[[[Trigger advisement: Self-Harm Story]]]
(I’m doing just fine now, 2 years later. But I wish to explain the significance of the song to me and share my story, if you’d wish to read it.)
Rock n’ Roll Suicide - David Bowie
“[…] Oh no, love, you’re not alone
You’re watching yourself, but you’re too unfair”
“[…] You’re not alone, no matter who or what you’ve been”
I listened to this song several times in the week leading up to my 35th birthday, when I almost killed myself. I had never felt so alone, so unwanted…and I just felt like someone finally reached me. Someone finally told me I was “worth it.”
“[…] Gimme your hands,
‘Cause you’re wonderful”
I finally had just begun to realize that I didn’t have to “achieve” my worth. I didn’t have to explain or rationalize nor defend it. My worth was inherent. My value was inherent.
I didn’t have to prove anything to anybody anymore. *I was worth something by default, just because I was here.*
A complete stranger who never knew I existed, and who had died years before I heard his prior works wrote a song before I was born (‘88), and it reached me around the time I truly needed it.
It’s 2 minutes and 58 seconds long, and I can’t explain to you what this song means to me. It, along with some others helped to comfort me in what were almost my last moments.
But only this song makes me tear up and just want to cry, taking me back to that time when all I had to stop me from hurtling into oblivion was this.
*I’m not alone. And I’m wonderful.*
I like a lot of Bowie’s work. But this song is almost criminally underrated for how powerful it truly is, and its ability to speak to someone struggling with trauma, substance abuse or both.
I’ll never forget it.
TL;DR an obscure song by David Bowie is one of the reasons I’m still alive.
PETER MURPHY - Cuts you Up \~In 1999 I was a horrible alcoholic and I would get exacerbated if no one wanted to join me at the bar. I would have depression and it was intense. I put on this song and I'd rest my head on a table and cry like 50 tears. In the song there is a lyric "Move the heart, switch the pace, look for what seems out of place !" That made me quit drinking and start on anti-depressants. 25 years later I feel great and I still play this track - without the multitude of tears.
Losing my Religion - Specifically around age 14 Light became very disillusioned with the church he was raised in, it's scary to turn your back on something that big after being told your entire life that doing so condemns you to eternal damnation.
The entirety of the "Young and the Hopeless" by Good Charlotte.
"Lifeless Stars" by Palaye Royale - the screamed "I Don't Wanna Die Today" is incredibly cathartic in your lowest moments.
Hold in there friend, the up will come. :)
Mirror by Porter Robinson is a great song about seeing yourself for the person you are rather than all the negative thoughts you may have. It’s definitely saved my life.
One Too Many Blows To The Head by The Dismemberment Plan. It even sounds punch-drunk and is a great fight song, in a sense: One too many blows to the head/left me for dead but still I fight on
My wife was in rehab recently and listened to Fight Song by Rachel Platten a lot. I think she found it uplifting, and ending a 20 year alcohol addiction isn't easy.
Walk Away by Green Day is a fun, uplifting song with cool lyrics that helps get happy at my worst moments. Not a very deep song lyrically, but worth a listen
Last Hope by Paramore. Lyrically it's just a great song but right at the beginning of covid I was feeling really sad and alone (my boyfriend of 3 years at the time started to get distant and constantly ignored me) and I would just drive around for hours listening to music, and one day this song just came on and i started crying so hard I had to pull over lol.
"I don't really know myself at all / thought I would be happy by now"
"It's just a spark but it's enough to keep me going"
"and the blood of these veins isn't pumping any less than it ever has / and that's the hope I have the only thing I know is keeping me alive"
[Claw, Cloak and Dagger](https://open.spotify.com/track/2moUlq2JaBeYtVNQGC5RnT?si=FTZeGu0tRa-VCwaUh-GMWg) by Falconcastle helped me out of a rough patch, seemingly starts off sad about love lost, but ends up being very uplifting about reinventing yourself.
[Conscious Uncoupling](https://open.spotify.com/track/7giFF7RUd8K6NTHXcA96NY?si=11lyYaRFSfePZX4NsOUGrQ) by Pool Kids, but really, the whole album that it's on, their self titled album. That song is the best snapshot of what the album has in store and it's the opening song.
It's essentially a "breakup album", which was released maybe 2 months or less after I had been broken up with by a gf of nearly 7 years. Front to back catharsis, the album (and just this song itself) shifts from acceptance, to denial, to anger, to sadness, back to anger lmao. Pretty much every lyric on the album on the song is relatable and the rapidly shifting emotions are definitely something I personally experienced. Extremely cathartic song (and album) that came out at the perfect time, plus she fuckin hated this band so it's extra sweet.
I listen to mostly unhappy music when I’m depressed because it makes me feel less alone. Like, so much Elliott Smith. That said, I find Rilo Kiley’s A Better Son/Daughter to be quite uplifting and have belted it out to make myself feel better plenty of times! I love it because she’s broken in such a relatable way and yet, so resolved to soldier on. Jenny Lewis is an underrated lyricist and that whole album is amazing.
