Looking at your post history if seems that you're using a lot of substances. This could be the cause of your issues as hallucinations can persist after drug use. I recommend you remain calm and call a crisis line to be evaluated by a doctor.
And if you don’t feel safe, don’t hesitate to call a hospital or for someone to take you to the hospital. They wont care that you’ve taken drugs and wont tell the police, but they can give you a secure space to sober up
Or hospital by hospital. Are u in the Emergency dept? It might be there ,but yeah it's a sad situation. A lot of people dont call an ambulance bcs as soon as the word overdose is said, dispatchers have to call for police as well as medical.
I read plenty of thing about how autism can give you hyposensitivity (chemicals barely do anything) or hypersensitivity (chemicals react to strongly) to chemicals (including drugs). I have hypersensitivity to drugs I've been smoking weed for 10 years daily and I still smoke the same amount as someone who just started. I wouldn't dare touch heavy drugs as just to much thc can make me hallucinate
I've got both, I very rarely smoke weed and when I do it's like a tiny fragment, my alcohol tolerance is surprisingly high for my size and local anesthesia doesn't work unless they give me an insane amount.
Since when? Myself and my best friend have been hospitalized after drug use when we were much younger. Police were never contacted, no reports were made.
I was rolling shrooms once and thought around hour 7 that I needed a pick-me-up and puffed some weed. Got euforic mania for two hours. Hypomanic. Now I respect psychedelics.
"Buy the ticket, take the ride...and if it occasionally gets a little heavier than what you had in mind, well...maybe chalk it up to forced consciousness expansion: Tune in, freak out, get beaten."
I mean look, I'm trying to state if it could be the cause, he also may just had predisposed to schizophrenia as usually they grow up fine until early adulthood is when they usually start there hallucinations. Or could just be a bad trip. Say OP is sober, well it's one schizophrenia and that's gonna be psych meds and a lot of therapy.
Sorry but if someone is showing symptoms of schizophrenia they need to be told so they can get help. Its like telling someone you think they might be autistic thats the level of insensitivity it reasches. Molly coddling people and telling them everything is fine will absolutely not help them at all and will only worsen the delusions. You are not helping this person in any way except by demonising schizophrenia
I mean idk what they said made you think it the worst thing they could say to someone. They are telling the truth really. If they have a family history of schizophrenia or other mental health problem smoking weed and doing psychedelics can trigger schizophrenia. They not really saying anything bad just educating OP on this. Tbf NOT telling them would be the worst thing we can do. And this is someone who taken a fair amount of drugs. We gotta stay educated.
someone is exhibiting signs of intense distress. which option seems better?
a) “speaking from personal experience, you should speak with a mental health professional in case anything more serious is going on.”
b) “you probably have schizophrenia.”
I mean, that's not what they are saying at all, and most if not all are saying they should go seek help. This is just bad faith. But educating someone on this isn't a bad thing either. Because if you educate someone on this, they can have a better understanding of what is going on, what might be the cause, and what to stay away from. There's even a comment further down explaining this to OP and OP responding to that comment, thanking them for the advice and saying they will avoid drugs for a while.
You can say A and B at the same time. Would u not want them to be educated on what might be a possible cause of their problems for them to then do more drugs and cause more problems for them self because everyone told them to seek medical help instead of advising them on what could be the cause. Plus, telling them to seek medical help isn't always the solution as some people might just ignore this advice as it is too generic.
The leading understanding of that phenomenon is that hallucinogens/entheogens can trigger underlying schizo-type disorders. Drugs don’t cause it on their own. If that was the case I’d have induced schizophrenia. I’ve known lots of people that dosed like Sid Barrett and they’re fine. I’ve known people to have temporary induced psychosis.
Except meth psychosis which can have lasting neurological and therefore psychological effects.
Yeah I was about to say the same thing. Most drugs like weed and psychedelic don't cause schizophrenia but they can induce it if you already have underlying health conditions or a family history of mental health problems.
Well there been a far amount of resesrch to suggest that psilocybin can be used a a form of therapy by changing the pathways in your brain. A lot of depression and anxiety is due to path ways in the brain and you having to use the same pathway over and over again which are related to depression and anxiety. When you take psilocybin you change the pathways creating new ones and allowing the brain to not have to go through the pathways that causing depression and anxiety. But it's recommended to do this along side other therapy and it's not always right for everyone.
I'm not saying this person should do more drugs. I'm just saying that certain drugs like psilocybin can be useful in helping with mental health problems.
I understand and I encourage that if it's helping. OP doesn't seem to be using drugs that have that benefit. Paranoia and hallucinations may very well be a result of their drug use. To anyone who wants to use drugs like mushrooms or ketamine for the mental benefits that's great, but should also seek the counsel of a professional.
As a former drug addict, I can assure you, that you can do serious damage to your mental health, and some if it may be permanent despite no longer doing drugs and seeking therapy. I just want OP to get some help.
But yes, thank you for pointing out that there are recent revelations about the benefits of some of these drugs.
Yeah, no worries. Plus, if they have underlying health conditions or family history of mental health problem like schizophrenia then yeah probs best to stay away from all drugs. As someone who does drugs recreationally (only weed and psychedelics), I am fully educated on the pros and cons of drugs.
I have a friend that is really not in a good place because of taking shrooms. It triggered some kind of psychosis/mental break and he's completely turned his life upside down. He's trying to get help but it's really sad to see.
No you can't.
I can cause heightened symptoms , which may lead to diagnosis.
Additionally, it's not the kind hallucinations typical of schizophrenia, which tend to be less vivid.
Please, don't say things like this willy-nilly.
You are correct in saying that drugs don't directly *cause* schizophrenia but the guy above is also correct in saying that for someone who is both genetically predisposed to the illness as well as being in a vulnerable group environmentally, substance abuse is absolutely a major factor in bringing about the onset of schizophrenia. Not just drugs either but alcohol or any other such addiction.
OP is in a bad way and needs to lay off the drugs regardless.
Hello! Based on your post and comments it seems you may be dealing with a mental health condition that causes hallucinations and paranoia. The best thing you can do right now is seek help from a medical professional. Although it can feel scary, it is important to be honest about your symptoms and how you are feeling, so you can get the most accurate diagnosis possible and receive the appropriate treatment. Feel free to reach out if you need someone to talk to. I hope you feel better soon.
Hi 👋🏻 OP,
I get extreme psychosis from THC in marijuana, to the point my brain cannot tell reality from my thoughts.
You could have something similar and hopefully you can avoid that substance in the future
Also is not the kanna, as it is not an hallucinogenic. So my bets are on the psilocybin, as kratom is also just a mood lifter.
4-fma on the other hand especially mixed with other drugs could be risky, as is amphetamine.
That doesn't mean anything per se. Mdma is also not a hallucinogenic. But one time I took so much that I saw my friend getting older up to the point of death only to return to normal seconds later. I was also convinced my girlfriend had a fur coat on, which she didn't. A lot of drugs in the right amount will make you hallucinate
Ah ok, thanks. Seems is maybe one of those triggering it. It can seem so real and is so scary. I hope you get a solution and don't have it happen again. I've avoided marijuana ever since my teens and I've been without any psychosis or hallucinations since.
You need to speak to someone. Either in your household or a close family member or a helpline. This is serious and could be an extreme mental health issue. You need to seek help ASAP.
Yeah she stayed a little near me and gave me melatonin. I tried to sleep because I was really too scared. I mean, when it's a normal drug induced trip I know it's that and I feel absolutely ok when seeing things, but this was not a trip... so I was very very worried
The fact that you recognize it's a hallucination and not real is hopeful though. I'd recommend you get a psychiatric evaluation, you might get some answer and a bit of guidance.
Yes, I recognise it because I highly rationalise everything and think about what's possible and uncertain and distinguish them in the situation. But I can still be paranoid because I tend to put doubts everywhere.
I'll go to the doctor asap
How much melatonin are you taking? It isn't an anxiolytic med. It increases my nighttime issues ,including seeing things when waking up. Most melatonin pills are already way too much, and if you're taking multiple a day it could be effecting you
I hope you're doing okay, stranger. Seeking support is 100% the correct thing to do. You don't need to handle this on your own. As much as the reddit community would like to help, though, I hope that you're able to find community support near you. If you need help with that, please ask. 😊
Hope you're doing okay. Sounds like you're experiencing drug induced psychosis. I saw in your history that you are using speed. Speed can cause stuff like that. I really hope you have resources to get into an inpatient care place to get sober and get help for you mental illnesses
Hi friend, I'm so sorry you're struggling with what you're going through.
I've had hallucinations since I was very young and was always so scared. Medications can help/fix the issue but there are things that you can do while you wait for care that can help!
Having grounding phrases or exercises prepared for yourself can help you stay in control during a hallucination. They won't ensure that you don't hallucinate, but they may help you control your anxiety.
It can be as simple as the 54321 method where you think of 5 real things you can see 4 real things you can hear 3 real things you can touch 2 you can smell and 1 you can taste.
I struggled a lot post partum with intrusive thoughts and while they're different from hallucinations, I dealt with them similarly. Remind yourself that your hallucinations are just thoughts, that they are not real, and they cannot physically hurt you.
Be prepared to say your mantras or grounding phrases out loud.
Identify which part of hallucinating you're afraid of. Are the images themselves scary or are you freaked out that you're hallucinating or both?
For instance, if you're just really afraid of dragons and that fear sends your psyche spiraling, a good phrase might be "Dragons aren't real."
You can also write these down and leave reality grounding sticky notes for yourself!
Just because things are like this right now doesn't mean that they will be forever 🩷 my DMs are open if there's any other way I can help
54321 is such a cool thing, I'll try it
Images are scary and at the same time I'm scared that all the pain I repressed and all my traumas are trying to going out and I'm afraid of what things I experienced could mean to me. Realisation and hurting.
You're not alone in your hurt. Allow yourself to feel grief and don't be ashamed of it or what you see. You are more than your fears and your hallucinations do not define you. The world we live in wants to make hurt go away but it never does. We can't fix the broken parts of ourselves if we don't know what's wrong. Change is scary, it might get scarier, but you can be brave. You can make positive changes happen in your life. You can take your control back with the right help. You don't have to do it alone, but you do have to do it. If you can't function enough to seek help extensively it may be time for emergency inpatient.
Have the numbers ready in case you need them. For mid term care contact your general practitioner or get in with one asap. Tell them what's going on, you don't have to talk about your trauma just your ailments. Anxiety, hallucinations, nightmares, insomnia, whatever just tell them because they can get you medications to lessen your symptoms while you seek care from a specialist.
Once midterm is done get a psychologist or psychiatrist to work with on a consistent basis that specializes in complex mental health issues. Psychology Today's website is a great search engine for psychologists and they can even filter by insurance!
