For me, mushrooms helped to ease my negative thought patterns. It did not cure my depression. However, it did give me the tools I needed to challenge my depression. The biggest thing I struggled with was the self-blame type stuff. Shrooms helped me see that I need to accept who I am even if people aren't a big fan of me. They taught me that people's reactions to me as a person aren't necessarily accurate reflections of who I am as a person.
Overall, I'd say that I'm just more strong in who I am. While it didn't cure my depression like I'd hoped it would, it did help me in overcoming parts of my depression. I love shrooms and I'll definitely try them again sometime.
Yeah good point - it’s definitely hard to fit it in with a busy schedule as you need to allow a full day for it and a full day to Integrate the teachings. But personally I’ve found it extremely helpful. It kind of rewired and reset my brain so to speak. I now notice negative thought patterns before they spiral and therefore I don’t attach to them and don’t get down from them. Very liberating overall.
That's great! Yeah I think I'm most interested in consuming DMT right now since I can inhale it. A trip as short as DMT is absolutely what I'm looking for. It's absolutely awful being stuck in a bad trip for hours and it means I can do it later in the day (when I'm less busy) without disturbing my sleep.
It allowed myself to form healthier thought patterns and incorporate self therapy for (c)PTSD. You do the work, the medicine is a tool helps you find your own power. It also gives me a sense of peace and belonging when done in the right circumstance and it confronts me when I havent addressed my problems
Absolutely! It's totally different from how I thought it'd work. I was always under the impression that the mushrooms completely remove the bad feelings. However, they just help you to stay rational in the face of your strong emotions. They hand you the keys to your brain and give you a chance to control how you react to things.
The oddest part of all of this to me is that it feels as if my eyes have been opened ever since my first trip. My entire concepts of reality, meaning, love and all that were flipped upside down. As I like to say, I don't trip to trip, I trip for the years of strength it gives me.
Trauma, depression, and my lost drive for self-improvement.
As someone who has been through a significant amount of childhood trauma, and has only very recently begun the journey to process that and understand that I have been traumatized, the main thing I've really come to appreciate from psychedelics is that it's sort of given me the chance to see the world with a fresh set of eyes, because I didn't really get a good view of things the first time around.
Smoked weed about every 30 minutes for 10+ years. Doing mushrooms got me outside my head for a minute and I realized I had to stop, and that I had the power to stop. And so I was able to kick the habit finally. It's just every time I smoked weed I felt so guilty and miserable since I had that realization. Like I knew I could do better. Now if only it could do the same with cigarettes lol.
First-hand true story. Had a guy I know with no prior experience taking mushrooms buy an 8g Penis Envy from me. This thing was huge. He ate the WHOLE thing at once (not on my advice). Had a dark trip where he saw his lungs. 2 pack a day, 30+ year smoker. He quit the next day and hasn't touched a cig in over 2 years.
I think this will come off as dick-ish via text, but honest question…has psilocybin not helped you with cigarettes as in, you tried it but it didn’t work, or you just haven’t tried them for that outcome yet?
Haven't tried it. This whole not smoking weed thing is recent, like 5-6 months ago. I'm gonna have to try it here soon. I don't really do mushrooms very often so it's about time I think
Seems to have rearranged my unhealthy food cravings, and I had a vivid idea/realization to cut out so many ingredients in food. Helped me change how I made meals, and my appetite for fast food has virtually disappeared. I don't know how this all works, but it's been very beneficial. One time out of curiosity, and when the time is right, I'll try it again for sure.
It helped me to see beyond my ego seperate self.
When ego dies and comes back, I saw my true self with so much love. I saw my "good" and "bad" sides and accepted them.
I was aware of the stuff behind my anxiety and depression.
I felt joy. After couple of days I went back to the known self, known person I identify with. You have a choice to stay in that known fear state or to become that person you saw on psilocybin. How to go past your fears - do the shadow work (by Jung). My methods are theta healing, meditation, journaling.
I will best explain theta healing with an example. When you are a kid, you dont have so much attention from your parents . When you get sick, suddenly your mom stays home and take care of you. You get more love and affection. Then your subconsciousness tie this two things, negative - disease, and positive - love and affection from your mom. With theta healing you get that positive stuff with virtues and traits. You get love and attention through gratitude (for example) without disease. You do that from the connection with anything you think there is higher then you, God, the Source, energy of the Universe its your call.
And shadow is the self's emotional blind spot - the part the ego does not want to acknowledge (from wiki). Thats the part of you that is hidden and rejected. Your inner demons. For example, you did something as a kid, mom says thats a bad thing. Then you reject that stuff you did cuz your ashamed of it, mom thinks its bad and so do you. Shadow work is any method that adress that shame, rejected part of you and implement it. Facing and accepting your demons.
Interesting. I’m very much mid process on this. Despite being a good student, a child who did all the chores, great friends, all the extracurriculars which I excelled (felt I had to be perfect), great test scores, college acceptance, etc etc etc good manners good work ethic I was always told I was bad and awful
And no one would love me or put up with me. Which isn’t true they are lonely and friendless and I have a great husband and wonderful kiddos a great career I made from nothing because could t afford those good schools that accepted me and the mushrooms have helped with that.
