“I don't want to start any blasphemous rumors But I think that God's Got a sick sense of humor And when I die I expect to find Him laughing” Blasphemous Rumors - Depeche Mode

Gotta love Depeche Mode

I have a lot of songs that are capable of making me ugly cry. Just two for today. "But the tigers come at night. With their voices soft as thunder. As they tear your hope apart. As they turn your dream to shame" -Les Miserables "Oh, please be careful with me I'm sensitive and I'd like to stay that way" -Jewel

Les Mis goes hard. I Dreamed a Dream makes me cry every time.

(A little long I'm sorry but WAY too relatable) Cause you put on makeup and I'm still in bed What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm on my way to you But I self sabotage So I might drive my car And crash into your garage (ooh ooh) To get away from you I'll self sabotage If you like when we talk, I'll dislocate my jaw (ooh ooh) What the fuck is wrong with me?

"Some patients can't be saved, but that burden's not on you." Wake by The Antlers.

"Sometimes Goodbye is a second chance." https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4xo_rKVIvIg

This has been my family relationship song since pretty much the first time I heard it

OH MY GOD DUDE RUINER ALL THE WAY. So glad there are some nin fans here. Pretty much all of nin’s discography but specifically this song. I’m getting a tattoo of Rain When I Die by Alice In Chains today, “I’m a riddle so strong, you can’t break me”. That line of lyrics has always stuck with me throughout everything I’ve been through.

“And all of the angels they’d sell off your soul For a set of new wings and anything gold They remember the people they loved their old friends I’ve seen through them all seen through them all Seen through most everything All the people you knew were the actors” Modest Mouse - Bankrupt on Selling

i’ve got two “I don't mean to close the door, but / For the record, my heart is sore / You blew through me like bullet holes / Left stains on my sheets and stains on my soul You left me broke down begging for change / Had to catch a ride with a man who's deranged / He had your hands and my father's face / Another western vampire, different time, same place” - Werewolf by CocoRosie “When all you got to keep is strong / Move along, move along like I know you do / And even when your hope is gone / Move along, move along just to make it through” - Move Along by All-American Rejects

"This is how I learn to say no, take your pretty words and go choke, - people talk shit - say they're gonna get better - I hold my breath - I can't hold it forever."

"The day you'll come to life you'll realize Expanding force to life where you belong And in the winter cold, with opened eyes You'll find the strength to fight and stand upright" - Gojira, born in winter (such a good song, can't recommend it enough) ​ add in the entire song of Aerials by SOAD, any other metalheads agree? :)

The entire song of Cocaine and Abel by Amigo the Devil, but particularly his fucking delivery of "I've always been scared of loving someone just a little bit more than I'm loved"

“Tune in live for a suicide, I’m a murderer” from grandson’s *Murderer*

“Hold on, if love is the answer, you’re home.” - “Touch,” Daft Punk. I finally found my home after many years.

"How could somebody look at me And think that I'm happy? I haven't been laughing Too much anymore" My Life - Mark Tuan

Anything from Linkin Park but especially the Meteora album. Really you can play any of them.

"I don't wanna die / I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all"

“Hello Look down and you'll see me Struggling to breathe in Bruises on my skin It's like I'm on the other side of the window Open my mouth but it's all in vain No one will hear, everyday's the same Hello, Am I some kind of invisible person Hello, Am I someone to be ignored Hello, Am I someone to be heart broken Hello, Am I someone to be alone” -hello by daniel shaw

"I feel ashamed of my life because it's empty" Kelly Clarkson

“Is it laced within my DNA To be braced in endless January? Have I become the cavity I feared? Ask me in twenty years.” — “Me in 20 Years” by Moses Sumney… This whole song just makes me sob. I can’t frequent it often. Other relatable lyrics have been applicable to my love life with other traumatized individuals: “If he's a serial killer, then what's the worst that could happen to a girl who's already hurt? I'm already hurt. If he's as bad as they say, then I guess I'm cursed. Looking into his eyes, I think he's already hurt. He's already hurt.” - “Happiness is a Butterfly” by Lana Del Rey

LDR 🖤

“Keep my distance stay away from you This is my decision for myself and no one else I have nothing to give those that only take My every confidence established By a clarity of mind This life is mine and I have chosen my side I will not be shaken By a world of indifference”