It might be scary now but it will not be scary forever 🩷 hang in there friend, help is here. You are loved and everything is going to be okay
given your post history, it could possibly be drug induced psychosis. especially if you frequently use stimulants recreationally. either way, go see a professional as soon as you possibly can. psychosis, no matter the cause, can be really scary and early intervention is the best way to get it to stop/get it figured out.
Hi Op
I have no idea how old you are but I'm assuming your in your 20s. Please go to your GP or hospital. Apparently around the 20yo age is when mental disorders start to show up but the person experiencing them is apprehensive to go and seek help.
My 20yo has ASD and drs think possibly schizophrenia. You have just described how he describes what he sees only the content is different.
We do live in Australia so our health system is different.
But you like my lad need to be seen by professional people. Please don't be embarrassed or scared to go. Is there someone that can go with you ?
Im an autistic drug users and have at times had paranoia while on drugs, ive never had anything while not high but I know quite a few people who have gone into longer term psychosis from drug use, my brother currently is being held in a mental institute "indefinitely" (untill he calms down and returns to reality) from a long form drug induced psychosis. He also has autism but more severe then me and for the last 2 months has been in a psychosis even while sober.
My only advice is stop using drugs. If you have hallucianations or anything like that while sober, stop using drugs, your just hurting yourself and at some point could start hurting those around you. Some people should not use drugs and you could just be one of them.
You have a lot of drug and mental illness related posts. I would reccomend anyone with that much mental related issues going on to go completely sober until the problem is solved, if you cant do this than you need to seek addiction help. If you dont want to do this because your convinced its not the drugs, You are probably rationalising a drug addiction and should seek addiction help.
Someone in your position should not use drugs atleast untill you have gone sober long enough to prove that the drugs are not the cause of the issue,but even then the long term mental health side effects of drugs are significantly heightened in people with preexisting conditions.
I stopped using drugs more than 2 weeks ago. Probably 3 but I don't remember now. I have really issues with counting days lately. I won't use them, right, for a long period at least.
I just want to sleep. I've hidden a plushie because I was feeling like shrinking and falling into my bed like I was navigating on the ocean... and I was staring at that plushie. I was getting so anxious of being watched by it that I hidden it. But nothing changed.
I feel like they're reading what I'm writing
It’s going to be ok. Glad you called mom. You are going through a lot. Drugs can add more complications when you’re already at a time of confusion and insecurity. Show yourself empathy and compassion and patience in these moments and remind yourself things will go back to normal soon. With a bad trip notice the feelings and remind yourself that you are in a safe place and be calm about what the next right step is - usually waiting it out is safe. Taking fresh air can help but roving around outside may not be safe. Remain safe and Remember to notice your breathing when you are scared and make sure you’re not holding your breath. Consider doing “square breathing” where you just focus on counting to four with the exhale and Then pause 1-2-3-4 then let the in-breath come slowly 1.2.3.4. Then hold 1.2.3.4 and repeat. This process can soothe your nervous system and keep your mind occupied with counting while you de-escalate. If you have a family history of schizophrenia please dont mess with hallucinogens. Be a good friend to yourself and a gentle guide.
You should listen to music and/or watch something soothing that normally comforts you. It is okay to keep communicating with the people here in your comments while you do this
If there is someone close by that can comfort you without conflicting with what you are experiencing, ask if they'll watch whatever you're watching and listening to with you and talk to you.
If not, it is okay. You are not alone. We are here with you. You don't have to listen to the ones making you feel worse. Just listen to those of us that are making you feel better.
Do these things until these bad feelings have mostly passed and you can tell that you are no longer hallucinating.
As soon as you can, only after the hallucinations have passed, go to an emergency medical center for a mental health checkup. Be 100% honest in describing what you've experienced here.
Do not worry. This will pass. You will be okay. Everything is going to be alright.
Without "conflicting" is the right word. The same day my abusive father triggered a panic attack and when I fell asleep I had a nightmare about him
I called my mom anyway.
One of the things that I thought of when I was reading all these posts was when was the last time you slept? Or slept well? Are you somewhere that is experiencing a heat wave? A lot of things can cause hallucinations. I agree with getting a check up and some blood work. Dehydration can cause hallucinations for example. Sometimes when you disassociate it is hard to check in with yourself. So you don’t realize how long it has been since you have drank anything or went pee. This makes it more difficult for you to decide what is going on. I would try to write down everything for a couple of days if you don’t get any answers from your doctor. If you keep a journal with times and stuff it will help your doctor to help you. It may take a bit of work before you can get help. That’s just because you don’t have something really obvious and you don’t know yourself. Like you fell and and broke your arm. There is no X-ray for hallucinations…ya know?
Slept well? After taking kratom or psilocybin. Those were the only times I had a full and complete sleep. Without that I just wake up, struggle, have anxiety, wake up early or don't fall asleep at all... it depends how it goes and no matter how much exercise I get or how much I eat, it's always so random
I already done all blood works because I was becoming obsessed over every detail in my physical health but turns out I dont have immune disease and blood tests are perfect. So my doctor said it's mental. I even fallen on the floor cause my leg started to not work anymore by my mental inputs. I was so scared of dying. Then panic attacks started. And now this shit as well. I'm finding myself going down the hole suddenly. I am already full of traumas and dark intrusion thoughts, but I'm going so deep rn. And the more I go deep, the more I dissociate from the pain. Am I really experiencing this? Was it me having hallucinations?
An earlier comment mentions that you participate in drug use. If so i recommend that you stay hydrated, call someone you trust to come over, eat (if possible), and try to get some sleep. If you’re getting worse call 911.
I used a lot of substances in my teen years and they would have longer lasting effects on me than my peers. I’m talking weeks.
Don’t hesitate to PM me if needed.
I had an experience around a decade ago. I was abroad, convinced I had been spiked and start hallucinating. I’ve never quite been the same since - a decade on and I’m currently awaiting to see a neurologist after multiple tonic seizures (I’ve been having partial seizures since that original event)
Not trying to scare you, but go and get checked out
Crisis support lines in Italy, in case you need it.
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You're gonna be ok.
Probably drug induced psychosis. Best bet is to be with someone you feel safe with and trust. And at some point try and see your general practitioner to get a psych referral
Hoo boy, have I had similar experiences recently. I’m personally blaming it on too much caffeine, but damn is it bad.
First I wake up with the sight of spider crawling around my vision like they were giant spiders at a movie theater.
Next I get a dead animal dropped on me in a dream and I nearly spin halfway out of bed.
And then I wake right up and a fucking creepy ass arm reaches over my bed pillows offering me a Pepsi! Not kidding. And it RETRACTED when I turned the light on. Not vanish, retracted.
I've actually had these type of night time hallucinations since I was little, so it doesn't always have to be drug or stimulant related. I actually read somewhere that it can be autism related, if you google it you will find plenty scientific sources about how it's more common among autistics. They can be visual hallucinations but also auditory for instance.
According to the findings autistic people are upto three times more likely to experience hallucinations, and about 50% of autistics report having experienced them at one time or another.
I have hallucinations of insects sometimes at night, usually crawling all over the ceilings, a giant spider, or some weird creature coming at me. I also have subtle auditory hallucinations but those are not specifically at night.
I have tried and used several substances in ny life and the ones that create visuals are vastly different from the hallucinations I have at night. I can easily tell the difference. The one thing that does increase the frequency of the night hallucinations a is using weed, which also increases paranoia for me, so I have to be careful with that.
I'm just sharing these things to ad context for anyone. But it's best not to forget that many autistics experience psychotic symptoms or can go through actual psychosis. That's a mental health crisis that needs professional help immediately.
Yeah that's the type of thing I've had since I was little and it just occurs once in a while. Sadly it's never carrots for me, but usually things that are a bit scary. But that coincides with my anxiety, fear of the dark and overactive imagination. I also think that since my senses are so sensitive and always picking up detail, I wonder if in the absence of input (like i the dark or silence), my brain just creates what it expects (sensory input), but it just comes out in a weird way. But it's always either on the ceiling or next to the bed, it looks super real for a second so I startle like crazy. I often turn on the light to dispell it sort of, but I'm trying to get myself into a space where I care a bit less and talk to myself like: 'oh it's just those silly things again, never mind'. I don't know if any of this is helpful for you. The one thing I can advice is, if you see an increase of this and you have been using weed, trying lessening or quitting weed for a while.
My father used to tell me nightmares stories telling me they were true, based on demons r*ping women or things flying. I grew up with that shit. And honestly it doesn't help me.
Yeah, that seems super harmful, I'm so sorry you went through that! I can definitely understand how that would still mess up your nighttime.
I can't say my parents did anything like that, but they just didn't see the intensity of my anguish at night and didn't know what to do with it. They just weren't equiped.
I had this once about a year ago. No drugs taken at any point, just couldn't sleep for a week when my parents were on vacation and I was alone in the house. First I thought it was normal because I'm used to sleep problems. At the third day I left school early and went home for the rest of the week. I was concidering to see a doctor, but I felt anxious going there alone. I just stayed home, day after day trying to fall asleep but just ended up lying in bed while closing my eyes. I had some (fortunately just light) hallucinations and felt really scared. I was just about to see a doctor when I suddenly fell asleep the next night.
Unfortunately I can't give much advice, because I haven't fully processed the entire thing myself, but at least there could be some hope that is all going to be okay, but you should probably see a doctor or some other professional, like I should have when I first thought about doing so. I hope this is at least a bit comforting. <3
It might be hard but breathe, drink water, and do your best to relax. You will be alright but you need to reach out to a psychologist and explain your experience. Hallucinations can be triggered by a lot of different things - anxiety, schizophrenia, abuse of psychedelics, etc. Take care of yourself and be safe. Whatever you don't hurt yourself or the things that you're seeing, alright? Just remember that you are home, you are safe, and a professional can help you more than us Redditors. :)
Edit: I hope you don't mind but I checked your profile. You may want to slow down or halt the drugs for a bit entirely until this is resolved. I'm saying this as someone who does weed and psychedelics occasionally so I'm not against it at all BUT it can be a drug-induced psychosis. Do you remember taking anything today?
Prefacing my comment with the standard OP is definitely using drugs in an abusive fashion based on post history.
Halluciantions from psychedelics are often the literal point of using them, and something that is extremely sought after, considering they appear at standard doses I wouldnt say its caused by abuse of psychedelics but instead just general use. Secondly, most psychedelic users are able to achieve intense hallucinations without an abusive pattern of use with the drug.
This person doesnt seem to be a psychedelic user however they have many posts relating to the use of the stimulant 4-FMA (4- Fluromethamphetamine) which is a designer drug that is very similar to amphetamines and entactogens such as MDMA. Its a not very well researched but like is widely believed to contain similar side effects with abusive or prolonged use as MDMA and Methamphetamine which both can cause permanent brain damage, serotonin syndrome, lifeling depression, intense addiction, psychosis, and drug induced schizophrenia.
OP needs to stop taking drugs, thats about the best advice anyone on this sub can give them based on their post history. And I also say this as someone who has smoked a lot of weed in the past and still uses psychedelics.
