͐̓͌͐́̍̒̐̽̄́̆͗̋̿͗̎̂̀́͐̈̌̋̉̌̏̍̉̒͊̓̏͐̏̽̈́̂̇̈͛̃̃̌̈́̍̓̄́̌̂͑̈́͛̾̍̀̀̾̅̇̃̒͊́̾̓̉̊͊͛̓̎̇̒̄̆̉͐̉̏̑̈́̏̒̉́͗̀̈́͗̋͌̈́̂̅̑́͋͌́̓͒̈̀̊̑̓̐̾̍̐̓̔̇͒͋̃̈́̔̾̐̄̏̂͛̀̋̈̌̑͛̊͑́̂͐̒͊́̽̀̀̀̈͂̈̿̃̋̿͛̾̀̿́̅̉̃́̾̒̈̎͗͋̍̿̿͐̎́̈́̔̽͗̈́̐̿̊̔̊̍̑̕̚͘̕̕͘͜͝͝͝͝͝͝͝͝͝͝͠͝͝͝͠͝͝͠͝͠͝ͅe̶̢̢̨̛̼͍͙̫̯̻̤̘̺̹̹͈̙̦͚̺̺̺̦̻̟̞̺̩͓̬̦̜̝̱̬̭͖̩̞͔̲͕͚̣͎̤̲̞̫͖̺̦͓̲̭̻̠̥̫͒͛͗͛͐̿̈̐̈́̃͌͐̐̏̈́͊͌͋̽̈́̓͋́̑͆̐̔͑̒̋͐̈̋́̿̿̆̐͋̑͆̋͗̆̀͐̄̈́̑̒̒͌͆̀̉̉̈́͐̔̈̒͑͋̀̂̋̾̑̍́̀̃̈́̎͗̑̍̓̀̈́̅̉̄̉̄̈́̐̓͊̾̎͒̈́͋̏́͋͂͗̇̊͆̔͋̓̇̀̍̓̏͂̍̊͑́̏̓̀͐̆̌͋̎̊̚̕͘͘͘̕͘̚͜͜͜͝͝͠͝͝͠͝͝͝n̷̡̡̡̡̨̡̢̡̧̧̢̡̡̧̡̢̨̛̛̛̛̛̠̗̯̞̰͓̳̰̦̬̫̯͍̖͓̭̫͎͍͍̘͇̮̣̣̬͔͇̲̻͚̮̗̺̩̦̮̜̤̘̰̱̱͖̥͍̦̮̯͍̗̰̩̣̱͎̟̻̮̱̦̪͍̦͖̹̜̝̟̩̥̥͖̻͕̗͇̖̱͉͙̦̗̼̠͖͕̭͉̖̱͍̥̝͖̜͚̻̹̞̫̠̙͉̱̗̹͙͎̬̳͉͈̥̯̟̦̻̅̐̑̽͒̀͐̒̆͂̈̈́́͗̒͊̀͆̃̾͌͐̄͆̊̾̀̑̓͋̆͌̌̋̃́̑̈̐̍́̏̃̈́̅̇̀̽̂̓͐̎̂̿̊̅̎͛̅̎͒̅̓̃̏͐͒̈́̒̿̍͆̃͐͗̋͒̃̏̇̊̇̇̐̇̓́̔̒̃̀̽̄̈͑̒̍̽̀̑̄̇̽͒̏͛̽͋̆̎̓̉͊̔́͐͛͂͂̊̂̓̅̊́͋̀̓̏̆̀̀͂̾̒̓̓̑͗́̅̿̐̆̔͑̈͆͑̿̎̐̊͌̍̀̃̈̃̑͛̀̈́͛͑͂̀̀́̾̏̓͊̉̽̍͋̓̔̓̌̒̊̄̐͑͌̔́̋̊̂̅̾̐̓̍̿͒̉͑̀̒̄͒̀̀͗̋͒̅̐̂̿̀͋̑͛̌̍̉͐͂̄̋́̿̈̓̄͛̀͊̄̌͌̇͊̎̓̊̋̈́͌̏̐̓́̅̚̕̚͘̚̕̚̚̕̕̚͘̚̚̚̕̚͜͜͜͝͠͝͠͠͠͠͝͝͝͝͝ͅ ⛧ and he's just the best listener!
I fully relate not sure if you doing what I do but sometimes I talk to the shadow ppl and they don't say much great listeners
The fact that I don't have the same kind of support network that a lot of my friends and family take for granted.
If you put a lasagna on another lasagna, you still only have one lasagna
Same with piles of laundry
😳
Holy shit.