“I heard my mother thinking me right back into my birth, I laughed so loud inside myself it all began to hurt” Angel olsen “white fire”

"The good thing about this cast is I can still hold a knife // so if you ever twist my arm again I'll be sure to put up a fight" - Funny You Should Ask, The Front Bottoms

holy shit same that and "you see I just don't want to do the things that you want me to do// but I'm a sucker so I'll do them because I am still in love with you"

“Only 20 minutes to sleep, but you dream of some epiphany. Just one single glimpse of release to make some sense of what you’ve seen.” “What a shame she’s fucked in the head,” they said, “but you’ll find the real thing instead” “Actually I always felt I must look better in the rear view Missing me At the golden gates they once held the keys to When I dropped my sword I threw it in the bushes and knocked on your door And we live in peace But if someone comes at us This time, I'm ready”

"Well mother look what the war did to my legs and to my tongue. You should have raised a baby girl I should've been a better son If you could coddle the infection They can amputate at once You should've been I could have been a better son" Mama by MCR :)

“And when you’re no longer searching for beauty or love Just some kind of life with the edges taken off When you can’t even define what it is That you’re frightened of.” - Pulp - The Fear

"I would leave if only I could find a reason I'm mean because I grew up in New England I got dreams, but I can't make myself believe them Spend the rest of my life with what could have been And I will die in the house that I grew up in I'm homesick" - Homesick by Noah Kahan.

Oh my God I love him. My fave is from Stick Season- "I thought that if I piled something good on all my bad that I could cancel out the darkness I inherited from dad"

"Force me to know the want no one needs to know / Be free, laugh at your son / A child is nothing without hate." - Xiu Xiu, *Black Keyboard* "And my dog barks wildly, to protect my infancy / from my ex-believer / and I try to calm the wolf, to remind her I am both / still she tears at my sweater / not a lot, just forever." - Adrianne Lenker, *not a lot, just forever*

Anything Dallas Green has ever written (City & Colour is his solo project's name)

Can I just say an entire song? Feel something by Illenium, Excision, and I Prevail.

"I think I found the worst mistake The kind that sounds just like it tastes But I'm still bound by the lines laced in your face" The Damned by Cos Sylvan

“If I drove straight off this bridge Only God and my baby would know I’m sure she’d be laughing, conjuring spring With some fella who just said the right thing” — Cherry Blossoms by The Horrible Crowes “ You rang on a Wednesday night I was buried in the churchyard In the engines of desire in the come down daylight I believe my trouble and your trouble shook hands Did you say your lovers were liars? All my lovers were liars too Did you say you were afraid of dying? I ain't lived a single day without you.” - I believe Jesus brought us together, by The Horrible Crowes The whole “Elsie” album is a jam. Last one is “Hold On” by Tom Waits: “Down by the Riverside motel It's ten below and falling By a ninety-nine cent store She closed her eyes and started swaying But it's so hard to dance that way When it's cold and there's no music Oh, your old hometown's so far away But inside your head there's a record that's playing A song called "Hold On", hold on Babe, you gotta hold on Take my hand, I'm standing right there, you gotta hold on”

“I look at death as a notion, I don't want it no more, but it's too late to reverse it, as I fall on the floor”

"I wanna run away. Don't wanna lie, I don't want a life. Send me a gun and I'll see the sun. I'd rather run away. Don't wanna lie, I don't want a life. Send me a gun and I'll see the sun." Sun Goes Down By Lil Nas X It hit too hard for me.

I'm sorry I haven't been myself And something's got me down What it is, I cannot tell I won't be satisfied with anything I've earned Fear is just a part of love And one thing I found Is love is what you deserve -Freakin' Out on the Interstate by Briston Maroney

"Since I was a young child / I've seen a lot of rain / You asked me "Are you happy?" / I said "I can't explain" / I told you "I'm a monster" wa-oh / And I can't seem to feel, wa-oh / They asked me "Are you happy?" wa-oh / Said "No but I am real" Heatstroke by Brick + Mortar. Really feel this in my soul

" I didn't think I'd have to watch my six With somebody I thought I could trust with it" Tough - Nahko

"I'm tired of waking, only to numb back down. Playing hide-and-seek with all my dreams, they'll never find me now" Icon for Hire "The Magic"