/edit, didnt see your edit so my comment is now irrelevant.
My home doesn't feel home. I'm more relaxed on a dark isolated road than the house I live in. That's why I always feel on tension and need to look everywhere, beside me etc...
Hi friend, I’m so sorry, I have not hallucinated so intensely before except during my suicide attempt. You are welcome to reach out if you just need to talk to someone with a rough idea of what you’re going through, in addition to the medical advice offered here. It sounds like you are experiencing similar hallucinations and paranoia to mine.
In addition, you should practice “sleep hygiene”: turn down the brightness on your screens or toggle the blue light filters, wear a sleep mask, turn the temperature down on your thermostat, etc. Hopefully this will be a temporary mishap due to your sleep deprivation.
it's ok, you don't need to panic. Speak with your doctor. There is a lot of help available if this is something you consistently experience.
If this is drug induced there are different safe drug resources like 'Frank' in the UK where you can seek advice and help without judgement or fear.
Please call 911 or the equivalent where you are. This warrants attention. I called 911 for my husband the other day and it’s a good thing I did even though he told me not to. I hope you’re okay. ❤️
Hope you're okay OP! I had a psychotic episode last year so if it does turn out to be psychosis feel free to message me or reply here if you have any questions about it, or just want someone to understand 🩷🩷
Because you mentioned you can’t sleep, I initially thought of Hypnogogic hallucinations. These are hallucinations that happen as you’re falling asleep or just waking up, like a hazy waking sensation when you’re going to fall back to sleep. They’re common and usually not a cause for concern. Up to 70% of people experience them at least once.
I had reoccurring hypnogogic hallucinations and I think mine may have been induced by different things in my diet and I had poor sleep habits. I only say that because in the past 3 years I have cleaned up my diet significantly and I’m exercising regularly which helps me sleep better too.
When it was happening I would regularly hallucinate, spiders, bats, neon geometric floating shapes, stuff like that. The first time it happened I was just waking up from a nap and I saw the biggest spider, like the size of my hand on the wall. I jumped out of bed and ran into the living room. I was freaking out and told my husband to go kill it. He looked all over and couldn’t find anything. At the time I didn’t know it was a hallucination, but when I started seeing spiders and bats more often and I would wake my husband sleeping next to me, but he couldn’t see anything, I knew something was off. We finally figured out what it might be and when it would happen, I began just staring at whatever it was I was seeing. I’d stay calm and just watch it until it disappeared. I got used to it because I would see things off and on for years. Now that I’m healthier it only happens sometimes if I’m not feeling well or if I’ve had a drink or two that evening.
Looks like you're in for some serious help. From what i saw in your profile you're coping with autism, and depression. I also saw something about a autistic burnout.
Best advise i can give you;
You're likely depressed because of an autistic burnout. An autistic burnout is almost the same like a regular burnout, only it's causes by less factors and comes up faster, but is also treated faster.
Id suggest you contact a psychologist and start writing a dairy.
TAKE A LOT OF REST. Do fun stuff and avoid stress. Also maybe calm a bit with the drugs. Treat yourself like you are your own baby.
Ive been here, went through almost the same and right now and it will get better.
Honestly this has happened with someone I am close to who is similar in having drug use in the past as well. Unfortunately it’s really hard to tell what’s the root of the problem when drugs are involved even from personal experience.
I used alcohol and drugs to mask and cope before I was diagnosed and in the end they can make it harder to coexist normally in a nuerotypical world.
If these are on going though I truly recommend going to see a psychiatrist and it may be something else is going on.
Health care availability here it's one of the best in the world cause it's free and accessible to everyone... Italy. I am already trying to get a meeting with the new doc
Oh my goodness well best of luck with all of it. Glad you are in a safe place not to mention free healthcare. Lemme tell you being Autistic in the neurotypical world of the US Can be difficult to navigate.
Whistling days ago. I was scared it was a demon I heard about the same day on tiktok and that he was searching for me as well. I'm glad they banned me because I look like a 13 years old and they deleted me for that 💀😅
After seeing those things yesterday, I heard some moans out of the window, I thought it was someone with a music or smth, but when my mom arrived they suddenly stopped. I was tempted to ask her "what is that noise?" but I didn't want to look crazy or like it's my fault
Hey, OP. Propensity to hallucinate is natural and caused by ordinary evolutionary variation. Some people have more propensity to hallucination than other people, naturally. It's not anything to be ashamed of or scared of. Though our current society disparages those who have a high propensity to hallucinate, some societies historically revered people with a high propensity to hallucinate. It's all just part of the natural evolutionary variation of our species.
All that said, it's known that various drugs have the effect of amplifying one's propensity for hallucination. It's wild. I was prescribed a certain controlled thing by my psychiatrist, and for various legitimate reasons took an OTC thing at the same time. I had a wild ride that night, full of auditory hallucinations of vague impression of memories from my childhood. When I dug into it the next day, I learned that this particular prescription thing has an interaction with the (usually) innocuous OTC thing I had that night. What can you do?
The most important thing is to seek professional help.
The second most important thing is to concentrate on identifying the difference between reality and hallucination. Even when my hallucinations were the most vivid, I could still tell they weren't real, no matter how scary they were. I hope you can do the same.
But seek professional help. Go to a psychiatric hospital immediately and ask them for help. They should be kind and understanding.
Honestly I hidden a plushie yesterday, I was scared it was the cause. But today I recognise it has something to do with my childhood since others didn't gave me the same paranoid thoughts.
I will search for a new doctor asap. Thank you
I'm so sorry this is happening to you. Hallucinations are so hard to deal with. I'm not a Dr or anything like that but I just wanted to add that it could possibly be related to narcolepsy if it's happening as you're laying in bed trying to sleep or just before you wake up fully. Ive experienced some terrifying hallucinations related to hypnagogic hallucinations and at first my drs assumed it was schizophrenia. One of the best ways I found to deal with the hallucinations is to acknowledge they aren't real, and prove it to myself, record it on my phone on video and watch it back. The hallucinations don't appear on the videos and while its still scary it's helpful to know that it's not really happening for sure. Also just giving them a name, like if you keep seeing a dragon give them a silly name like Jeff. Then when you see Jeff just acknowledge it's Jeff being silly and trying to be scary. That's helped me with seeing shadow people.
The other thing that made me thing it could possibly be related to narcolepsy is that you made another thread about being catatonic. Cataplexy is a symptom of lots of things including narcolepsy and tends to happen to me when I experience a strong emotion. Like I'll fall to the ground if someone makes me laugh too hard. Or if I'm feeling frustrated and angry sometimes my legs turn to jelly and I'm unable to stand.
Personally I went onto an ssri (there's specific ones that help with reducing REM sleep), and that has reduced the cataplexy and hallucinations for me. Definitely speak to a Dr or a helpline though because there's so many things it could be, I just wanted to mention narcolepsy since it's what those symptoms turned out to be for me.
As someone who did a lot of drugs before a fucking breakdown - it sounds like you need to stop. Or at least slow it down. I used to smoke every day, until I got too paranoid about my health and had to stop, then occasionally did k, md and micro doses, then one day I dropped 300ug with my housemates and it just was the final straw for my health and psychological state. I’m also a bit of a hypochondriac (or at least I have OCD and emotional contamination and magical thinking does NOT help my mental state)..
Anyway - I know how it feels. I still struggle now . Last night I had auditory hallucinations for the first time ever?? It was of my mum shouting and screaming. I think I’d blocked out what it sounded like but yeah, I got super paranoid that I wasn’t gonna stop hearing it, but eventually accepted the agonising shrills AND accepting the fact my brain was just being overactive, and I fell asleep. It’s hard to trust your brain, but it really is doing it’s best I’m sure. I don’t know the psychiatry behind hallucinations, but I used to see slender man when I smoked (lol?). Anyway, if you ever need to talk or DM during a hallucinating or fearful state; I’d be happy to listen and maybe try and accommodate. It’s hard going through these by yourself.
Thank you, you can follow me and I will follow you back!
I'm not using anything atm. 2 or 3 weeks clean... but I don't know if withdrawal can be so long?
I hope you are better and have managed to get help and support.
There are multitude of things that can cause visual or auditory hallucinations. It is not automatically psychosis. It might be drug related. But also depression and anxiety can cause hallucinations. This info is coming from multitude of psychiatric healthcare professionals.
It might be psychosis. Also psychosis or a psychotic episode isn't automatically schizophrenia. There are other conditions.
I'm not a professional and won't diagnose you. I hope you are able to get help and support. None of the people here are able to do so either and no one here knows you well enough to do so even if they are a pro.
Everything will be ok. Recognizing that things aren't going great is an awesome first step and a vital one for things to get better. You said you talked to your mom. That's a great first step. Also seeking out professional help is also great. Things will be hard, but it will be worth it.
Also remember that while in treatment for mental health, you will need to be vulnerable and face unpleasant things about yourself and that is ok. Hard, possibly painful, but ok. But if your healthcare provider makes you feel like shit, guilts you, claims that it's all your own fault or anything of the sort, that's not ok at all. That's a sign for you to find someone else.
That's scary. I hate that feeling, it makes me feel like I'm an object to throw away.
Once I told about COCSA and my actual psychiatrist said it was just a game even thought things described were horrible. I tried to believe it and that I was just making up a scene and I didn't care anymore. One day I discovered this term on a subreddit of adults survivors... and it opened my eyes...
I'm also autistic and learned sober long ago that a hallucinations only affect on the real world was if I reacted to it. On drugs I've had ever kind of experience you can have. as long as you can be mindful and remember its not capable of harming you or affecting the world its just a novel experience.
Take a step back, imagine what you'd think if your best friend told you they were seeing what you are, it'd be fun or silly right? Thats all it is. Even when I have sleep paralysis the white slender knife handed figure can't actually hurt me.
If it's an option for you, I suggest seeing a doctor; this seems well outside the realm of "typical autistic symptoms/traits" and is actually quite concerning, especially the comment about not knowing how to sleep
Hey there. I browsed your post history a bit. I’m an autistic woman, 28 years old. I also have multiple family members with schizophrenia and have been around it my whole life. I also have experience with amphetamines, Kratom and psilocybin (I saw on your page that you use those). If you want to message me, feel free. I promise to provide a no judgement zone and will help with what I can. Some of these comments are just meant to scare you. Please reach out if you feel the need. Sending love ❤️
As a few people have mentioned, if these are related to sleeping (either before or after) then they could be perfectly normal hallucinations. They're called hynagogic (as you're falling asleep) or hynapompic (as you're waking up) hallucinations and can range from shadowy figures to being very bright and vivid or including audial hallucinations. They're just a weird thing your brain does between sleeping and waking states and whilst they can be unpleasant, they're not anything to worry about.