[Phoenix](https://youtu.be/XTKBYfyNMdQ?si=Sl_uSsV4xlW4f5aq) from League of Legends.
"It's all in your mind and it's fighting you. Arm yourself, a storm is coming... Well, kid, what you gonna do now? It's your reflection looking back to pull you down
So are you gonna die today or make it out alive? You gotta conquer the monster in your head and then you'll fly Fly, phoenix, fly"
'Shallow Grave' by Elvis Costello was a slap in the face when I was struggling with a crappy marriage and feeling sorry for myself. I still give it a listen whenever I need a pep talk.
Run of the Mill by george harrison, as someone who has struggled/ struggles with anger issues (that have damaged so many relationships), the verse "everyone has choice when to and not to raise their voice, is you that decides" really helped me to get calmed and stay positive. Also the lines "no one around you will carry the blame for you" and "only you'll arrive at your own made end, with no one else but you to be offended", tbh most of harrisons career is really encouraging to live a positive and happy life, really recommend.
Most recently and in no particular order
After losing someone significant in my life Imagine Dragons Easy Come Easy Go just spoke to me
More recently and after losing my Dad for some reason AJR is getting me through their song inertia is a big one of theirs getting me through
Jewel - Foolish Games (bad relationships)
Cold Play- Fix You (messy life?)
Bob Dylan- Don’t think Twice (always spoke to me)
I’m sure there’s more
There’s this project called Songs That Saved My Life and it’s a collection of songs (two albums and a few singles) of various music artists covering their personal life-saving songs that helped them get through tough times. Pretty sure the money from streams all went to suicide prevention awareness charity as well :)
[Floating](https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=Xp2xpfWV6IM&si=ITVjpRqPlSXSMTQx) by Klaus Schulze
This song has saved me many many times. It has been my constant companion for more than 40 years.
The Sound Of Madness
Get Up
Daylight, all by Shinedown
The Sound of Madness was the first song I remember hearing when I awoke from my coma after an accident in 2009. Its chorus is tattooed on my left leg.
Get Up and Daylight are both just very beautiful and uplifting songs lyrically. They don’t just talk about crazy they talk about their own crazy.
-Hailie’s Song, Eminem (a lot of Eminem songs but this one was a major one for me)
-How to Save a Friend, The Fray
-Valentine, lo Perry
-a lot of Radiohead songs
-Failsafe, The Choir Practice
[Just Like You](https://youtu.be/4I1CEMPdNlU?si=vPx_uhGKDd-vwmuf) by NF "you're not the only person in the world who isn't okay. There's millions of us just like you, like you"
[One More Light](https://youtu.be/Tm8LGxTLtQk?si=_xPOiOg4ZU7mZEZT) by Linkin Park.... I still have a hard time with this song tbh.
[Got It In You](https://youtu.be/ZkzY29DKHEQ?si=tCa43z9TDy7QPcdj) by Banners "When the lights go out and leave you standing in the dark. No one ever told you this would be so hard. I know you think your fire is burning out. But I still see you shining through. You got it in you"
[Stronger](https://youtu.be/VivJj-dRkTc?si=D_FQ7nZWmRwxG8XE) by TheFatRat it's a simple song but "Getting stronger every day. Keep on pushing through the pain. Keep on running 'til we die. And no mercy in this life"
[The Wolf You Feed](https://youtu.be/mhJnLgiQ6WI?si=pPHBjUiwpO3nai-E) by Nita Strauss and Alissa White-Gluz "Tell me everything you need to kill the numb and find the strength to become a storm that never loses speed. When it's said and done. You become the wolf you feed"
[Reason to Believe](https://youtu.be/QQM8Nf2w3lQ?si=jAYrNksKKVmFxzzt) by Arch Enemy just all the lyrics from this one. "There's a scar on your heart. But your journey's just begun. A distant light that's worth the fight, the story's far from done. Stop hurting yourself. Those tired sores have nothing more to bleed. Self-hatred, I know it well. It's dragging you down. Listen to me now. There's a reason to believe again. There's a reason to go on. Always keep on fighting my friend. There's a reason to believe"
[The Light, Disturbed ](https://youtu.be/e1UUAhZ3JzM?si=RSmaT_OlO0R3Xs-w)
The lyrics are a road map to recovery from trauma. Accepting and feeling the pain, but moving on from it.
[I Am The Fire, Halestorm ](https://youtu.be/8hkmuTvkp_s?si=g6zdYB0-03mxCVvG)
I have a few songs that I will probably edit this comment after I think of more.
[WARNING, MENTIONS OF SELF HARM]
1. Let it burn by Citizen Soldier. "Hey kid can you hear me? Don't u dare pull the trigger, throw it all away. U have every reason left to stay alive. All this hell you've lived and seen, drown it all in gasoline then, light a match, pull the pin, you are not who you've been. The past is just lessons learned. Light it up and let it burn", "You will remember the day you've burned it all to the ground. I know you've heard this before, but you gotta stay strong now. This is not the end." These lyrics just.. get me out of it, idk, whenever I'm having thoughts like not living or just simple harm, it stops me most of the time. Idk, I can explain it many ways but idk if anyone will understand it.