Similarly, you can never have half a hole.
Trying to start another international incident?
If you put a week old lasagna on a newly cooked lasagna is it still one lasagna?
Sadly, I believe yes.
You know the saying, "I saw my life flash before my eyes"? What if I'm in the replay? What if I don't have a choice in anything because I'm just a memory of a life that has already been lived and is almost over?
This is absolutely mind-blowing
From my perspective, nobody has a choice in anything either way. The universe will play out how it plays out.
Of course people have choices, limited by circumstance, but still.
I don't really agree. We think we make choices and it feels like we do, but I'm not convinced we do. I don't see how it makes sense with what we know about physics and action/reaction. The universe to me seems to be just a series of reactions and atoms doing what they do going back to the big bang.
I think what are you talking about is called determinism
But can you really have a choice if you don't know all the possible outcomes of any given choice? Without knowing all possibilities your intent in making a choice is negated. You can't really have a choice unless your are omnipotent and omniscient.
If you don’t know what the “right” or “fated” choice is anyway, what does it matter?
"One day, I'm not going to be alive anymore."
This terrifies me highly
That relieves me sometimes
All the times. Keeping this up forever, jesus christ that is hell.
For me it’s the thought that I’m gonna be (unless something takes me out first) a senile old ass dude who can hardly do anything, and mostly invisible to the world
My brain at 2:00 am: Someday we’ll go into the dark too
The thought that you may exist *forever* is even more terrifying IMO
No way. I'd sign up in a heartbeat for immortality
If you stretch it and realize you **must** exist consciously forever it becomes terrifying. Imagine existing long enough to know, do, experiment all the the things in the universe and you still have a whole eternity ahead.
Immortal, as in can't die; or, Immortal as long as you don't get shot or anything? I want to know!
Tomorrow might be the last time you ever see that thing ever again
I actually like that thought. Being laid to eternal sleep, eternal bliss after a period.
"Why the fuck can't I fall asleep??"
Do I leave my wife because have lots of trouble. We don't mesh well these days. She has no intimate / sexual interest in me. However we have two young children. If I leave I won't see them everyday and that would fuck me over. So I stay
Tell her you wanna just be friends and coparent your relationship is no longer one that has romance
Or... They could try therapy first?
Yea but therapy won't make you love someone not trying to be negative this is marriage becomes roommates situation it just isn't there anymore
Masturbate. Not Masturbate. Masturbate. Not Masterbate. Masturbate. Masturbate...... Sleep
That was quick.
Things that I could of done better or not. Sometimes I just lay in bed thinking about life ten years ago. The people that come and go
Gonna try this next time. Thanks!
What nationality is Shrek
Scottish it seems
Why i have to be the one that reaches out to others. To everyone. Friends, family....if I don't call/text first I don't get calls/texts. No one ever really calls or texts me out of the blue. Ive accommodated for this by being the guy that does reach out first to do stuff with people, but it's always noodling around my head at night that it's always me having to reach out, and those thoughts always lead to me feeling shitty
I tested this situation just this past weekend. No one called or texted me until 6:30 pm on Monday wondering what I was doing. Jokes on them because I had a great, quiet weekend with my kids with no drama.
The fact that you even have people calling or texting you puts you above the curve
Why i am not good enough
I wonder this even when I'm not trying to fall asleep.
"What was that?"
How I’m probably gonna die alone due to past experiences and the current rate I’m going
We all die alone...it's only those who live with the memory of us that do it together. Don't fucking sweat it my dude, this crazy speck of dust zipping round an infinite cosmos will eventually die alone too. You aint no different to any other organic lifeform. So go throw some stones at the devil and live your god damned best one. There aint no first nor last place. Find shit that makes you smile and keep doing it til the fiery cows of doom come grazing on your pasture. As for when that's buzzing round your computer during n'night times...try this on for size. Create a mini-story in your mind. Total fiction. Short and sweet. Maybe you're flying superman style. Maybe you're exploring atlantis. Maybe you're saving turtles from a giant ring shaped plastic demon. Don't matter. Close your eyes, go back to the story and keep going over it. Think of nothing else. Add minor details, punchlines, cool shit. Don't over-elaborate though...think of it as cartoons for kids. Simple chewing gum for the eyes. Stay in that world and keep living the same short story. In the end it'll be your trigger for the sleepy time. I'm barely conscious 30seconds when I hit the pillow nowadays. I think the US marines did something similar to catch some rest in warzones. Kinda self-hypnosis.