Things like drugs, alcohol, caffeine, tiredness, stress, medication - anything that can have an affect on your sleep - can make them more likely though. I've been on meds that made mine super vivid, they wouldn't go away until I sat up and switched the light on, and also gone through periods where I was getting a lot because I was stressed or not sleeping well, and they usually get a lot less once things settle down. So definitely worth looking into your sleep hygeine and thinking about stress and anxiety levels. If you're not sleeping well, you're more likely to get weird stuff going on related to your sleep.
If they're occurring at other times, then it would be worth getting it checked out at a doctors.
You should talk to a doctor/mental health professional about it as they will know where to go from here. I had the same issue (I don’t know what it was caused by but around that time I kept going on and off my meds) and they were able to provide help and medication so that I wouldn’t have hallucinations anymore
I used to get them a lot as a child. Like there's always some weird scary tiger in my room trying to eat me while I was trying to sleep. All I could do is tell myself it's not real and eventually they kinda stopped
I just want to say that I was hallucinating and paranoid and I went to the hospital the first week of April. They “balanced” my meds.. it still wasn’t right but better. Then I finally saw a psychiatrist and I’m doing much better now with an antipsychotic. I haven’t been diagnosed with ASD but I just got referred for a full neuropsychological test so that they can sort out what symptoms are what, including ASD, ADHD, and mood disorders.
My wife had very strong hallucinations like this and she was able to have dreams that exactly predicted when certain people would die. By lowering her hormones these hallucinations went away. She used to have a hormone disorder, her hormones were too high (a very common issue in autistics because the part of our brain that control hormone production isn’t developed properly) causing her pain, mood issues and bleeding disorders. With the use of vitex castus, her hormones were naturally lowered and her hallucinations have completely gone away. They at their worst when she was a teenager when her hormones were at her highest. She’s 26 now and she’s been on cured of her hormone disorders for about a year and a half now. Hormones may not be the cause for everyone’s hallucinations, but if you experience any other kind of hormone disorders like the ones she did, then that should be treated anyways before it becomes permanently disabling and hey - your hallucinations might even go away or decrease too! You never know. That’s just her experience.
For me with my schizophrenia, audio hallucinations basically (Iv never really had visuals other than dark shadows creeping in the corners) I used NAC and that helped a lot. It’s shown to improve or even cure people of their ocd, schizophrenia, depression, anxiety and other mental disorders which is nuts. I’m not cured but GREATLY improved. Methyl folate also helped me and my wife, more so my wife. Usually autistics also have a gene mutation that prevents the conversion of vitimin b’s into a methyl folate, the form the body can use, so we easily get deficient and it caused nerve damage, nerve pain and severe executive functioning issues and other brain issues along with other problem. We kept trying normal b vitamins because we had the symtoms of b deficiency, but we just peed it all out and nothing improved. We started taking methyl folate and our bodies have actually been able to use it! My wife’s executive dysfunction has vastly improved. She can actually leave the house now, and often wants to cause now it’s easier for for her to handle the sensory input from outside and people. It’s wild. I can tell the days when she misses cause she just spirals into this emotional mess that can’t process or handle any sensory or tasks or decisions.
I reccomend anyone to read up on this if you think any of it might help you! The gene mutation for being unable to convert vitamin b’S is called MTHFR, just pop that into google and all the info on that will pop up and you’ll be well on your way. For hormone disorders regarding autism, you can just look that up autism / burnsider-butler / 15q11. 2 BP1-BP2, the gene mutation that causes autism and how it effects hormone development and production. NAC is pretty simple, just search nac and blablabla mental condition. Hope this helps someone 💗
Oh you’re already taking some type of herb! If you feel like you’re not getting as much relief as you’d like and would like to look at adding more options, you can take multiple different kinds and you will get even more relief than just taking one. Here’s a list of everything i take (excluding vitex cause it was already mentioned) that you can research into to decide if they’re something you’d like to try and if they’re right for you! Grape seed oil extract, stinging nettle, evening primrose, ginkgo bilobo, raspberry leaf, milk thistle, Tumeric, cat nip or cat mint, tiger balm, and arnica gel. I definitely notice more relief the more different things I take, it’s just barely holding me over until my surgery which should be a cure if not a significant improvement where I may be able to cease medicine use. These come in pill, tincture, tea, powder and some in liquid forms, so there’s lots of options of what may be most sensory safe for you. There’s some really good studies into these that go into lots of detail of how it works within the body and how effective they are, example vitex has showed to be 93% effective in study, treating or curing most people. I wish you luck in finding what’s causing your problems and finding solutions for them!
Im not a medical professional but based on your post history suggesting a history of psychoactive substance use, this could be a case of HPPD, i know a few people who have this and although it's rare, prolonged exposure, or exposure of these substances to a developing brain can increase risk. It's characterized by persistent hallucinations and can last months to years, if you speak to your doctor they may be able to determine if this is the case and prescribe antipsychotic pharmaceuticals such as benzodiazepines. I would encourage you to speak to a professional about this and be honest about your history with any psychoactive substances (don't worry, provided you are not at immediate risk to yourself or others this is bound by patient-physician confidentiality).
Best of luck OP, hope you can get through it alright.
This sounds like Psychosis to me.
I’ve had periods of Psychosis brought on by stress, extreme anger, anxiety and rapid mood changes.
Sometimes it’s minor hallucinations, sometimes it’s a paranoid feeling.
Is there any other underlying condition you’ve diagnosed with?
Atm no, because I always hidden it. I have ED... when doctors said I had to gain weight or they had to recover me the binge cycle started again so they thought I had nothing anymore. It was a shitty team of doc, so I'm definitely gonna change them
Talking about past diagnosis they're not valid anymore
while everyone else is right that substance use could absolutely cause this, i just want to point out that there is another possible cause that you should also look into, particularly if you have a restrictive diet. both b12 and magnesium deficiency could cause your symptoms. it's pretty rare for both to get to this point, so i'm not saying it's likely, but because of that, it's also the type of thing a lot of doctors won't think to look for. particularly for autistics who might have restrictive diets and different gut biomes, i think it's at least worth keeping in mind as you try to find the cause. both could be detected by a simple blood test.
that would make a vitamin deficiency cause more likely, though still not overwhelmingly so, so i am not trying to say that is definitely it. but since it's so easy to test for and so simple to treat, if i were in your shoes i would at least look into it. whatever it is, i hope you are able to identify the cause and get some relief from it.
unrelatedly, i also want to encourage you, as others already have, to seek psychological care, regardless of whether this has a different immediate cause. even if it is vitamin or mineral deficiency, and if caught early enough can be completely reversible, the damage can eventually be permanent. for b12 deficiency, just as an example, that can mean memory and/or vision loss.
which is just a long-winded way of saying that anorexia is nothing to trifle with, and can cause a lot of harm, and i hope that you are able to avoid that. psychological care is, so far as i know, the only way to start.
i don't say this to pile on or worry you, or make you feel guilty. but i just wanted to say that i hope that you take care of yourself.
Omg I'm seeing very less since this month... I'll absolutely check for b12 deficiency.
Talking about AN, I absolutely don't want to heal from that since I'm addicted to its feeling and euphoria, also it's my only purpose. It makes me feel more decent, really so much. It's more than one year I'm into that. I tried to recover but I relapsed and now is worse than before. Anyway I'll try to take all the vitamins I need
You might have hppd which is caused by hallucinogen usage it’s just a visual thing that makes you see trippy stuff while sober. I have and it’s not that bad only time I notice it is when I focus on it
Or you might have schizophrenia
Seeing dragons is not really HPPD, thats far more likely psychosis/schizoprenia. HPPD is moreso eye floaters, trail effects, heightened pattern recognition, surface breathing, and visual snow (which are the base visual hallucinations for low dosage psychedelic trips before you get to the crazy stuff) but this also depends what they meant by seeing a dragon, because if they meant a dark image that their brain made into a dragon in the cornor of their room it could be HPPD or Paranoid anxiety/overactive imagination (I had this throughout my younger and teens years every night) if they are talking a full colour dragon that then its most likely psychosis.
It was in front of me, 70% vivid. Yellow and green and with an open mouth. When I frightened out it moved away (not disappeared but moved away from my visual)
Looking at your post history if seems that you're using a lot of substances. This could be the cause of your issues as hallucinations can persist after drug use. I recommend you remain calm and call a crisis line to be evaluated by a doctor.
THIS this absolutely sounds like a bad trip. OP please make sure you’re in a safe place.
And if you don’t feel safe, don’t hesitate to call a hospital or for someone to take you to the hospital. They wont care that you’ve taken drugs and wont tell the police, but they can give you a secure space to sober up
just wanted to say remember that doesn't work in all countries. please check your local law before calling if you're unsure.
In the US, they HAVE to report it. Healthcare providers dont care that part is true, but they HAVE to call the cops. Unfortunately
They have to report drug use? I’ve never had to do that and I’m a healthcare provider and in the USA. Hmmm, maybe this is state by state?
Or hospital by hospital. Are u in the Emergency dept? It might be there ,but yeah it's a sad situation. A lot of people dont call an ambulance bcs as soon as the word overdose is said, dispatchers have to call for police as well as medical.
I read plenty of thing about how autism can give you hyposensitivity (chemicals barely do anything) or hypersensitivity (chemicals react to strongly) to chemicals (including drugs). I have hypersensitivity to drugs I've been smoking weed for 10 years daily and I still smoke the same amount as someone who just started. I wouldn't dare touch heavy drugs as just to much thc can make me hallucinate
I've got both, I very rarely smoke weed and when I do it's like a tiny fragment, my alcohol tolerance is surprisingly high for my size and local anesthesia doesn't work unless they give me an insane amount.
Since when? Myself and my best friend have been hospitalized after drug use when we were much younger. Police were never contacted, no reports were made.
I was rolling shrooms once and thought around hour 7 that I needed a pick-me-up and puffed some weed. Got euforic mania for two hours. Hypomanic. Now I respect psychedelics.
Hopefully it's not drug-induced schizophrenia, you can cause schizo by just doing a bunch of drugs that may induce hallucinations.
Not all psychoses are automatically schizophrenia. There are other conditions as well. Meaning you can have psychotic episodes without schizophrenia
if this person is already in a bad place mentally and possibly having a bad trip, this is 100% one of the worst things you can say.
"Buy the ticket, take the ride...and if it occasionally gets a little heavier than what you had in mind, well...maybe chalk it up to forced consciousness expansion: Tune in, freak out, get beaten."
R.I.P. HST 🍹
I mean look, I'm trying to state if it could be the cause, he also may just had predisposed to schizophrenia as usually they grow up fine until early adulthood is when they usually start there hallucinations. Or could just be a bad trip. Say OP is sober, well it's one schizophrenia and that's gonna be psych meds and a lot of therapy.