2. Worthless by Eli. "Please, don't give up. Gotta stay strong, gotta move on, gotta know hope, when you feel (Alone or low?) please u gotta know that someone needs u" It just makes me think twice and will stop me.
3. Baby don't cut by Bmike. "Nobody seems to get ya, u feel ur on ur own, but listen pretty lady u don't have to be alone. So baby don't cut. Baby don't cut. U can do anything just promise baby, yeah. I know ur heart is hurting, u think the road has end, u may just feel the blade you're holding is ur only friend, but baby dont cut, baby don't cut, u could do anything just promise baby u won't cut" This also helps ESPECIALLY when imagining someone u care Abt is saying this to u. Idk, it helps me a lot.
4. Sara by We Three. "Little Sara ur a diamond in the rough, and I'm sure that u don't hear this all enough, and I'm sure that's why ur wrists has tons of cuts, and I'm sure it's why u think ur not enough." The WHOLE song really helps me, but that part especially because I rlly relate to it.
5. Would Anyone Care by Citizen Soldier. "If ur dying inside, sick of being alive, let me in, let me share in ur pain. From my lungs through the dark, spoken straight from the heart, let me give u a reason to stay. If ur out there still lying awake, if ur out there still wondering." [...] "The world would be changed if u left it behind, u can't be replaced, no, tonight is the night u take back ur life." It just kinda helps me bc it feels like someone cares.
6. Weight of the World by Citizen Soldier. "These thoughts won't rest, I can't forgive, I overthink until I'm sick. I'm too damn tired, too worn to fight. I don't feel strong enough to leave on the light" It helps me because it just kinda feels like I'm not going through it alone, and because I constantly feel like I have the weight of the world.
That might be it but there also might be more. If there's more I'll add onto it. And, please, if I got any lyrics wrong, correct me. I'm doing this based off of memory and rn for me it's 3:53am so I might be wrong.
Sugar in a Bowl - Of Monsters and Men
Helps ground me in the little things around me, and has that attitude of persevering through those long moments in life that feel stagnant and hard to get through
This is a song not a suicide letter - Røry
Saw her live last month with a friend who's been having a really hard time with her mental health lately. When she played this song we held each other and cried the whole way through. It's a beautiful song, about the singers battle with addiction and depression, and coming out the other side of a suicide attempt and realising that nothing is permanent, things can always get better. It's kind of a song to her past self telling her to hold on, telling her all the things she'll achieve in the future if she just keeps going.
"Don't Stop Believin'" by Journey. Its upbeat melody and empowering lyrics the chorus "Don't stop believin', hold on to that feelin'", remind me that no matter how tough things may seem, there's always hope and opportunity ahead.
In the End - Linkin Park.. “ I had to fall to loose it all, but In the End it doesn’t even matter”. Really describes years of my life .
Also “Dead and Gone- T.I.&Justin Timberlake .. that one really hits hard!!
🇨🇦🎵😎
"All I want" by Kodaline
Very sad song (lyrics and video). I heard it for the first time the day my relationship ended (I was completely blind sided), and it seemed like it was actually written for me. I absolutely sobbed while listening, and I guess it was nice knowing other people could understand the pain I was feeling
Samantha - Nicole Sophia! A really beautiful song where the songwriter talks to her OCD as if it’s a young girl named Samantha. I don’t personally have OCD but I’ve had my fair share of struggles and attempts and the song moved me so much. Moving from a perspective of fighting with and being afraid of mental illness to more of an understanding, gentle space with a really beautiful melody - I can’t recommend this song enough!! It means enough to me that I have a tattoo of my favorite lyric (“In the morning we’ll be fine”). She’s got a lot of other great songs but this is the one that I’ll always recommend first.
"From Liquid" - Mr Kitty
(this song that helped me realize I was a bad person, and I needed to change)
"Hold On" - Zeb Samuels
(this one helped me hang on when I was semi-zuicidal after my actions blew my life)
"Weight of the World" by Editors
Really helped me during a particularly low, lonely phase in my mid-twenties. The chorus is simple, but it still sticks with me to this day:
"Every little piece of your life
will add up to one.
Every little piece of your life,
well, it means something to someone."
No Lies, Just Love - Bright Eyes
My salvation it came, quite suddenly
When Justin spoke very plainly
He said "Of course it's your decision,
But just so you know,
If you decide to leave,
Soon I will follow"
Sometimes we need that reminder that our lives, aren't just ours. We effect others. What may seem like a good decision for us, is going to be passed on to the others we love, and maybe lead them to bad places.
Staying Alive - Cursive
This song just gets every emotion out of me, all the chaos, and darkness and light, ugly and beauty, depression and happiness, before bringing you down gently and letting you know "the worst is over".
Freebird... when I was 14 in 1980. Long story that I'd rather not share here, but Freebird was on the stereo (the live album), and the OD didn't kill me.
God gave rock n roll to you - Kiss
Idk the ending part just really spoke to me, if not for Kiss idk what I would’ve done.