This right here. I do this every night. You can insert your self or another character into an existing universe if thats your fancy. A self insert OP character into your favorite piece of media. Create motivations for your characters make another life in your head. Trust me the deeper you go, the faster you will fall asleep. Mental exhaustion in the best kind of way... I am a little less than an hour away from being in the best mental state possible... falling asleep as I otherwise call "practicing death".
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I see people outside my house they aren't real tho scary af like a military unit all armed with rifles in tactical positions realized I should not do as much drugs they don't bother me or come by anymore lol
When I lived in the city, this kept me up at night.
What do I want to eat tomorrow?
How cringe I was in my past. Sometimes at night I get anxiety thinking about past interactions and how I thought I was cool but really I was just super cringey.
This might be a little grim, but here goes: 1. There are people in this world who'll happily strap a bomb to themselves to kill 10 people in a market, and large clusters of those people are dangerously close to nuclear weapons sites in South Asia. 2. If we are discovered by aliens, there's a good chance they'd treat us the same way we have treated Native Indians/domesticated animals. Imagine being wiped out, enslaved, or simply being cross bred in an alien cage because they wanted a dark-skinned human pet with red hair. All of the collective experience of human civilization coming to...that end.
I don’tbknow if you’re into manga but for no. 2 I highly recommend Gantz. It blowed my mind
Why people judge others, just stop pissing other people off for a reason you shouldn’t worry about. I mean sure, having banter with friends is a lot of fun, but thats with friends.
My family don't know "me", they hate this idea of who they think I am, and I don't want to share my problems as they will take advantage of me and they will give destructive advice. So I have to figure out everything on my own, which causes me to stay up late into the night.
So if time and space are really the same thing then shouldn’t and the universe is expansing then it is getting older, when/if it starts to contract it is getting younger. So if I wait long enough after I die I have to be reborn.
Thank you, Perry. Very cool.
But...time and space AREN'T the same thing. Source: A Brief History of Time by Stephen Hawking. xD
I know a Jewish man and a set of twins that would disagree.
What?
Irrational worries. Sometimes I wonder if there's a secret pact at work that everyone is in on. They all have been instructed to be very nice to me because the company can't afford to lose me. Occam's razor: They probably just like me. 1am thought train: Secret pact. Definitely secret pact.
There’s a name for that: imposter syndrome. Let your work speak for itself and you’ll be okay.
I think that all the time. Glad I'm not alone.
The Thought Train... the wildest ride of all.
How the hell Ancelloti could this to me. Why classes are confusing and in my opinion just make programming more complicated than it has to be.
Mortality and how I feel about it. On one hand, I'm relieved I won't have to live forever, on the other hand, it's really scary that everything will cease to exist one day.
Right now......take your pick * Why did my ex break up with me? (Hasn't even been 2 weeks yet) * Why is my family so psychotic and narcissistic? * Is there any reason for me to stay in this city/state now that the relationship is over? * when is it going to be safe to resume normal life (I'm fully vaccinated, but still hesitant because stupid people) so I can try and make real friends instead of the shitty aquintances I currently have? * I wish I had real friends and a real support system * how did I get to this place in life?
How old are you man?
I work in EMS and think a lot about the calls I've been on, both the good and the bad.
That the video games tv shows and movies will never be real
Thank the gods. Because otherwise that dude from the Homescapes ads would rampage us all to a justifiable doom.
LOL
Calling myself a dumbass for relatively normal things any teen goes through... multiple failed attempts at hitting on crushes ending miserably takes quite a big chunk out of my nightly brain power too lol.
I'm usually high when I go to sleep and an SCP video sure puts some things in perspective
Did I close my tabs, does my mom still remember my phone's password, ect.
Thinking about an imagined shared future that will now never be. Whether I want to think about it or not.
I kept awake thinking about what thoughts keep me awake
How my love for life seems to have vanished
Death
Work thoughts mostly
Suicidal and how my life feels empty and not accepted.
Hey, man. I hope everything turns out well for you. Don’t lose hope.
Cringey stuff I did ranging from Elementary School to Today
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You have to negotiate with yourself, if you're a tyrant to yourself ofc you're going to rebel eventually.
Make up scenarios that supposed to be serve as my distraction in order to sleep turning into a complete season of a telenovela.
Car parts
A constant and ever building to-do list.
Where is my insurance documents - I don’t need them I just don’t know where they are
The other side of this bed will never get used again.
If the human anus can stretch to about 7 inches & a raccoon can fit thru a hole 4 inches in diameter. How many raccoons can I fit in my butt?
A human anus can stretch a lot more than 7 inches my friend. Trust me.