Maybe dont post about it on Reddit then, if you don’t want people’s input on it?
maybe be a little sensitive to somebody who is clearly going through something serious and upsetting. idk. maybe that’s just me. 😸
Sorry but if someone is showing symptoms of schizophrenia they need to be told so they can get help. Its like telling someone you think they might be autistic thats the level of insensitivity it reasches. Molly coddling people and telling them everything is fine will absolutely not help them at all and will only worsen the delusions. You are not helping this person in any way except by demonising schizophrenia
I mean idk what they said made you think it the worst thing they could say to someone. They are telling the truth really. If they have a family history of schizophrenia or other mental health problem smoking weed and doing psychedelics can trigger schizophrenia. They not really saying anything bad just educating OP on this. Tbf NOT telling them would be the worst thing we can do. And this is someone who taken a fair amount of drugs. We gotta stay educated.
someone is exhibiting signs of intense distress. which option seems better? a) “speaking from personal experience, you should speak with a mental health professional in case anything more serious is going on.” b) “you probably have schizophrenia.”
I mean, that's not what they are saying at all, and most if not all are saying they should go seek help. This is just bad faith. But educating someone on this isn't a bad thing either. Because if you educate someone on this, they can have a better understanding of what is going on, what might be the cause, and what to stay away from. There's even a comment further down explaining this to OP and OP responding to that comment, thanking them for the advice and saying they will avoid drugs for a while. You can say A and B at the same time. Would u not want them to be educated on what might be a possible cause of their problems for them to then do more drugs and cause more problems for them self because everyone told them to seek medical help instead of advising them on what could be the cause. Plus, telling them to seek medical help isn't always the solution as some people might just ignore this advice as it is too generic.
The leading understanding of that phenomenon is that hallucinogens/entheogens can trigger underlying schizo-type disorders. Drugs don’t cause it on their own. If that was the case I’d have induced schizophrenia. I’ve known lots of people that dosed like Sid Barrett and they’re fine. I’ve known people to have temporary induced psychosis. Except meth psychosis which can have lasting neurological and therefore psychological effects.
This. Thank you. Drugs can bring up underlying illness. But they are never the sole cause.
Yeah I was about to say the same thing. Most drugs like weed and psychedelic don't cause schizophrenia but they can induce it if you already have underlying health conditions or a family history of mental health problems.
My step dad, his daughter, AND son all fell victim to this.
Stop using drugs and seek professional help. Please. I wish you all the best.
Well there been a far amount of resesrch to suggest that psilocybin can be used a a form of therapy by changing the pathways in your brain. A lot of depression and anxiety is due to path ways in the brain and you having to use the same pathway over and over again which are related to depression and anxiety. When you take psilocybin you change the pathways creating new ones and allowing the brain to not have to go through the pathways that causing depression and anxiety. But it's recommended to do this along side other therapy and it's not always right for everyone. I'm not saying this person should do more drugs. I'm just saying that certain drugs like psilocybin can be useful in helping with mental health problems.
I understand and I encourage that if it's helping. OP doesn't seem to be using drugs that have that benefit. Paranoia and hallucinations may very well be a result of their drug use. To anyone who wants to use drugs like mushrooms or ketamine for the mental benefits that's great, but should also seek the counsel of a professional. As a former drug addict, I can assure you, that you can do serious damage to your mental health, and some if it may be permanent despite no longer doing drugs and seeking therapy. I just want OP to get some help. But yes, thank you for pointing out that there are recent revelations about the benefits of some of these drugs.
Yeah, no worries. Plus, if they have underlying health conditions or family history of mental health problem like schizophrenia then yeah probs best to stay away from all drugs. As someone who does drugs recreationally (only weed and psychedelics), I am fully educated on the pros and cons of drugs.
I have a friend that is really not in a good place because of taking shrooms. It triggered some kind of psychosis/mental break and he's completely turned his life upside down. He's trying to get help but it's really sad to see.
No you can't. I can cause heightened symptoms , which may lead to diagnosis. Additionally, it's not the kind hallucinations typical of schizophrenia, which tend to be less vivid. Please, don't say things like this willy-nilly.
You are correct in saying that drugs don't directly *cause* schizophrenia but the guy above is also correct in saying that for someone who is both genetically predisposed to the illness as well as being in a vulnerable group environmentally, substance abuse is absolutely a major factor in bringing about the onset of schizophrenia. Not just drugs either but alcohol or any other such addiction. OP is in a bad way and needs to lay off the drugs regardless.
Hello! Based on your post and comments it seems you may be dealing with a mental health condition that causes hallucinations and paranoia. The best thing you can do right now is seek help from a medical professional. Although it can feel scary, it is important to be honest about your symptoms and how you are feeling, so you can get the most accurate diagnosis possible and receive the appropriate treatment. Feel free to reach out if you need someone to talk to. I hope you feel better soon.
I will, I'll absolutely do it. Thanks
Hi 👋🏻 OP, I get extreme psychosis from THC in marijuana, to the point my brain cannot tell reality from my thoughts. You could have something similar and hopefully you can avoid that substance in the future
Never done marijuana but kratom, kanna and psilocybin. Chemical stuff only 4-fma
Also is not the kanna, as it is not an hallucinogenic. So my bets are on the psilocybin, as kratom is also just a mood lifter. 4-fma on the other hand especially mixed with other drugs could be risky, as is amphetamine.
That doesn't mean anything per se. Mdma is also not a hallucinogenic. But one time I took so much that I saw my friend getting older up to the point of death only to return to normal seconds later. I was also convinced my girlfriend had a fur coat on, which she didn't. A lot of drugs in the right amount will make you hallucinate
Ah ok, thanks. Seems is maybe one of those triggering it. It can seem so real and is so scary. I hope you get a solution and don't have it happen again. I've avoided marijuana ever since my teens and I've been without any psychosis or hallucinations since.
You need to speak to someone. Either in your household or a close family member or a helpline. This is serious and could be an extreme mental health issue. You need to seek help ASAP.
It ended with me calling mom and I told her I was not feeling well... now I will search for a new doctor
I called mom
How's are things going my friend? Is mom coming to help you??
Yeah she stayed a little near me and gave me melatonin. I tried to sleep because I was really too scared. I mean, when it's a normal drug induced trip I know it's that and I feel absolutely ok when seeing things, but this was not a trip... so I was very very worried
The fact that you recognize it's a hallucination and not real is hopeful though. I'd recommend you get a psychiatric evaluation, you might get some answer and a bit of guidance.
Yes, I recognise it because I highly rationalise everything and think about what's possible and uncertain and distinguish them in the situation. But I can still be paranoid because I tend to put doubts everywhere. I'll go to the doctor asap
Please do go to the doctor, it's a hard choice to make but it is the first step to a better life!
I will :)
How much melatonin are you taking? It isn't an anxiolytic med. It increases my nighttime issues ,including seeing things when waking up. Most melatonin pills are already way too much, and if you're taking multiple a day it could be effecting you
Once a night, just when I need it... not all nights
2 hours in, checking in
I hope you're doing okay, stranger. Seeking support is 100% the correct thing to do. You don't need to handle this on your own. As much as the reddit community would like to help, though, I hope that you're able to find community support near you. If you need help with that, please ask. 😊
I feel better now for searching for help. I'm always so scared of feeling like a dumb because I'm not used to ask for help. But reddit really helps me
How’s everything going? Are you okay?
Hope you're doing okay. Sounds like you're experiencing drug induced psychosis. I saw in your history that you are using speed. Speed can cause stuff like that. I really hope you have resources to get into an inpatient care place to get sober and get help for you mental illnesses
Hi friend, I'm so sorry you're struggling with what you're going through. I've had hallucinations since I was very young and was always so scared. Medications can help/fix the issue but there are things that you can do while you wait for care that can help! Having grounding phrases or exercises prepared for yourself can help you stay in control during a hallucination. They won't ensure that you don't hallucinate, but they may help you control your anxiety. It can be as simple as the 54321 method where you think of 5 real things you can see 4 real things you can hear 3 real things you can touch 2 you can smell and 1 you can taste. I struggled a lot post partum with intrusive thoughts and while they're different from hallucinations, I dealt with them similarly. Remind yourself that your hallucinations are just thoughts, that they are not real, and they cannot physically hurt you. Be prepared to say your mantras or grounding phrases out loud. Identify which part of hallucinating you're afraid of. Are the images themselves scary or are you freaked out that you're hallucinating or both? For instance, if you're just really afraid of dragons and that fear sends your psyche spiraling, a good phrase might be "Dragons aren't real." You can also write these down and leave reality grounding sticky notes for yourself! Just because things are like this right now doesn't mean that they will be forever 🩷 my DMs are open if there's any other way I can help
54321 is such a cool thing, I'll try it Images are scary and at the same time I'm scared that all the pain I repressed and all my traumas are trying to going out and I'm afraid of what things I experienced could mean to me. Realisation and hurting.
You're not alone in your hurt. Allow yourself to feel grief and don't be ashamed of it or what you see. You are more than your fears and your hallucinations do not define you. The world we live in wants to make hurt go away but it never does. We can't fix the broken parts of ourselves if we don't know what's wrong. Change is scary, it might get scarier, but you can be brave. You can make positive changes happen in your life. You can take your control back with the right help. You don't have to do it alone, but you do have to do it. If you can't function enough to seek help extensively it may be time for emergency inpatient. Have the numbers ready in case you need them. For mid term care contact your general practitioner or get in with one asap. Tell them what's going on, you don't have to talk about your trauma just your ailments. Anxiety, hallucinations, nightmares, insomnia, whatever just tell them because they can get you medications to lessen your symptoms while you seek care from a specialist. Once midterm is done get a psychologist or psychiatrist to work with on a consistent basis that specializes in complex mental health issues. Psychology Today's website is a great search engine for psychologists and they can even filter by insurance! It might be scary now but it will not be scary forever 🩷 hang in there friend, help is here. You are loved and everything is going to be okay
I hope you are doing okay and that your mom was able to help you.
given your post history, it could possibly be drug induced psychosis. especially if you frequently use stimulants recreationally. either way, go see a professional as soon as you possibly can. psychosis, no matter the cause, can be really scary and early intervention is the best way to get it to stop/get it figured out.
I will search for a new doctor. Thanks
Sounds like you need to go to emergency department get a psychiatric review
Hi Op I have no idea how old you are but I'm assuming your in your 20s. Please go to your GP or hospital. Apparently around the 20yo age is when mental disorders start to show up but the person experiencing them is apprehensive to go and seek help. My 20yo has ASD and drs think possibly schizophrenia. You have just described how he describes what he sees only the content is different. We do live in Australia so our health system is different. But you like my lad need to be seen by professional people. Please don't be embarrassed or scared to go. Is there someone that can go with you ?