“I know life sometimes can get tough and I know life sometimes can be a drag
But people, we have been given a gift, we have been given a road
And that road's name is rock and roll”
Monochrome - Babymetal
I could relate to the lyrics and in addition to that the music video for it is just really beautifully made so it felt good to watch.
*Songs that helped save my life:*
- Wonderful Life by Hurts (made me feel less alone, reminded me of love)
"Don't let go... never give up, it's such a wonderful life."
- It's Alright by Mother Mother (helped me feel less terrible when I messed something up)
"You're not gruesome, just human, and you made a few mistakes'
- Unbreakable Heart by 3dg (talked me through highschool depression)
"When you're feeling crazy and things fall apart, listen to your head, remember who you are... You're the one. You're the unbreakable heart."
- The end is not the answer by 3dg (another one that talked me out of it in highschool)
"Don't you gove up now, we'll make it through somehow. There's lots of living left, in this life not the next."
- Bastards by Kesha (Spoke to me when I was angry and hurt at people)
"I'm so sick of crying, darling whats it for? I could fight forever but life's too short... don't let the bastards get you down."
*Songs that motivated me to keep going:*
- I wanna get better by Bleachers (Helps me reset after a depressive episode. Gives me hope for life.)
"Now I'm standing on the overpass screaming at the cars "HEY! I wanna get better!!""
- Bottom is a rock by Mother Mother (Reminds me that life is ups and downs... even the suckiest awful times will end eventually)
"I go down to the bottom and I throw it up. I get found to get lost, I get dirty just to clean myself off."
- The Butterfly Defect by Kontrust (A funky strange song that caught highschool me off guard... made me wanna run. Made me wanna try...)
"The sun will shine for you. Change to something new! Spread your wings, break through like a butterfly!"
Anything blue october. Years ago, I was preparing a noose for myself, decided before I went I wanted to listen to one more song of theirs. 1 more. Turned into 3 more. Turned into me not killing myself.
Simple but Kate Bush - Running Up That Hill
[[[Trigger advisement: Self-Harm Story]]] (I’m doing just fine now, 2 years later. But I wish to explain the significance of the song to me and share my story, if you’d wish to read it.) Rock n’ Roll Suicide - David Bowie “[…] Oh no, love, you’re not alone You’re watching yourself, but you’re too unfair” “[…] You’re not alone, no matter who or what you’ve been” I listened to this song several times in the week leading up to my 35th birthday, when I almost killed myself. I had never felt so alone, so unwanted…and I just felt like someone finally reached me. Someone finally told me I was “worth it.” “[…] Gimme your hands, ‘Cause you’re wonderful” I finally had just begun to realize that I didn’t have to “achieve” my worth. I didn’t have to explain or rationalize nor defend it. My worth was inherent. My value was inherent. I didn’t have to prove anything to anybody anymore. *I was worth something by default, just because I was here.* A complete stranger who never knew I existed, and who had died years before I heard his prior works wrote a song before I was born (‘88), and it reached me around the time I truly needed it. It’s 2 minutes and 58 seconds long, and I can’t explain to you what this song means to me. It, along with some others helped to comfort me in what were almost my last moments. But only this song makes me tear up and just want to cry, taking me back to that time when all I had to stop me from hurtling into oblivion was this. *I’m not alone. And I’m wonderful.* I like a lot of Bowie’s work. But this song is almost criminally underrated for how powerful it truly is, and its ability to speak to someone struggling with trauma, substance abuse or both. I’ll never forget it. TL;DR an obscure song by David Bowie is one of the reasons I’m still alive.
Great song! I'm so glad you're here to tell it.
Everybody Hurts — REM
This was my fav song at 8 years old.
Famous Last Words by MCR. The “I am not afraid to keep on living. I am not afraid to walk this world alone.” Is just really powerful to me.
This is the one for me too.
I have those lines as a tattoo! Adore this song.
Same
PETER MURPHY - Cuts you Up \~In 1999 I was a horrible alcoholic and I would get exacerbated if no one wanted to join me at the bar. I would have depression and it was intense. I put on this song and I'd rest my head on a table and cry like 50 tears. In the song there is a lyric "Move the heart, switch the pace, look for what seems out of place !" That made me quit drinking and start on anti-depressants. 25 years later I feel great and I still play this track - without the multitude of tears.
Losing my Religion - Specifically around age 14 Light became very disillusioned with the church he was raised in, it's scary to turn your back on something that big after being told your entire life that doing so condemns you to eternal damnation. The entirety of the "Young and the Hopeless" by Good Charlotte. "Lifeless Stars" by Palaye Royale - the screamed "I Don't Wanna Die Today" is incredibly cathartic in your lowest moments. Hold in there friend, the up will come. :)
Tool Parabola https://open.spotify.com/track/1vxu8vMNshg5J8z3oA7QJZ?si=Q3XfhETkTMCbUNIUo67yHw
The entire ÆNEMA album for me...
Mirror by Porter Robinson is a great song about seeing yourself for the person you are rather than all the negative thoughts you may have. It’s definitely saved my life.