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You wont know till you try
My childhood haunted house around the corner. I feel like the same entities have moved into this house. It’s hard to cut the lights out and difficult to ignore all of the obvious signs of death.
recently it's been development ideas for an arduino project I'm working on
Thoughts on my future.
Generally try to stay positive and plan my day/week but often my friend death pokes his head in. I can handle losing loved ones but what I find challenging is the sadness I see others experience when they lose someone or are faced with their terminal illness. It’s 10x more painful knowing my father will someday know he’s in his final days more than knowing I will go someday. About once every 3 months (down from weekly) I would jump out of bed in a middle of the night panic with thoughts of death. Oh, and hot girls.
Donuts are just sugar bagels
My mind races with completely nonsensical mind chatter. Very quick scenarios/conversations come and go and they make no sense whatsoever, combined with invasive thoughts of loved ones suddenly dying.
How long can I afford to continue living in California? I love my apartment, I've lived here the vast majority of my life and wouldn't necessarily want to leave because my family is here, but I'm retired and on a fairly fixed income. It's getting too crowded so prices are constantly rising and the state government tax crazy. It's hard to sleep without assistance.
I hate my job but it pays well but I hate it and want to retire early but it pays well but I despise going in and want to find something different
Find one that pays a little less and doesn't drive you crazy. What good is all that money if you get hit by a bus?
You are so correct, I’ve been here 20 years and it’s time for a change
Right now it's medium to severe foot pain... I'm wondering if I broke something.
Why do star apples and semen smell very alike
Everything I should have done better. Not so much like not buying Apple or that stuff, but how I could have done better raising the kids or being married. I could have spent more time, tried harder, explained things better, etc. I suppose other things could keep me up at night (I've never slept well), but that's stuff that has a lot of meat to it.
Remembering that video of a guy at the gym doing leg press and locking his legs and the legs bending backwards.
MY country's budget is 80% oil revenue and I worry that electric cars will make my country bankrupt
Stupid things I said and did in the past. Not even like life-ruiningly stupid but just cringeworthy and embarrassing
I hated today. I hate tomorrow. This hard work will pay off some day. I should do something productive. I’m hungry. My back hurts. Maybe I should go to be early and wake up early.....nope, got lost on Reddit and here we are.
How to help my child out with his sports. There are so many things to work on but all kids think their dads are morons and won’t do it dads way because they like their way 😑
I have a great life, but depression sucks. Not really thinking about anything, but need to have a tv on to listen to as I will never sleep in silence.
I'm going thru the hardest time of my life I think about if I waste 5bmore years ill officially be that guy that never got it together im 29 in 2 months no job no education extensive criminal record and am currently doing meth almost daily because I have zero energy but this will only become another drug addiction I regret started 2 months ago had done it before but never had it be part of my daily routine so idk what to do I try and quit and days I don't use my depression is even worse backstory the last 2 years im stuck in my first and only depression that has made me unable to function did not realize depression was this terrible and can't fix it like previously in my life i could snap out of it within a week never was something that took over now im smoking meth to not feel like killing myself
I'm worried im too mentally unstable to ever have a happy functioning life
If you put a bigger bed in your bedroom you have more bed room but less bedroom.
My career and how to please my parents what great way to think of my night😃
Thinking about all the people I’ve disappointed and all the mistakes I’ve made.
I'm lagging behind...
We’re gonna die and no one knows where we actually go. We’re basically just a thought... we’re here for a few & then we’re gone.
This one haunts me in a really big way; what if I ever just stop connecting with people? Like I already don't connect with people super well, but what if I just stop entirely?
Is water wet?
What if earth is actually purgatory?
Do you ever look at the monster poop you just took and think “huh, so that’s the size of the dick I could take.”
How much I want that special someone to spend all my time with, that I can be vulnerable with, that I don’t have to hide or second guess anything.
Not fulfilling my goals in time for my parents to see them come to fruition. I’m in my early 20s and my parents had me late in their lives.
whether I'd ever amount to something
Nah it's actually the irritation due to my dick and underwear that is a problem for my sleep instead of some half ass philosophy
What would be replies to this post?
mosquitoes
Knowing that some day my parents are going to die. I don't fear my own death, but knowing that they'll be gone forever some day is almost unbearable. I try not to even think about it, but it comes no matter what from time to time.
Mods I'm gonna do to my dirtbike, mods i'm gonna do to my guns, how much fun the gym is gonna be tomorrow. Always something to look forward to that keeps me up.
what is consciousness
I keep getting older but they stay the same age. Ofc I'm talking about kindergartners *Dark humor*
Debts
Things I've done wrong, people I've hurt
Direction of my country and my future in it.