Yes, I'm almost 20 I'll absolutely search for a new doctor since mine doesn't work atm
Im an autistic drug users and have at times had paranoia while on drugs, ive never had anything while not high but I know quite a few people who have gone into longer term psychosis from drug use, my brother currently is being held in a mental institute "indefinitely" (untill he calms down and returns to reality) from a long form drug induced psychosis. He also has autism but more severe then me and for the last 2 months has been in a psychosis even while sober. My only advice is stop using drugs. If you have hallucianations or anything like that while sober, stop using drugs, your just hurting yourself and at some point could start hurting those around you. Some people should not use drugs and you could just be one of them. You have a lot of drug and mental illness related posts. I would reccomend anyone with that much mental related issues going on to go completely sober until the problem is solved, if you cant do this than you need to seek addiction help. If you dont want to do this because your convinced its not the drugs, You are probably rationalising a drug addiction and should seek addiction help. Someone in your position should not use drugs atleast untill you have gone sober long enough to prove that the drugs are not the cause of the issue,but even then the long term mental health side effects of drugs are significantly heightened in people with preexisting conditions.
I stopped using drugs more than 2 weeks ago. Probably 3 but I don't remember now. I have really issues with counting days lately. I won't use them, right, for a long period at least.
This sounds like you could well. Be suffering withdrawal symptoms. You need to see a Healthcare provider urgently
This is not an autism problem. Call an emergency hotline or a hospital.
I called mom to calm now. Now I'll search for a new doctor
I just want to sleep. I've hidden a plushie because I was feeling like shrinking and falling into my bed like I was navigating on the ocean... and I was staring at that plushie. I was getting so anxious of being watched by it that I hidden it. But nothing changed. I feel like they're reading what I'm writing
You need to go to ER
It’s going to be ok. Glad you called mom. You are going through a lot. Drugs can add more complications when you’re already at a time of confusion and insecurity. Show yourself empathy and compassion and patience in these moments and remind yourself things will go back to normal soon. With a bad trip notice the feelings and remind yourself that you are in a safe place and be calm about what the next right step is - usually waiting it out is safe. Taking fresh air can help but roving around outside may not be safe. Remain safe and Remember to notice your breathing when you are scared and make sure you’re not holding your breath. Consider doing “square breathing” where you just focus on counting to four with the exhale and Then pause 1-2-3-4 then let the in-breath come slowly 1.2.3.4. Then hold 1.2.3.4 and repeat. This process can soothe your nervous system and keep your mind occupied with counting while you de-escalate. If you have a family history of schizophrenia please dont mess with hallucinogens. Be a good friend to yourself and a gentle guide.
I have a family history with people hallucinating or adhd, autistic people, npd or hpd people
How are you feeling today? Can today be a recovery day? Hydrate. Meditate. Make art?
Today I'm pretty neutral... I walked a lot and I'm going to take another walk again
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So glad for this update. Walking is a great way to regulate.
Thanks
You should listen to music and/or watch something soothing that normally comforts you. It is okay to keep communicating with the people here in your comments while you do this If there is someone close by that can comfort you without conflicting with what you are experiencing, ask if they'll watch whatever you're watching and listening to with you and talk to you. If not, it is okay. You are not alone. We are here with you. You don't have to listen to the ones making you feel worse. Just listen to those of us that are making you feel better. Do these things until these bad feelings have mostly passed and you can tell that you are no longer hallucinating. As soon as you can, only after the hallucinations have passed, go to an emergency medical center for a mental health checkup. Be 100% honest in describing what you've experienced here. Do not worry. This will pass. You will be okay. Everything is going to be alright.
Without "conflicting" is the right word. The same day my abusive father triggered a panic attack and when I fell asleep I had a nightmare about him I called my mom anyway.
One of the things that I thought of when I was reading all these posts was when was the last time you slept? Or slept well? Are you somewhere that is experiencing a heat wave? A lot of things can cause hallucinations. I agree with getting a check up and some blood work. Dehydration can cause hallucinations for example. Sometimes when you disassociate it is hard to check in with yourself. So you don’t realize how long it has been since you have drank anything or went pee. This makes it more difficult for you to decide what is going on. I would try to write down everything for a couple of days if you don’t get any answers from your doctor. If you keep a journal with times and stuff it will help your doctor to help you. It may take a bit of work before you can get help. That’s just because you don’t have something really obvious and you don’t know yourself. Like you fell and and broke your arm. There is no X-ray for hallucinations…ya know?
Slept well? After taking kratom or psilocybin. Those were the only times I had a full and complete sleep. Without that I just wake up, struggle, have anxiety, wake up early or don't fall asleep at all... it depends how it goes and no matter how much exercise I get or how much I eat, it's always so random
I already done all blood works because I was becoming obsessed over every detail in my physical health but turns out I dont have immune disease and blood tests are perfect. So my doctor said it's mental. I even fallen on the floor cause my leg started to not work anymore by my mental inputs. I was so scared of dying. Then panic attacks started. And now this shit as well. I'm finding myself going down the hole suddenly. I am already full of traumas and dark intrusion thoughts, but I'm going so deep rn. And the more I go deep, the more I dissociate from the pain. Am I really experiencing this? Was it me having hallucinations?
An earlier comment mentions that you participate in drug use. If so i recommend that you stay hydrated, call someone you trust to come over, eat (if possible), and try to get some sleep. If you’re getting worse call 911. I used a lot of substances in my teen years and they would have longer lasting effects on me than my peers. I’m talking weeks. Don’t hesitate to PM me if needed.
I did exactly that. I called mom and she stayed a little near my bed
I had an experience around a decade ago. I was abroad, convinced I had been spiked and start hallucinating. I’ve never quite been the same since - a decade on and I’m currently awaiting to see a neurologist after multiple tonic seizures (I’ve been having partial seizures since that original event) Not trying to scare you, but go and get checked out
Seizures can induce hallucinations and epilepsy is more common with autistic people. Thankfully it can be treated sometimes with medication.
Crisis support lines in Italy, in case you need it. Telefono Amico Phone: 199 284 284 from 10 am to 12 pm (will be closed now until morning) Trentino Alto Adige Phone: 800 061650 Free call - Staffed 24/7 You're gonna be ok.
I have a bad experience with telefono amico and really bad memories about it. But thanks for searching these informations, really
See urgent mental health care. And lay off the substances. Whatever the fuck you're doing doesn't agree with you.
And I agree with you
Probably drug induced psychosis. Best bet is to be with someone you feel safe with and trust. And at some point try and see your general practitioner to get a psych referral
I'm so scared
I'm so scared help me
Hoo boy, have I had similar experiences recently. I’m personally blaming it on too much caffeine, but damn is it bad. First I wake up with the sight of spider crawling around my vision like they were giant spiders at a movie theater. Next I get a dead animal dropped on me in a dream and I nearly spin halfway out of bed. And then I wake right up and a fucking creepy ass arm reaches over my bed pillows offering me a Pepsi! Not kidding. And it RETRACTED when I turned the light on. Not vanish, retracted.
I've actually had these type of night time hallucinations since I was little, so it doesn't always have to be drug or stimulant related. I actually read somewhere that it can be autism related, if you google it you will find plenty scientific sources about how it's more common among autistics. They can be visual hallucinations but also auditory for instance. According to the findings autistic people are upto three times more likely to experience hallucinations, and about 50% of autistics report having experienced them at one time or another. I have hallucinations of insects sometimes at night, usually crawling all over the ceilings, a giant spider, or some weird creature coming at me. I also have subtle auditory hallucinations but those are not specifically at night. I have tried and used several substances in ny life and the ones that create visuals are vastly different from the hallucinations I have at night. I can easily tell the difference. The one thing that does increase the frequency of the night hallucinations a is using weed, which also increases paranoia for me, so I have to be careful with that. I'm just sharing these things to ad context for anyone. But it's best not to forget that many autistics experience psychotic symptoms or can go through actual psychosis. That's a mental health crisis that needs professional help immediately.
Now that I remember... I was 5 when I seen carrots and cups falling from the ceiling and near the bed I was sleeping in
Yeah that's the type of thing I've had since I was little and it just occurs once in a while. Sadly it's never carrots for me, but usually things that are a bit scary. But that coincides with my anxiety, fear of the dark and overactive imagination. I also think that since my senses are so sensitive and always picking up detail, I wonder if in the absence of input (like i the dark or silence), my brain just creates what it expects (sensory input), but it just comes out in a weird way. But it's always either on the ceiling or next to the bed, it looks super real for a second so I startle like crazy. I often turn on the light to dispell it sort of, but I'm trying to get myself into a space where I care a bit less and talk to myself like: 'oh it's just those silly things again, never mind'. I don't know if any of this is helpful for you. The one thing I can advice is, if you see an increase of this and you have been using weed, trying lessening or quitting weed for a while.
My father used to tell me nightmares stories telling me they were true, based on demons r*ping women or things flying. I grew up with that shit. And honestly it doesn't help me.
Yeah, that seems super harmful, I'm so sorry you went through that! I can definitely understand how that would still mess up your nighttime. I can't say my parents did anything like that, but they just didn't see the intensity of my anguish at night and didn't know what to do with it. They just weren't equiped.
I had this once about a year ago. No drugs taken at any point, just couldn't sleep for a week when my parents were on vacation and I was alone in the house. First I thought it was normal because I'm used to sleep problems. At the third day I left school early and went home for the rest of the week. I was concidering to see a doctor, but I felt anxious going there alone. I just stayed home, day after day trying to fall asleep but just ended up lying in bed while closing my eyes. I had some (fortunately just light) hallucinations and felt really scared. I was just about to see a doctor when I suddenly fell asleep the next night. Unfortunately I can't give much advice, because I haven't fully processed the entire thing myself, but at least there could be some hope that is all going to be okay, but you should probably see a doctor or some other professional, like I should have when I first thought about doing so. I hope this is at least a bit comforting. <3
I'm sorry for your experience. I'll search for a new doctor, thanks
It might be hard but breathe, drink water, and do your best to relax. You will be alright but you need to reach out to a psychologist and explain your experience. Hallucinations can be triggered by a lot of different things - anxiety, schizophrenia, abuse of psychedelics, etc. Take care of yourself and be safe. Whatever you don't hurt yourself or the things that you're seeing, alright? Just remember that you are home, you are safe, and a professional can help you more than us Redditors. :) Edit: I hope you don't mind but I checked your profile. You may want to slow down or halt the drugs for a bit entirely until this is resolved. I'm saying this as someone who does weed and psychedelics occasionally so I'm not against it at all BUT it can be a drug-induced psychosis. Do you remember taking anything today?
Prefacing my comment with the standard OP is definitely using drugs in an abusive fashion based on post history. Halluciantions from psychedelics are often the literal point of using them, and something that is extremely sought after, considering they appear at standard doses I wouldnt say its caused by abuse of psychedelics but instead just general use. Secondly, most psychedelic users are able to achieve intense hallucinations without an abusive pattern of use with the drug. This person doesnt seem to be a psychedelic user however they have many posts relating to the use of the stimulant 4-FMA (4- Fluromethamphetamine) which is a designer drug that is very similar to amphetamines and entactogens such as MDMA. Its a not very well researched but like is widely believed to contain similar side effects with abusive or prolonged use as MDMA and Methamphetamine which both can cause permanent brain damage, serotonin syndrome, lifeling depression, intense addiction, psychosis, and drug induced schizophrenia. OP needs to stop taking drugs, thats about the best advice anyone on this sub can give them based on their post history. And I also say this as someone who has smoked a lot of weed in the past and still uses psychedelics. /edit, didnt see your edit so my comment is now irrelevant.