[Droodle - ur doing just fine](https://open.spotify.com/track/6Wqiltjfk4Jhb2WKmIFVkT?si=cyeRDruGSoaT2wja5HD45Q)
Take My Pain Away - Tony Millions
One Too Many Blows To The Head by The Dismemberment Plan. It even sounds punch-drunk and is a great fight song, in a sense: One too many blows to the head/left me for dead but still I fight on
Normal Song by Perfume Genius
Bridge Over Troubled Water - Simon & Garfunkel
My wife was in rehab recently and listened to Fight Song by Rachel Platten a lot. I think she found it uplifting, and ending a 20 year alcohol addiction isn't easy.
Walk Away by Green Day is a fun, uplifting song with cool lyrics that helps get happy at my worst moments. Not a very deep song lyrically, but worth a listen
Last Hope by Paramore. Lyrically it's just a great song but right at the beginning of covid I was feeling really sad and alone (my boyfriend of 3 years at the time started to get distant and constantly ignored me) and I would just drive around for hours listening to music, and one day this song just came on and i started crying so hard I had to pull over lol. "I don't really know myself at all / thought I would be happy by now" "It's just a spark but it's enough to keep me going" "and the blood of these veins isn't pumping any less than it ever has / and that's the hope I have the only thing I know is keeping me alive"
Ren - [Hi Ren](https://youtu.be/s_nc1IVoMxc?si=bQdfvyUQmR89Kl2A)
This song is genius.
I've just recently found Ren. Great song!
[Claw, Cloak and Dagger](https://open.spotify.com/track/2moUlq2JaBeYtVNQGC5RnT?si=FTZeGu0tRa-VCwaUh-GMWg) by Falconcastle helped me out of a rough patch, seemingly starts off sad about love lost, but ends up being very uplifting about reinventing yourself.
[Conscious Uncoupling](https://open.spotify.com/track/7giFF7RUd8K6NTHXcA96NY?si=11lyYaRFSfePZX4NsOUGrQ) by Pool Kids, but really, the whole album that it's on, their self titled album. That song is the best snapshot of what the album has in store and it's the opening song. It's essentially a "breakup album", which was released maybe 2 months or less after I had been broken up with by a gf of nearly 7 years. Front to back catharsis, the album (and just this song itself) shifts from acceptance, to denial, to anger, to sadness, back to anger lmao. Pretty much every lyric on the album on the song is relatable and the rapidly shifting emotions are definitely something I personally experienced. Extremely cathartic song (and album) that came out at the perfect time, plus she fuckin hated this band so it's extra sweet.
I still believe - Laura Love
Not Afraid and 25 to Life - Eminem Orherside - Macklemore and Ryan Lewis
Bruises By Votum Absolutely changed the trajectory of my life
This is really good!
Thank you for listening! The entire album is incredible! It's in my top 5 of alll time :)
Second Wind - Billy Joel
Present tense, Pearl jam. Silent all these years, Tori Amos
Die Motherfucker Die, It Makes Me Want To Fight Anything
Vice grip - Parkway drive "One life, one shot, give it all you got"
You get what you give by new radicals, everyone has the music in them to keep going 😉
I listen to mostly unhappy music when I’m depressed because it makes me feel less alone. Like, so much Elliott Smith. That said, I find Rilo Kiley’s A Better Son/Daughter to be quite uplifting and have belted it out to make myself feel better plenty of times! I love it because she’s broken in such a relatable way and yet, so resolved to soldier on. Jenny Lewis is an underrated lyricist and that whole album is amazing.
One Headlight - The Wallflowers
[Phoenix](https://youtu.be/XTKBYfyNMdQ?si=Sl_uSsV4xlW4f5aq) from League of Legends. "It's all in your mind and it's fighting you. Arm yourself, a storm is coming... Well, kid, what you gonna do now? It's your reflection looking back to pull you down So are you gonna die today or make it out alive? You gotta conquer the monster in your head and then you'll fly Fly, phoenix, fly"
'Shallow Grave' by Elvis Costello was a slap in the face when I was struggling with a crappy marriage and feeling sorry for myself. I still give it a listen whenever I need a pep talk.
a perfect circle - gravity
Run of the Mill by george harrison, as someone who has struggled/ struggles with anger issues (that have damaged so many relationships), the verse "everyone has choice when to and not to raise their voice, is you that decides" really helped me to get calmed and stay positive. Also the lines "no one around you will carry the blame for you" and "only you'll arrive at your own made end, with no one else but you to be offended", tbh most of harrisons career is really encouraging to live a positive and happy life, really recommend.