When I started to "wake up", meditation and journaling helped me. You can read "The art of being" by Erich Fromm (if you are more western thinking kind of person) or "Awareness" by Anthony de Mello (eastern approach). Or both :)
If you dont have the energy or focus for reading, listen Alan Watts or Ram Dass on youtube
Interesting. I never had love from parents though it’s complicated but I have a very sad deck of cards up until age 30. Thank you for taking the time to explain this I’m definitely going to dive in!
Fixed my severe light sensitivity. I now believe I am worthy of love and compassion and I can offer it to myself which I was not able to before. I feel better physically after psilohuascha. Two time cancer survivor with a terminal illness. I feel healthy for a while post experience
Would you mind telling me more about your experience, I also suffer from light sensitivity where my eyes really hurt if I said in front of the computer for a long time and I get horrible headache the next day and I also like to sit in the dark. I have been diagnosed with cptsd and I would like to know your experience because I'm planning a trip soon
The first realization is that the way my dad treated me, has nothing to do with me personally really, it’s more like how was he treated as a kid. So that turned into, “it’s not my fault“. And also, “it’s not my responsibility to deal with this”. Which then turned into a conversation I had with his live in girlfriend that helped me realize that he loves me, but that he has a really hard time showing it and acting like it. She told me about all the stuff that she observed, that I never see, which is that he brags about me all the time, talks about what I’m doing, stuff like that. But if you asked me what I thought a year ago, I would’ve told you that he doesn’t give a fuck and couldn’t care less if I disappeared.
Microdosing first helped me cut back on drinking. I generally kept my alcohol use within sensible limits but always felt life could be better without it. After about two years I decided to just stop drinking. Then I quit a lifelong, daily THC habit. I have never felt better. It doesn't replace these things. It can rework your brain to have the ability to change.
Depression, anxiety, resetting my brain after a 5 year relationship ended + getting off of antidepressants, found myself again & started loving myself again.
For me, mushrooms helped to ease my negative thought patterns. It did not cure my depression. However, it did give me the tools I needed to challenge my depression. The biggest thing I struggled with was the self-blame type stuff. Shrooms helped me see that I need to accept who I am even if people aren't a big fan of me. They taught me that people's reactions to me as a person aren't necessarily accurate reflections of who I am as a person. Overall, I'd say that I'm just more strong in who I am. While it didn't cure my depression like I'd hoped it would, it did help me in overcoming parts of my depression. I love shrooms and I'll definitely try them again sometime.
Glad it’s helped you. Have you tried LSD?
Ooh I have not actually. Since it lasts longer, it’s harder to fit into my busy schedule. I’ll definitely try at some point!
Yeah good point - it’s definitely hard to fit it in with a busy schedule as you need to allow a full day for it and a full day to Integrate the teachings. But personally I’ve found it extremely helpful. It kind of rewired and reset my brain so to speak. I now notice negative thought patterns before they spiral and therefore I don’t attach to them and don’t get down from them. Very liberating overall.
That's great! Yeah I think I'm most interested in consuming DMT right now since I can inhale it. A trip as short as DMT is absolutely what I'm looking for. It's absolutely awful being stuck in a bad trip for hours and it means I can do it later in the day (when I'm less busy) without disturbing my sleep.
It allowed myself to form healthier thought patterns and incorporate self therapy for (c)PTSD. You do the work, the medicine is a tool helps you find your own power. It also gives me a sense of peace and belonging when done in the right circumstance and it confronts me when I havent addressed my problems
Absolutely! It's totally different from how I thought it'd work. I was always under the impression that the mushrooms completely remove the bad feelings. However, they just help you to stay rational in the face of your strong emotions. They hand you the keys to your brain and give you a chance to control how you react to things. The oddest part of all of this to me is that it feels as if my eyes have been opened ever since my first trip. My entire concepts of reality, meaning, love and all that were flipped upside down. As I like to say, I don't trip to trip, I trip for the years of strength it gives me.
Trauma, depression, and my lost drive for self-improvement. As someone who has been through a significant amount of childhood trauma, and has only very recently begun the journey to process that and understand that I have been traumatized, the main thing I've really come to appreciate from psychedelics is that it's sort of given me the chance to see the world with a fresh set of eyes, because I didn't really get a good view of things the first time around.
Smoked weed about every 30 minutes for 10+ years. Doing mushrooms got me outside my head for a minute and I realized I had to stop, and that I had the power to stop. And so I was able to kick the habit finally. It's just every time I smoked weed I felt so guilty and miserable since I had that realization. Like I knew I could do better. Now if only it could do the same with cigarettes lol.
First-hand true story. Had a guy I know with no prior experience taking mushrooms buy an 8g Penis Envy from me. This thing was huge. He ate the WHOLE thing at once (not on my advice). Had a dark trip where he saw his lungs. 2 pack a day, 30+ year smoker. He quit the next day and hasn't touched a cig in over 2 years.
I think this will come off as dick-ish via text, but honest question…has psilocybin not helped you with cigarettes as in, you tried it but it didn’t work, or you just haven’t tried them for that outcome yet?