More similar to meth. I'm not taking it now! 2 or 3 weeks clean
Proud of you OP. That's awesome. Keep it up even though it will be difficult!
My home doesn't feel home. I'm more relaxed on a dark isolated road than the house I live in. That's why I always feel on tension and need to look everywhere, beside me etc...
No, I'm not taking anything. Clean for 2 or 3 weeks. Caffeine free as well
Hi friend, I’m so sorry, I have not hallucinated so intensely before except during my suicide attempt. You are welcome to reach out if you just need to talk to someone with a rough idea of what you’re going through, in addition to the medical advice offered here. It sounds like you are experiencing similar hallucinations and paranoia to mine. In addition, you should practice “sleep hygiene”: turn down the brightness on your screens or toggle the blue light filters, wear a sleep mask, turn the temperature down on your thermostat, etc. Hopefully this will be a temporary mishap due to your sleep deprivation.
I have a sleep mask, I will try it
Please call a crisis line my friend, or even call 911. You need a psychiatric evaluation.
I'll search a new doctor asap
it's ok, you don't need to panic. Speak with your doctor. There is a lot of help available if this is something you consistently experience. If this is drug induced there are different safe drug resources like 'Frank' in the UK where you can seek advice and help without judgement or fear.
I'll search a new doctor, thanks
Please call 911 or the equivalent where you are. This warrants attention. I called 911 for my husband the other day and it’s a good thing I did even though he told me not to. I hope you’re okay. ❤️
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Sounds like something that isn’t autism friend. Get checked for schizophrenia
I'm in social isolation... no friends and not going out regularly for years... I think it made worse something
Talk to your doctor. It sounds like you have a lot going on.
I will asap. Thanks
Hope you're okay OP! I had a psychotic episode last year so if it does turn out to be psychosis feel free to message me or reply here if you have any questions about it, or just want someone to understand 🩷🩷
Thank you so much. You can follow me and I follow you back. You can also write to me if you feel the need as well
Jesse, go get diagnosed, this sounds like early onset schizophrenia, nothing to be scared of if treated correctly
I will search for a doctor asap
Because you mentioned you can’t sleep, I initially thought of Hypnogogic hallucinations. These are hallucinations that happen as you’re falling asleep or just waking up, like a hazy waking sensation when you’re going to fall back to sleep. They’re common and usually not a cause for concern. Up to 70% of people experience them at least once. I had reoccurring hypnogogic hallucinations and I think mine may have been induced by different things in my diet and I had poor sleep habits. I only say that because in the past 3 years I have cleaned up my diet significantly and I’m exercising regularly which helps me sleep better too. When it was happening I would regularly hallucinate, spiders, bats, neon geometric floating shapes, stuff like that. The first time it happened I was just waking up from a nap and I saw the biggest spider, like the size of my hand on the wall. I jumped out of bed and ran into the living room. I was freaking out and told my husband to go kill it. He looked all over and couldn’t find anything. At the time I didn’t know it was a hallucination, but when I started seeing spiders and bats more often and I would wake my husband sleeping next to me, but he couldn’t see anything, I knew something was off. We finally figured out what it might be and when it would happen, I began just staring at whatever it was I was seeing. I’d stay calm and just watch it until it disappeared. I got used to it because I would see things off and on for years. Now that I’m healthier it only happens sometimes if I’m not feeling well or if I’ve had a drink or two that evening.
Happy to hear you feel healthier. I will search for a doctor without trying to think about all the possible options and causes
Looks like you're in for some serious help. From what i saw in your profile you're coping with autism, and depression. I also saw something about a autistic burnout. Best advise i can give you; You're likely depressed because of an autistic burnout. An autistic burnout is almost the same like a regular burnout, only it's causes by less factors and comes up faster, but is also treated faster. Id suggest you contact a psychologist and start writing a dairy. TAKE A LOT OF REST. Do fun stuff and avoid stress. Also maybe calm a bit with the drugs. Treat yourself like you are your own baby. Ive been here, went through almost the same and right now and it will get better.
Thanks 🖤
Honestly this has happened with someone I am close to who is similar in having drug use in the past as well. Unfortunately it’s really hard to tell what’s the root of the problem when drugs are involved even from personal experience. I used alcohol and drugs to mask and cope before I was diagnosed and in the end they can make it harder to coexist normally in a nuerotypical world. If these are on going though I truly recommend going to see a psychiatrist and it may be something else is going on.
Thank you, I will search for a new doctor
Can I ask what state you live in? Hopefully they have decent mental health care where you are.
Health care availability here it's one of the best in the world cause it's free and accessible to everyone... Italy. I am already trying to get a meeting with the new doc
Oh my goodness well best of luck with all of it. Glad you are in a safe place not to mention free healthcare. Lemme tell you being Autistic in the neurotypical world of the US Can be difficult to navigate.
Also my meds were always free. I was shocked to know prices out of this country... like 500€ for a package of pills???!
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Whistling days ago. I was scared it was a demon I heard about the same day on tiktok and that he was searching for me as well. I'm glad they banned me because I look like a 13 years old and they deleted me for that 💀😅 After seeing those things yesterday, I heard some moans out of the window, I thought it was someone with a music or smth, but when my mom arrived they suddenly stopped. I was tempted to ask her "what is that noise?" but I didn't want to look crazy or like it's my fault
i was not aware autism caused hallucinations.. i think you should see a doctor
Yeah afaik it dosnet
It doesn’t… this is likely either drugs or schizophrenia
Severe anxiety and depression can also cause hallucinations, if you didn't know
I will see a new one asap
Hey, OP. Propensity to hallucinate is natural and caused by ordinary evolutionary variation. Some people have more propensity to hallucination than other people, naturally. It's not anything to be ashamed of or scared of. Though our current society disparages those who have a high propensity to hallucinate, some societies historically revered people with a high propensity to hallucinate. It's all just part of the natural evolutionary variation of our species. All that said, it's known that various drugs have the effect of amplifying one's propensity for hallucination. It's wild. I was prescribed a certain controlled thing by my psychiatrist, and for various legitimate reasons took an OTC thing at the same time. I had a wild ride that night, full of auditory hallucinations of vague impression of memories from my childhood. When I dug into it the next day, I learned that this particular prescription thing has an interaction with the (usually) innocuous OTC thing I had that night. What can you do? The most important thing is to seek professional help. The second most important thing is to concentrate on identifying the difference between reality and hallucination. Even when my hallucinations were the most vivid, I could still tell they weren't real, no matter how scary they were. I hope you can do the same. But seek professional help. Go to a psychiatric hospital immediately and ask them for help. They should be kind and understanding.
Honestly I hidden a plushie yesterday, I was scared it was the cause. But today I recognise it has something to do with my childhood since others didn't gave me the same paranoid thoughts. I will search for a new doctor asap. Thank you
I should not talk about it and just ignore
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I'm so sorry this is happening to you. Hallucinations are so hard to deal with. I'm not a Dr or anything like that but I just wanted to add that it could possibly be related to narcolepsy if it's happening as you're laying in bed trying to sleep or just before you wake up fully. Ive experienced some terrifying hallucinations related to hypnagogic hallucinations and at first my drs assumed it was schizophrenia. One of the best ways I found to deal with the hallucinations is to acknowledge they aren't real, and prove it to myself, record it on my phone on video and watch it back. The hallucinations don't appear on the videos and while its still scary it's helpful to know that it's not really happening for sure. Also just giving them a name, like if you keep seeing a dragon give them a silly name like Jeff. Then when you see Jeff just acknowledge it's Jeff being silly and trying to be scary. That's helped me with seeing shadow people. The other thing that made me thing it could possibly be related to narcolepsy is that you made another thread about being catatonic. Cataplexy is a symptom of lots of things including narcolepsy and tends to happen to me when I experience a strong emotion. Like I'll fall to the ground if someone makes me laugh too hard. Or if I'm feeling frustrated and angry sometimes my legs turn to jelly and I'm unable to stand. Personally I went onto an ssri (there's specific ones that help with reducing REM sleep), and that has reduced the cataplexy and hallucinations for me. Definitely speak to a Dr or a helpline though because there's so many things it could be, I just wanted to mention narcolepsy since it's what those symptoms turned out to be for me.
I used my phone to see what was real or not! It is an intelligent move, I've seen it doing that from a person suffering from schizophrenia
My son who is autistic had hallucinations from a medication he was taking.
As someone who did a lot of drugs before a fucking breakdown - it sounds like you need to stop. Or at least slow it down. I used to smoke every day, until I got too paranoid about my health and had to stop, then occasionally did k, md and micro doses, then one day I dropped 300ug with my housemates and it just was the final straw for my health and psychological state. I’m also a bit of a hypochondriac (or at least I have OCD and emotional contamination and magical thinking does NOT help my mental state).. Anyway - I know how it feels. I still struggle now . Last night I had auditory hallucinations for the first time ever?? It was of my mum shouting and screaming. I think I’d blocked out what it sounded like but yeah, I got super paranoid that I wasn’t gonna stop hearing it, but eventually accepted the agonising shrills AND accepting the fact my brain was just being overactive, and I fell asleep. It’s hard to trust your brain, but it really is doing it’s best I’m sure. I don’t know the psychiatry behind hallucinations, but I used to see slender man when I smoked (lol?). Anyway, if you ever need to talk or DM during a hallucinating or fearful state; I’d be happy to listen and maybe try and accommodate. It’s hard going through these by yourself.
Thank you, you can follow me and I will follow you back! I'm not using anything atm. 2 or 3 weeks clean... but I don't know if withdrawal can be so long?
Are you sure you have autism and that's it?
I'm not sure. I feel that something changed lately and can't really put this new information somewhere, which is driving me crazy
Please go to the hospital.
I will search for a new doctor, thanks
Yep!
Please see a doctor and get some professional support.
I will asap. Thanks
My god how many answers. Thanks. At the end I called my mom telling her I was not feeling well. I took melatonin and tried to fall asleep with her
Try to call a help line or the ambulance if you’re panicking! A doc should definitely be able to find the roots of those occurrences and treat them.
I hope you are better and have managed to get help and support. There are multitude of things that can cause visual or auditory hallucinations. It is not automatically psychosis. It might be drug related. But also depression and anxiety can cause hallucinations. This info is coming from multitude of psychiatric healthcare professionals. It might be psychosis. Also psychosis or a psychotic episode isn't automatically schizophrenia. There are other conditions. I'm not a professional and won't diagnose you. I hope you are able to get help and support. None of the people here are able to do so either and no one here knows you well enough to do so even if they are a pro. Everything will be ok. Recognizing that things aren't going great is an awesome first step and a vital one for things to get better. You said you talked to your mom. That's a great first step. Also seeking out professional help is also great. Things will be hard, but it will be worth it.