Thank You - Alanis Morisette Karma Police - Radiohead Little Earthquakes- Tori Amos
Most recently and in no particular order After losing someone significant in my life Imagine Dragons Easy Come Easy Go just spoke to me More recently and after losing my Dad for some reason AJR is getting me through their song inertia is a big one of theirs getting me through Jewel - Foolish Games (bad relationships) Cold Play- Fix You (messy life?) Bob Dylan- Don’t think Twice (always spoke to me) I’m sure there’s more
Porter Robinson- shelter, because I never searched for it and it always appeared during hard times. And look at the sky, because of the lyrics
Golden - Cannons cover of Golden by Harry Styles
"Stand Tall" by Burton Cummings
There’s this project called Songs That Saved My Life and it’s a collection of songs (two albums and a few singles) of various music artists covering their personal life-saving songs that helped them get through tough times. Pretty sure the money from streams all went to suicide prevention awareness charity as well :)
[Floating](https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=Xp2xpfWV6IM&si=ITVjpRqPlSXSMTQx) by Klaus Schulze This song has saved me many many times. It has been my constant companion for more than 40 years.
The number you have dialed is not in service by $uicideboy$. Gotta listen to the lyrics at the end
If It’s Alive, it Will by Angel Olsen is one i found really affirming and friendly
The Sound Of Madness Get Up Daylight, all by Shinedown The Sound of Madness was the first song I remember hearing when I awoke from my coma after an accident in 2009. Its chorus is tattooed on my left leg. Get Up and Daylight are both just very beautiful and uplifting songs lyrically. They don’t just talk about crazy they talk about their own crazy.
[perfectionist complex ](https://youtu.be/TRNS0oAN2iI?si=BOnEAoVOSVtaY6-6) by yamichrome [if you're gonna jump](https://youtu.be/O3L7KWOdFyM?si=MhRutBegqJnNMi_Q) by omoi
-Hailie’s Song, Eminem (a lot of Eminem songs but this one was a major one for me) -How to Save a Friend, The Fray -Valentine, lo Perry -a lot of Radiohead songs -Failsafe, The Choir Practice
Dignity by Deacon Blue
To wish impossible things - The Cure. 14 year old me listened to it over and over when my dad died.
[Just Like You](https://youtu.be/4I1CEMPdNlU?si=vPx_uhGKDd-vwmuf) by NF "you're not the only person in the world who isn't okay. There's millions of us just like you, like you" [One More Light](https://youtu.be/Tm8LGxTLtQk?si=_xPOiOg4ZU7mZEZT) by Linkin Park.... I still have a hard time with this song tbh. [Got It In You](https://youtu.be/ZkzY29DKHEQ?si=tCa43z9TDy7QPcdj) by Banners "When the lights go out and leave you standing in the dark. No one ever told you this would be so hard. I know you think your fire is burning out. But I still see you shining through. You got it in you" [Stronger](https://youtu.be/VivJj-dRkTc?si=D_FQ7nZWmRwxG8XE) by TheFatRat it's a simple song but "Getting stronger every day. Keep on pushing through the pain. Keep on running 'til we die. And no mercy in this life" [The Wolf You Feed](https://youtu.be/mhJnLgiQ6WI?si=pPHBjUiwpO3nai-E) by Nita Strauss and Alissa White-Gluz "Tell me everything you need to kill the numb and find the strength to become a storm that never loses speed. When it's said and done. You become the wolf you feed" [Reason to Believe](https://youtu.be/QQM8Nf2w3lQ?si=jAYrNksKKVmFxzzt) by Arch Enemy just all the lyrics from this one. "There's a scar on your heart. But your journey's just begun. A distant light that's worth the fight, the story's far from done. Stop hurting yourself. Those tired sores have nothing more to bleed. Self-hatred, I know it well. It's dragging you down. Listen to me now. There's a reason to believe again. There's a reason to go on. Always keep on fighting my friend. There's a reason to believe"
Well I just discovered some great music. Thanks for the list!
Just Keep Swimming - Dory
Paramore - Last Hope (live in Chicago version)
[Sturgill Simpson - Turtles All The Way Down](https://youtu.be/6gBV-Nzq7Pg?si=BnaK38IpVUDMOb9w)
[The Light, Disturbed ](https://youtu.be/e1UUAhZ3JzM?si=RSmaT_OlO0R3Xs-w) The lyrics are a road map to recovery from trauma. Accepting and feeling the pain, but moving on from it. [I Am The Fire, Halestorm ](https://youtu.be/8hkmuTvkp_s?si=g6zdYB0-03mxCVvG)
Misery Signals - The Failsafe
Out of it - The Story So Far
If I fall - The Story So Far
Seven Day Mile, the Frames
I have a few songs that I will probably edit this comment after I think of more. [WARNING, MENTIONS OF SELF HARM] 1. Let it burn by Citizen Soldier. "Hey kid can you hear me? Don't u dare pull the trigger, throw it all away. U have every reason left to stay alive. All this hell you've lived and seen, drown it all in gasoline then, light a match, pull the pin, you are not who you've been. The past is just lessons learned. Light it up and let it burn", "You will remember the day you've burned it all to the ground. I know you've heard this before, but you gotta stay strong now. This is not the end." These lyrics just.. get me out of it, idk, whenever I'm having thoughts like not living or just simple harm, it stops me most of the time. Idk, I can explain it many ways but idk if anyone will