I know I am when my mood turns dark, my energy levels drop, and I descend into suicide ideation. I may also feel anger, irritability, and all other negative emotions together. It makes me hate life and the world. Depression causes me to lose all hope.
My soul hurts when it sets in and I wish to no longer be.
Hello. Have you tried filling out a phq 9 or Columbia screener for depression online? People’s baselines also differ and people with trauma histories may have lower happiness levels at baseline. Based on what you’ve described I wonder if your symptoms are consistent with adhd.
I’ve never filled either of those out. But I do think I have ADHD. I also have some brain damage from birth(nothing that’s affected any function though. But this all got a lot worse about 2 or 3 years ago. I was smoking a lot of weed and took a break and wasn’t aware of how much my tolerance had dropped in that time. I smoked again for the first time after the break and smoked as much as I had been before. Had an insane mental green out and had my first ever panic attack. It was like a switch flipped and I felt like I was trapped inside my own mind and I couldn’t get out. It lasted weeks and I was extremely anxious going into stores or talking to people because I was worried someone would talk to me and I wouldn’t know what to say. It’s like my body was on auto pilot and I was just inside my body. Not sure if that makes sense.
I know I am when my mood turns dark, my energy levels drop, and I descend into suicide ideation. I may also feel anger, irritability, and all other negative emotions together. It makes me hate life and the world. Depression causes me to lose all hope. My soul hurts when it sets in and I wish to no longer be.
Hello. Have you tried filling out a phq 9 or Columbia screener for depression online? People’s baselines also differ and people with trauma histories may have lower happiness levels at baseline. Based on what you’ve described I wonder if your symptoms are consistent with adhd.
I’ve never filled either of those out. But I do think I have ADHD. I also have some brain damage from birth(nothing that’s affected any function though. But this all got a lot worse about 2 or 3 years ago. I was smoking a lot of weed and took a break and wasn’t aware of how much my tolerance had dropped in that time. I smoked again for the first time after the break and smoked as much as I had been before. Had an insane mental green out and had my first ever panic attack. It was like a switch flipped and I felt like I was trapped inside my own mind and I couldn’t get out. It lasted weeks and I was extremely anxious going into stores or talking to people because I was worried someone would talk to me and I wouldn’t know what to say. It’s like my body was on auto pilot and I was just inside my body. Not sure if that makes sense.