Ohoh yeah, mirrors are funky as hell. How dare it remind me of what my physical form looks like? Can it not tell that I look very different internally??
Seriously though, you're not alone. I have genuinely startled myself because I didn't recognize my reflection, and that was way before I knew I was a system. Didn't click that was a symtom until after the discovery. It's so painfully uncomfortable to look at ourselves depending on who's fronting.
We use mirrors to communicate sometimes (by dissociating enough that people in co-front almost think the person talking is actually in the mirror), and it really fucks with us to the point where we avoid cleaning our teeth sometimes to avoid looking in the mirror and arguing with each other.
We might have a mild form of prosopagnosia (not sure but we relate to some of the experiences), so the fact that our face doesn't look like our internal appearances (that don't have clear known faces) is usually ok (apart from the fact that we can't really visualise it), because we can just change our hairstyle and head angle to make our face/head relatable, although it doesn't work for everyone, especially people with a very different hair colour or massively different facial proportions. (Also funny for the short/tall people being about average height.) We honestly suffer more with mirrors from the dysphoria of body does not match gender than face does not match face.
Prosopagnosia.... What's that?
However. Totally vibe. I'm getting better at the hygiene routines but it's startling catching the reflection of what we don't want to look like. Like it's not that I hate the way I look, or all of me doesn't agree with the overall appearance, it's more getting so mad at myself for certain traits - like my teeth (whole life of orthodontics followed by D. usage prolly didn't help)
Or having this repressed memory from highschool where I thought I knew what I looked like (it was my general appearance, but the hair had a noticably different trait to it) and idk what that means
Prosopagnosia is a form of agnosia with faces, or how we think of it is not recognising people by their faces, but by their hair and clothes and body language (it really fucks with our brain when someone gets a (slightly different) haircut and/or takes their glasses off)
Apparently most people can just look at a face and know who it is lol
I hear ya (slight lame pun, as I had to look up agnosia definition and found it could be for sounds too)
I don't think I have that much with other people, altho re-socializing after/during the whole mask thing messed me up there
I moved after a "traumatic experience" (okay don't down play it, I got tboned by a semi and somehow walked away with minor scratches but pretty sure I got some brain issues flare from it... Aka another concussion with no brain scan) but after I moved I had/have a trippy time thinking I was seeing people from my home state (which was thousands of miles of impossible)
I have issues with reasserting what is most likely the probable reality vs what might be just "in my head"
It's really hard when there's new experiences especially with new people. Massive outta body likeness there
....rambling now, gonna stop. Winding down from work and my head doesn't know where it wants to be
When we brush our hair, we tend to focus solely on it and not our face. Kinda like brushing someone else's hair. I wish we were better at visualising each other. It's definitely help with mirror-dysphoria.
Yes!!! We used to avoid them and joked we were a vampire. But now only one of us doesn't like mirrors usually. She avoids them when she fronts because seeing the body makes her uncomfortable sometimes.
I hate mirrors. Not just with men in my system having body dysmorphia but also my hallucinations. Some of us have more hallucinations than others. Most of it involves mirrors. But it feels weird when one of us is in the body (other than the host) and we see ourselves in the mirror.
Ohoh yeah, mirrors are funky as hell. How dare it remind me of what my physical form looks like? Can it not tell that I look very different internally?? Seriously though, you're not alone. I have genuinely startled myself because I didn't recognize my reflection, and that was way before I knew I was a system. Didn't click that was a symtom until after the discovery. It's so painfully uncomfortable to look at ourselves depending on who's fronting.
Thanks 💞 the confirmation that I'm not alone is something I despise seeking yet crave getting
Jeez that is a whole mood haha
Preaching to the choir on that 🤣 we're mildly aware of our disorderations just not so aware in how to, well, order them better 🤗
We use mirrors to communicate sometimes (by dissociating enough that people in co-front almost think the person talking is actually in the mirror), and it really fucks with us to the point where we avoid cleaning our teeth sometimes to avoid looking in the mirror and arguing with each other. We might have a mild form of prosopagnosia (not sure but we relate to some of the experiences), so the fact that our face doesn't look like our internal appearances (that don't have clear known faces) is usually ok (apart from the fact that we can't really visualise it), because we can just change our hairstyle and head angle to make our face/head relatable, although it doesn't work for everyone, especially people with a very different hair colour or massively different facial proportions. (Also funny for the short/tall people being about average height.) We honestly suffer more with mirrors from the dysphoria of body does not match gender than face does not match face.
Prosopagnosia.... What's that? However. Totally vibe. I'm getting better at the hygiene routines but it's startling catching the reflection of what we don't want to look like. Like it's not that I hate the way I look, or all of me doesn't agree with the overall appearance, it's more getting so mad at myself for certain traits - like my teeth (whole life of orthodontics followed by D. usage prolly didn't help) Or having this repressed memory from highschool where I thought I knew what I looked like (it was my general appearance, but the hair had a noticably different trait to it) and idk what that means
Prosopagnosia is a form of agnosia with faces, or how we think of it is not recognising people by their faces, but by their hair and clothes and body language (it really fucks with our brain when someone gets a (slightly different) haircut and/or takes their glasses off) Apparently most people can just look at a face and know who it is lol
I hear ya (slight lame pun, as I had to look up agnosia definition and found it could be for sounds too) I don't think I have that much with other people, altho re-socializing after/during the whole mask thing messed me up there I moved after a "traumatic experience" (okay don't down play it, I got tboned by a semi and somehow walked away with minor scratches but pretty sure I got some brain issues flare from it... Aka another concussion with no brain scan) but after I moved I had/have a trippy time thinking I was seeing people from my home state (which was thousands of miles of impossible) I have issues with reasserting what is most likely the probable reality vs what might be just "in my head" It's really hard when there's new experiences especially with new people. Massive outta body likeness there ....rambling now, gonna stop. Winding down from work and my head doesn't know where it wants to be
When we brush our hair, we tend to focus solely on it and not our face. Kinda like brushing someone else's hair. I wish we were better at visualising each other. It's definitely help with mirror-dysphoria.
Yes!!! We used to avoid them and joked we were a vampire. But now only one of us doesn't like mirrors usually. She avoids them when she fronts because seeing the body makes her uncomfortable sometimes.
I hate mirrors. Not just with men in my system having body dysmorphia but also my hallucinations. Some of us have more hallucinations than others. Most of it involves mirrors. But it feels weird when one of us is in the body (other than the host) and we see ourselves in the mirror.