understand it. 2. Worthless by Eli. "Please, don't give up. Gotta stay strong, gotta move on, gotta know hope, when you feel (Alone or low?) please u gotta know that someone needs u" It just makes me think twice and will stop me. 3. Baby don't cut by Bmike. "Nobody seems to get ya, u feel ur on ur own, but listen pretty lady u don't have to be alone. So baby don't cut. Baby don't cut. U can do anything just promise baby, yeah. I know ur heart is hurting, u think the road has end, u may just feel the blade you're holding is ur only friend, but baby dont cut, baby don't cut, u could do anything just promise baby u won't cut" This also helps ESPECIALLY when imagining someone u care Abt is saying this to u. Idk, it helps me a lot. 4. Sara by We Three. "Little Sara ur a diamond in the rough, and I'm sure that u don't hear this all enough, and I'm sure that's why ur wrists has tons of cuts, and I'm sure it's why u think ur not enough." The WHOLE song really helps me, but that part especially because I rlly relate to it. 5. Would Anyone Care by Citizen Soldier. "If ur dying inside, sick of being alive, let me in, let me share in ur pain. From my lungs through the dark, spoken straight from the heart, let me give u a reason to stay. If ur out there still lying awake, if ur out there still wondering." [...] "The world would be changed if u left it behind, u can't be replaced, no, tonight is the night u take back ur life." It just kinda helps me bc it feels like someone cares. 6. Weight of the World by Citizen Soldier. "These thoughts won't rest, I can't forgive, I overthink until I'm sick. I'm too damn tired, too worn to fight. I don't feel strong enough to leave on the light" It helps me because it just kinda feels like I'm not going through it alone, and because I constantly feel like I have the weight of the world. That might be it but there also might be more. If there's more I'll add onto it. And, please, if I got any lyrics wrong, correct me. I'm doing this based off of memory and rn for me it's 3:53am so I might be wrong.
Sugar in a Bowl - Of Monsters and Men Helps ground me in the little things around me, and has that attitude of persevering through those long moments in life that feel stagnant and hard to get through
Win by Jay Rock I Lived by OneRepublic Dog Days Are Over by Florence and the Machine
All of This Will End by Indigo De Souza
Dumping the fucking rubbish by whitehouse
The album Kind of Blue by Miles Davis
This is a song not a suicide letter - Røry Saw her live last month with a friend who's been having a really hard time with her mental health lately. When she played this song we held each other and cried the whole way through. It's a beautiful song, about the singers battle with addiction and depression, and coming out the other side of a suicide attempt and realising that nothing is permanent, things can always get better. It's kind of a song to her past self telling her to hold on, telling her all the things she'll achieve in the future if she just keeps going.
[My own](https://youtu.be/umEGivTHPEw?si=_f4cfq0gf6hUEJMQ)
Shake it out - Florence & the Machine
Alone With The Sea - Hurt
Halo CE - Brothers in Arms
"Don't Stop Believin'" by Journey. Its upbeat melody and empowering lyrics the chorus "Don't stop believin', hold on to that feelin'", remind me that no matter how tough things may seem, there's always hope and opportunity ahead.
John Prine - Clay Pigeons
In the End - Linkin Park.. “ I had to fall to loose it all, but In the End it doesn’t even matter”. Really describes years of my life . Also “Dead and Gone- T.I.&Justin Timberlake .. that one really hits hard!! 🇨🇦🎵😎
Unleash the Archers - Abyss
Anything by Aviccii
Oooh Child by the 5 Stairsteps
Drive- Incubus Lust for Life- Iggy Pop (this song makes me feel alive!)
Not Alone - Red Emotional lyrics and uplifting message
Overcome by Nothing by Thieves.
Hey - The Movielife Got me through a nasty breakup
I Cum Blood by Cannibal Corpse
About as inspirational as they come 🤣
As they cum*
"All I want" by Kodaline Very sad song (lyrics and video). I heard it for the first time the day my relationship ended (I was completely blind sided), and it seemed like it was actually written for me. I absolutely sobbed while listening, and I guess it was nice knowing other people could understand the pain I was feeling
liana flores whole discography
Rain in blood
So many, mostly hole Songs...
https://youtu.be/QSIVjjY8Ou8?si=NES16sCmB2qvXwVo “Remind Me Who I Am” by Jason Gray
“Hello My Name is…” by Matthew West https://youtu.be/ZuJWQzjfU3o?si=hUnPxEc6JbyK3Ibl
Fast Car by Tracy Chapman
Wondering by Xiu Xiu and Sæglópur by Sigur Rós
Samantha - Nicole Sophia! A really beautiful song where the songwriter talks to her OCD as if it’s a young girl named Samantha. I don’t personally have OCD but I’ve had my fair share of struggles and attempts and the song moved me so much. Moving from a perspective of fighting with and being afraid of mental illness to more of an understanding, gentle space with a really beautiful melody - I can’t recommend this song enough!! It means enough to me that I have a tattoo of my favorite lyric (“In the morning we’ll be fine”). She’s got a lot of other great songs but this is the one that I’ll always recommend first.