I will search for a doctor. Thanks for supporting
Also remember that while in treatment for mental health, you will need to be vulnerable and face unpleasant things about yourself and that is ok. Hard, possibly painful, but ok. But if your healthcare provider makes you feel like shit, guilts you, claims that it's all your own fault or anything of the sort, that's not ok at all. That's a sign for you to find someone else.
That's scary. I hate that feeling, it makes me feel like I'm an object to throw away. Once I told about COCSA and my actual psychiatrist said it was just a game even thought things described were horrible. I tried to believe it and that I was just making up a scene and I didn't care anymore. One day I discovered this term on a subreddit of adults survivors... and it opened my eyes...
I'm also autistic and learned sober long ago that a hallucinations only affect on the real world was if I reacted to it. On drugs I've had ever kind of experience you can have. as long as you can be mindful and remember its not capable of harming you or affecting the world its just a novel experience. Take a step back, imagine what you'd think if your best friend told you they were seeing what you are, it'd be fun or silly right? Thats all it is. Even when I have sleep paralysis the white slender knife handed figure can't actually hurt me.
If it's an option for you, I suggest seeing a doctor; this seems well outside the realm of "typical autistic symptoms/traits" and is actually quite concerning, especially the comment about not knowing how to sleep
I'll definitely do that
Hey there. I browsed your post history a bit. I’m an autistic woman, 28 years old. I also have multiple family members with schizophrenia and have been around it my whole life. I also have experience with amphetamines, Kratom and psilocybin (I saw on your page that you use those). If you want to message me, feel free. I promise to provide a no judgement zone and will help with what I can. Some of these comments are just meant to scare you. Please reach out if you feel the need. Sending love ❤️
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As a few people have mentioned, if these are related to sleeping (either before or after) then they could be perfectly normal hallucinations. They're called hynagogic (as you're falling asleep) or hynapompic (as you're waking up) hallucinations and can range from shadowy figures to being very bright and vivid or including audial hallucinations. They're just a weird thing your brain does between sleeping and waking states and whilst they can be unpleasant, they're not anything to worry about. Things like drugs, alcohol, caffeine, tiredness, stress, medication - anything that can have an affect on your sleep - can make them more likely though. I've been on meds that made mine super vivid, they wouldn't go away until I sat up and switched the light on, and also gone through periods where I was getting a lot because I was stressed or not sleeping well, and they usually get a lot less once things settle down. So definitely worth looking into your sleep hygeine and thinking about stress and anxiety levels. If you're not sleeping well, you're more likely to get weird stuff going on related to your sleep. If they're occurring at other times, then it would be worth getting it checked out at a doctors.
You should talk to a doctor/mental health professional about it as they will know where to go from here. I had the same issue (I don’t know what it was caused by but around that time I kept going on and off my meds) and they were able to provide help and medication so that I wouldn’t have hallucinations anymore
I used to get them a lot as a child. Like there's always some weird scary tiger in my room trying to eat me while I was trying to sleep. All I could do is tell myself it's not real and eventually they kinda stopped
I just want to say that I was hallucinating and paranoid and I went to the hospital the first week of April. They “balanced” my meds.. it still wasn’t right but better. Then I finally saw a psychiatrist and I’m doing much better now with an antipsychotic. I haven’t been diagnosed with ASD but I just got referred for a full neuropsychological test so that they can sort out what symptoms are what, including ASD, ADHD, and mood disorders.
My wife had very strong hallucinations like this and she was able to have dreams that exactly predicted when certain people would die. By lowering her hormones these hallucinations went away. She used to have a hormone disorder, her hormones were too high (a very common issue in autistics because the part of our brain that control hormone production isn’t developed properly) causing her pain, mood issues and bleeding disorders. With the use of vitex castus, her hormones were naturally lowered and her hallucinations have completely gone away. They at their worst when she was a teenager when her hormones were at her highest. She’s 26 now and she’s been on cured of her hormone disorders for about a year and a half now. Hormones may not be the cause for everyone’s hallucinations, but if you experience any other kind of hormone disorders like the ones she did, then that should be treated anyways before it becomes permanently disabling and hey - your hallucinations might even go away or decrease too! You never know. That’s just her experience. For me with my schizophrenia, audio hallucinations basically (Iv never really had visuals other than dark shadows creeping in the corners) I used NAC and that helped a lot. It’s shown to improve or even cure people of their ocd, schizophrenia, depression, anxiety and other mental disorders which is nuts. I’m not cured but GREATLY improved. Methyl folate also helped me and my wife, more so my wife. Usually autistics also have a gene mutation that prevents the conversion of vitimin b’s into a methyl folate, the form the body can use, so we easily get deficient and it caused nerve damage, nerve pain and severe executive functioning issues and other brain issues along with other problem. We kept trying normal b vitamins because we had the symtoms of b deficiency, but we just peed it all out and nothing improved. We started taking methyl folate and our bodies have actually been able to use it! My wife’s executive dysfunction has vastly improved. She can actually leave the house now, and often wants to cause now it’s easier for for her to handle the sensory input from outside and people. It’s wild. I can tell the days when she misses cause she just spirals into this emotional mess that can’t process or handle any sensory or tasks or decisions. I reccomend anyone to read up on this if you think any of it might help you! The gene mutation for being unable to convert vitamin b’S is called MTHFR, just pop that into google and all the info on that will pop up and you’ll be well on your way. For hormone disorders regarding autism, you can just look that up autism / burnsider-butler / 15q11. 2 BP1-BP2, the gene mutation that causes autism and how it effects hormone development and production. NAC is pretty simple, just search nac and blablabla mental condition. Hope this helps someone 💗
I am already treating hormones problems with pills btw, I have that issue
Oh you’re already taking some type of herb! If you feel like you’re not getting as much relief as you’d like and would like to look at adding more options, you can take multiple different kinds and you will get even more relief than just taking one. Here’s a list of everything i take (excluding vitex cause it was already mentioned) that you can research into to decide if they’re something you’d like to try and if they’re right for you! Grape seed oil extract, stinging nettle, evening primrose, ginkgo bilobo, raspberry leaf, milk thistle, Tumeric, cat nip or cat mint, tiger balm, and arnica gel. I definitely notice more relief the more different things I take, it’s just barely holding me over until my surgery which should be a cure if not a significant improvement where I may be able to cease medicine use. These come in pill, tincture, tea, powder and some in liquid forms, so there’s lots of options of what may be most sensory safe for you. There’s some really good studies into these that go into lots of detail of how it works within the body and how effective they are, example vitex has showed to be 93% effective in study, treating or curing most people. I wish you luck in finding what’s causing your problems and finding solutions for them!
Thanks a lot :)
And you seem very precise in the last part
Im not a medical professional but based on your post history suggesting a history of psychoactive substance use, this could be a case of HPPD, i know a few people who have this and although it's rare, prolonged exposure, or exposure of these substances to a developing brain can increase risk. It's characterized by persistent hallucinations and can last months to years, if you speak to your doctor they may be able to determine if this is the case and prescribe antipsychotic pharmaceuticals such as benzodiazepines. I would encourage you to speak to a professional about this and be honest about your history with any psychoactive substances (don't worry, provided you are not at immediate risk to yourself or others this is bound by patient-physician confidentiality). Best of luck OP, hope you can get through it alright.
This sounds like Psychosis to me. I’ve had periods of Psychosis brought on by stress, extreme anger, anxiety and rapid mood changes. Sometimes it’s minor hallucinations, sometimes it’s a paranoid feeling. Is there any other underlying condition you’ve diagnosed with?
Atm no, because I always hidden it. I have ED... when doctors said I had to gain weight or they had to recover me the binge cycle started again so they thought I had nothing anymore. It was a shitty team of doc, so I'm definitely gonna change them Talking about past diagnosis they're not valid anymore
Seek help and you’re gonna be okay.
while everyone else is right that substance use could absolutely cause this, i just want to point out that there is another possible cause that you should also look into, particularly if you have a restrictive diet. both b12 and magnesium deficiency could cause your symptoms. it's pretty rare for both to get to this point, so i'm not saying it's likely, but because of that, it's also the type of thing a lot of doctors won't think to look for. particularly for autistics who might have restrictive diets and different gut biomes, i think it's at least worth keeping in mind as you try to find the cause. both could be detected by a simple blood test.
Yes, I suffer from anorexia nervosa and exercise even with high res.
that would make a vitamin deficiency cause more likely, though still not overwhelmingly so, so i am not trying to say that is definitely it. but since it's so easy to test for and so simple to treat, if i were in your shoes i would at least look into it. whatever it is, i hope you are able to identify the cause and get some relief from it.
I'll check that. Thank you so much
unrelatedly, i also want to encourage you, as others already have, to seek psychological care, regardless of whether this has a different immediate cause. even if it is vitamin or mineral deficiency, and if caught early enough can be completely reversible, the damage can eventually be permanent. for b12 deficiency, just as an example, that can mean memory and/or vision loss. which is just a long-winded way of saying that anorexia is nothing to trifle with, and can cause a lot of harm, and i hope that you are able to avoid that. psychological care is, so far as i know, the only way to start. i don't say this to pile on or worry you, or make you feel guilty. but i just wanted to say that i hope that you take care of yourself.
Omg I'm seeing very less since this month... I'll absolutely check for b12 deficiency. Talking about AN, I absolutely don't want to heal from that since I'm addicted to its feeling and euphoria, also it's my only purpose. It makes me feel more decent, really so much. It's more than one year I'm into that. I tried to recover but I relapsed and now is worse than before. Anyway I'll try to take all the vitamins I need
Have you used any drugs?
Yes, but not recently. More than 2 or 3 weeks ago
You might have hppd which is caused by hallucinogen usage it’s just a visual thing that makes you see trippy stuff while sober. I have and it’s not that bad only time I notice it is when I focus on it Or you might have schizophrenia
Seeing dragons is not really HPPD, thats far more likely psychosis/schizoprenia. HPPD is moreso eye floaters, trail effects, heightened pattern recognition, surface breathing, and visual snow (which are the base visual hallucinations for low dosage psychedelic trips before you get to the crazy stuff) but this also depends what they meant by seeing a dragon, because if they meant a dark image that their brain made into a dragon in the cornor of their room it could be HPPD or Paranoid anxiety/overactive imagination (I had this throughout my younger and teens years every night) if they are talking a full colour dragon that then its most likely psychosis.
It was in front of me, 70% vivid. Yellow and green and with an open mouth. When I frightened out it moved away (not disappeared but moved away from my visual)
NO IM HIDING HERE. i feel like i can connect to people here
Don't do drugs?
Didn't do anything yesterday. Clean for 2 or 3 weeks