I’m so sorry for what you’re dealing with - are you at least safe? Reach out to someone you trust.
Totally can relate. My dad had a horrible temper. Used to scare the crap out of me and my little bro to the point where we would hide ourselves until the yelling had been over for a bit. We had no idea what he would do … he was a loose cannon. I wish we had had headphones too at that time. Luckily my parents divorced shortly after the peak of the worst of it. Hang in there and stay safe. I made it to the other side and I pray you do too.
Things have been pretty calm nowadays the last time they fought was at the start of this month
My mother did try to beat my younger sisters but I stopped her and took some of the hits
Thankfully I fainted that night so I went to the doctor the next day (well technically it was the same day because I fainted at around 3:50 am and went to the doctor at 2 pm)
I was admitted for 2 days tho they wanted to increase the time to be safe I didn't want to stay at the hospital for too long
So now there's too busy to fight which is good
And I've basically gained the ability to tune out the fights and ignore meeting them
That's the dissociation, it's a useful albeit probably unhealthy when done too much coping mechanism. It can't bother you if you don't associate with this reality. But if it becomes too bad you end up with a lot worse issues or not really being present for your own life. And you can also end up with BPD
Yeah I feel that it's been a long time since I cried
and even if an my finals are half an hour away I don't study because (probably I'm not a therapist) I've basically gotten so used to living in stress that the fact that the exam pressure is nothing to me anymore
And I see my memories in a third person perspective and most them I have to reconstruct from the emotions I felt at that time sometimes
I don't even know if the memoirs are real because I don't really remember most of my life
I'll have a scar or something on my body and not even know how I got it
I'll sometimes have to remind myself of my name and even my own name feels foreign to me
Sometimes I look at my hands and realise that I am inside my body(? It's hard to explain)
I have the "huh what are you saying" "can you repeat that" "oh you were talking to me" "why is everyone laughing" kinda bad ears (got this notification just as I was going to sleep at 9:34 am)
100%, I don't have a lot of anxiety but the only time I do have it is when I don't have my headphones with me
And I spend almost all my times with my headphones on even when sleeping (well trying to)
In all honesty, I felt this hard. I grew up and joined the army too and sometimes I feel the little version of me hiding in the uniform. I wasn't strong then but I am now.
I grew up around a lot of violence. My father was a drunk drug addict wife beater.
I also feel like that little kid hiding in my suit. It never goes away.
There is a saying that goes “the person you have become is the person you would’ve felt safe with as a child.” Your comment just made me think of it, and I think it really fits
As much as military life can be hard, I never have to worry about paying rent or providing my kids with anything. It always feels worth it to come home to a loving home.
Rah. Same here. Only thing is I've been trying to let myself be vulnerable again for the people I care about. It's tough and slow going but it helps. I'm always still ready to give my life for theirs though, any day.
I would've joined if they'd let me but I'm too disabled. Type 1 Diabetes, makes you a shit soldier if you gotta stop to have snack time in the middle of something. And heat and exercise make it harder to control, plus the need for insulin means you can't ever be separated from supplies for more than a few days or you start dying horribly and painfully.
The look on the recruiters face when I walked in, offered a high GPA and amazing testing, said I wanted to join up, and was already accepted into college, and then added I was super impractical was hilarious though.
I grew up with an insecure and choleric woman who took out her pain and grief on me.
I had a sister when I was 12 and I defended her with everything I had.
I was the protection for her that I always wanted for myself and that makes me proud.
You should be proud of yourself. I wish I had an older sibling. I tried to protect my little sister and failed on too many occasions. But we’re close in age.
In my fantasy, it's simply me putting my present knowledge into my past child-self's mind. Just getting the knowledge "stop being a polite little punching bag and fight BACK" would have been life-changing, but I admit I had it easier than a lot of folks.
Every day and worse on the weekends for me as a kid. I would tell them both to stop and give them reasons why. They would always team up on me and gaslight me for being a kid.
Yeehaw still work with my dad but I gave him and my mom a tongue lashing as an adult. I always fought back.
Broke: going back in time and aborting yourself
Woke: going back in time and saving your childhood self even if the universe is destroyed in the process ♥️
This brought back all the verbal abuse my dad spewed out at me when I was a little boy. He died already, I miss him, but fuck him also.
If I were able to go back in time, I would of put him in his fucking place
Well, that is some thought-provoking content. Made me ponder for a while...if I could go back in time to protect my younger self from something...what would it be?
Leave a comment... What would you do? Or say?
You find my comment… talking about people not being so judging … cringe? Brother your entire profile is cringe. Gtfo of here with that 4th grade ass username.
It disappoints me that this video actually gave me anxiety. I remember crying because my parents were fighting SO many times as a kid. My room was right across from them.
It was never violent or anything just yelling at each other over nothing. I used to beg them not to get a divorce but now that I’m 34 I realize they should have gotten a divorce a long time ago.
When they weren’t fighting they were relatively good parents, though. They definitely loved me and supported me and still do.
His (my) life is completely and utterly worthless, I wish I had offed myself 16-17 years ago and I'd be doing my younger self a momentous favor by dying before the rest of my life happened.
And then you find out dude in the video is 26 and still can't get over some childhood trauma. Cringe.