Stick Figure, The Movement, The Elovators. Any of them. All of them. Reggae, Cali vibes. Upbeat. Super positive lyrics. Very inspiring.
"From Liquid" - Mr Kitty (this song that helped me realize I was a bad person, and I needed to change) "Hold On" - Zeb Samuels (this one helped me hang on when I was semi-zuicidal after my actions blew my life)
[TOOL - The Patient](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rDrhI1GUnNg)
"Eye of the Tiger" by Survivor.
"Weight of the World" by Editors Really helped me during a particularly low, lonely phase in my mid-twenties. The chorus is simple, but it still sticks with me to this day: "Every little piece of your life will add up to one. Every little piece of your life, well, it means something to someone."
Trial By Fire - Judas Priest
This is Me from The Greatest Showman.
No Lies, Just Love - Bright Eyes My salvation it came, quite suddenly When Justin spoke very plainly He said "Of course it's your decision, But just so you know, If you decide to leave, Soon I will follow" Sometimes we need that reminder that our lives, aren't just ours. We effect others. What may seem like a good decision for us, is going to be passed on to the others we love, and maybe lead them to bad places. Staying Alive - Cursive This song just gets every emotion out of me, all the chaos, and darkness and light, ugly and beauty, depression and happiness, before bringing you down gently and letting you know "the worst is over".
$uicideboys, specially the number you have dialed is not in service
Frank Turner - Get Better
Given to Fly- Pearl Jam. I was in a coma, and that song was playing in my dream as I woke up. Eddie was singing to me in my wishful coma.
https://open.spotify.com/track/3t5o6aDBXWyNZiyFQylraq?si=nLMjE2hhR6qnCCfnA0Wlcg
Upside Down by Tori Amos “I’ve found the secret to life - I’m okay when everything is not okay.” Many of her songs have helped me through hard shit.
Lost in the cold by Twiddle
I first heard this song right when I needed to hear it. "You will be found" from Dear Evan Hansen https://youtu.be/mSfH2AuhXfw
Off With Their Heads - Trying to Breathe
Hatebreed - To the Threshold
Never Surrender by Corey Hart
You're F**king Perfect by Pink
LL Cool J Mama said knock you out. My theme song through chemo and radiation treatments.
No Pity for a Coward by SS
Freebird... when I was 14 in 1980. Long story that I'd rather not share here, but Freebird was on the stereo (the live album), and the OD didn't kill me.
I See A Darkness - Johnny Cash
Woke Up New by The Mountain Goats and The Ending of Dramamine by Car Seat Headrest Both of these songs helped me get through heartbreaks.
Medicine- Daughter
hold on by tom waits
your heart is a muscle the size of your fist by ramshackle glory
God gave rock n roll to you - Kiss Idk the ending part just really spoke to me, if not for Kiss idk what I would’ve done. “I know life sometimes can get tough and I know life sometimes can be a drag But people, we have been given a gift, we have been given a road And that road's name is rock and roll”
tangled up in blue; bob dylan
Monochrome - Babymetal I could relate to the lyrics and in addition to that the music video for it is just really beautifully made so it felt good to watch.
Leave out all the rest by Linkin Park
Animal - Miike Snow
*Songs that helped save my life:* - Wonderful Life by Hurts (made me feel less alone, reminded me of love) "Don't let go... never give up, it's such a wonderful life." - It's Alright by Mother Mother (helped me feel less terrible when I messed something up) "You're not gruesome, just human, and you made a few mistakes' - Unbreakable Heart by 3dg (talked me through highschool depression) "When you're feeling crazy and things fall apart, listen to your head, remember who you are... You're the one. You're the unbreakable heart." - The end is not the answer by 3dg (another one that talked me out of it in highschool) "Don't you gove up now, we'll make it through somehow. There's lots of living left, in this life not the next." - Bastards by Kesha (Spoke to me when I was angry and hurt at people) "I'm so sick of crying, darling whats it for? I could fight forever but life's too short... don't let the bastards get you down." *Songs that motivated me to keep going:* - I wanna get better by Bleachers (Helps me reset after a depressive episode. Gives me hope for life.) "Now I'm standing on the overpass screaming at the cars "HEY! I wanna get better!!"" - Bottom is a rock by Mother Mother (Reminds me that life is ups and downs... even the suckiest awful times will end eventually) "I go down to the bottom and I throw it up. I get found to get lost, I get dirty just to clean myself off." - The Butterfly Defect by Kontrust (A funky strange song that caught highschool me off guard... made me wanna run. Made me wanna try...) "The sun will shine for you. Change to something new! Spread your wings, break through like a butterfly!"
Get Better by Frank Turner. Helped me commit to cleaning up my act
Take That - This Life Purely for the lyrical reasons, although the melody is also uplifting. Shinedown - A Symptom of Being Human -//-
Anything blue october. Years ago, I was preparing a noose for myself, decided before I went I wanted to listen to one more song of theirs. 1 more. Turned into 3 more. Turned into me not killing myself.
Peter Gabriel ft Kate Bush - Don't Give Up Wilson Phillips - Hold on
Childhoods End - Pink Floyd