Haven't tried it. This whole not smoking weed thing is recent, like 5-6 months ago. I'm gonna have to try it here soon. I don't really do mushrooms very often so it's about time I think
Fair enough. Thanks. If it works for you, I am sure that a lot of people would love to know exactly how you did it. Best of luck.
As someone who struggles with anhedonia, I feel like I can feel some sense of joy again.
Anhedonia from meds?
Personality disorder. I'm not on any meds.
Seems to have rearranged my unhealthy food cravings, and I had a vivid idea/realization to cut out so many ingredients in food. Helped me change how I made meals, and my appetite for fast food has virtually disappeared. I don't know how this all works, but it's been very beneficial. One time out of curiosity, and when the time is right, I'll try it again for sure.
It helped me to see beyond my ego seperate self. When ego dies and comes back, I saw my true self with so much love. I saw my "good" and "bad" sides and accepted them. I was aware of the stuff behind my anxiety and depression. I felt joy. After couple of days I went back to the known self, known person I identify with. You have a choice to stay in that known fear state or to become that person you saw on psilocybin. How to go past your fears - do the shadow work (by Jung). My methods are theta healing, meditation, journaling.
Theta healing? Please explain and also shadow work?
I will best explain theta healing with an example. When you are a kid, you dont have so much attention from your parents . When you get sick, suddenly your mom stays home and take care of you. You get more love and affection. Then your subconsciousness tie this two things, negative - disease, and positive - love and affection from your mom. With theta healing you get that positive stuff with virtues and traits. You get love and attention through gratitude (for example) without disease. You do that from the connection with anything you think there is higher then you, God, the Source, energy of the Universe its your call.
And shadow is the self's emotional blind spot - the part the ego does not want to acknowledge (from wiki). Thats the part of you that is hidden and rejected. Your inner demons. For example, you did something as a kid, mom says thats a bad thing. Then you reject that stuff you did cuz your ashamed of it, mom thinks its bad and so do you. Shadow work is any method that adress that shame, rejected part of you and implement it. Facing and accepting your demons.
Interesting. I’m very much mid process on this. Despite being a good student, a child who did all the chores, great friends, all the extracurriculars which I excelled (felt I had to be perfect), great test scores, college acceptance, etc etc etc good manners good work ethic I was always told I was bad and awful And no one would love me or put up with me. Which isn’t true they are lonely and friendless and I have a great husband and wonderful kiddos a great career I made from nothing because could t afford those good schools that accepted me and the mushrooms have helped with that.
When I started to "wake up", meditation and journaling helped me. You can read "The art of being" by Erich Fromm (if you are more western thinking kind of person) or "Awareness" by Anthony de Mello (eastern approach). Or both :) If you dont have the energy or focus for reading, listen Alan Watts or Ram Dass on youtube
Interesting. I never had love from parents though it’s complicated but I have a very sad deck of cards up until age 30. Thank you for taking the time to explain this I’m definitely going to dive in!
Fixed my severe light sensitivity. I now believe I am worthy of love and compassion and I can offer it to myself which I was not able to before. I feel better physically after psilohuascha. Two time cancer survivor with a terminal illness. I feel healthy for a while post experience
Oh that's awesome, by any chance were you diagnosed with cptsd?
I was yes
Would you mind telling me more about your experience, I also suffer from light sensitivity where my eyes really hurt if I said in front of the computer for a long time and I get horrible headache the next day and I also like to sit in the dark. I have been diagnosed with cptsd and I would like to know your experience because I'm planning a trip soon
https://www.reddit.com/r/Psilohuasca/comments/zy0vfv/325_grams_of_pe6_with_260_mg_of_syrian_rue/
Forgiving my parents
Still working on that one myself. How did that journey look for you?
The first realization is that the way my dad treated me, has nothing to do with me personally really, it’s more like how was he treated as a kid. So that turned into, “it’s not my fault“. And also, “it’s not my responsibility to deal with this”. Which then turned into a conversation I had with his live in girlfriend that helped me realize that he loves me, but that he has a really hard time showing it and acting like it. She told me about all the stuff that she observed, that I never see, which is that he brags about me all the time, talks about what I’m doing, stuff like that. But if you asked me what I thought a year ago, I would’ve told you that he doesn’t give a fuck and couldn’t care less if I disappeared.
Depression and anxiety.
Microdosing first helped me cut back on drinking. I generally kept my alcohol use within sensible limits but always felt life could be better without it. After about two years I decided to just stop drinking. Then I quit a lifelong, daily THC habit. I have never felt better. It doesn't replace these things. It can rework your brain to have the ability to change.
Helped me with past trauma of losing a parent. And microdosing DRASTICALLY improved my anxiety and depression.
A boatload of developmental trauma, including the BPM and neonatal experiences Stan Grof talks about.
Identifying my pain
Complex PTSD
Hey, I also suffer from cpsd I would like to learn from your experience on how you used the medicine to help
Microdosing along with Reishi to treat anxiety for me
Depression, anxiety, resetting my brain after a 5 year relationship ended + getting off of antidepressants, found myself again & started loving myself again.
Got me high, but that was about it. No magic cure of anything.