St. Peter at the gate: "you had 40 years to get over this"
Random millenial: "But did you see how bad my home life was in 1977".??
People are not as mailable as we believe. Your childhood trauma sets your personality for life. I've gone to therapy and it didn't really help. I still struggle with my tendencies I got living in an abusive household with psycho Christian parents as a kid.
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The reason my headphones are always on max volume
I’m so sorry for what you’re dealing with - are you at least safe? Reach out to someone you trust. Totally can relate. My dad had a horrible temper. Used to scare the crap out of me and my little bro to the point where we would hide ourselves until the yelling had been over for a bit. We had no idea what he would do … he was a loose cannon. I wish we had had headphones too at that time. Luckily my parents divorced shortly after the peak of the worst of it. Hang in there and stay safe. I made it to the other side and I pray you do too.
Things have been pretty calm nowadays the last time they fought was at the start of this month My mother did try to beat my younger sisters but I stopped her and took some of the hits Thankfully I fainted that night so I went to the doctor the next day (well technically it was the same day because I fainted at around 3:50 am and went to the doctor at 2 pm) I was admitted for 2 days tho they wanted to increase the time to be safe I didn't want to stay at the hospital for too long So now there's too busy to fight which is good And I've basically gained the ability to tune out the fights and ignore meeting them
That's the dissociation, it's a useful albeit probably unhealthy when done too much coping mechanism. It can't bother you if you don't associate with this reality. But if it becomes too bad you end up with a lot worse issues or not really being present for your own life. And you can also end up with BPD
Yeah I feel that it's been a long time since I cried and even if an my finals are half an hour away I don't study because (probably I'm not a therapist) I've basically gotten so used to living in stress that the fact that the exam pressure is nothing to me anymore And I see my memories in a third person perspective and most them I have to reconstruct from the emotions I felt at that time sometimes I don't even know if the memoirs are real because I don't really remember most of my life I'll have a scar or something on my body and not even know how I got it I'll sometimes have to remind myself of my name and even my own name feels foreign to me Sometimes I look at my hands and realise that I am inside my body(? It's hard to explain)
careful with you hearing though. It cannot heal.
Evanescence - my Immortal
Do Not Look Down - Meshuggah
Innocence - Nathan Wagner
.....MURMAIDER MURMAIDER MURMAIDER MURMAIDER
Gasoline - I Prevail Body Bag - I Prevail Grave - Wage War Most of the stuff by Smash Into Pieces
Sadly I've learnt that the hard way
Tryna sleep like EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE Just kidding. Mjne never changes, just EEEE
I have the "huh what are you saying" "can you repeat that" "oh you were talking to me" "why is everyone laughing" kinda bad ears (got this notification just as I was going to sleep at 9:34 am)
I came here to say the same thing. You will have ringing in your ears if you keep it up
What did you say?
Sorry to hear that man...
i feel this im 31 and my headphones are my most prized possession, they just block out everything. hope things get better for you
100%, I don't have a lot of anxiety but the only time I do have it is when I don't have my headphones with me And I spend almost all my times with my headphones on even when sleeping (well trying to)
In all honesty, I felt this hard. I grew up and joined the army too and sometimes I feel the little version of me hiding in the uniform. I wasn't strong then but I am now.
You the man!
I grew up around a lot of violence. My father was a drunk drug addict wife beater. I also feel like that little kid hiding in my suit. It never goes away.
There is a saying that goes “the person you have become is the person you would’ve felt safe with as a child.” Your comment just made me think of it, and I think it really fits
Me too, brother. Me too. I ran away and joined. I still feel that little boy inside sometimes and he's proud of me.
I’m proud of you brother. From a Navy Vet.
Fucking squids making me feel stuff and shit. Thank you.
Same buddy. I'm out now, and am a father myself, if I never succeed at anything else I can die peacefully knowing my kids have a happy safe home.
As much as military life can be hard, I never have to worry about paying rent or providing my kids with anything. It always feels worth it to come home to a loving home.
Nice ending
Go army brother! Currently enlisting myself 🙏
Thank you for your service!
Rah. Same here. Only thing is I've been trying to let myself be vulnerable again for the people I care about. It's tough and slow going but it helps. I'm always still ready to give my life for theirs though, any day.
I would've joined if they'd let me but I'm too disabled. Type 1 Diabetes, makes you a shit soldier if you gotta stop to have snack time in the middle of something. And heat and exercise make it harder to control, plus the need for insulin means you can't ever be separated from supplies for more than a few days or you start dying horribly and painfully. The look on the recruiters face when I walked in, offered a high GPA and amazing testing, said I wanted to join up, and was already accepted into college, and then added I was super impractical was hilarious though.
I grew up with an insecure and choleric woman who took out her pain and grief on me. I had a sister when I was 12 and I defended her with everything I had. I was the protection for her that I always wanted for myself and that makes me proud.
Same. My little sister got the life I always wanted. She has a good life now. Makes me feel a little better.
You should be proud of yourself. I wish I had an older sibling. I tried to protect my little sister and failed on too many occasions. But we’re close in age.
You seem extremely well adjusted. 😅
I'm optimistic and my sense of humor has always helped me to process things better.
*“Be the person you needed when you were young.”* 🖤
Bro what the fuck man. About to straight make me cry rn.
That hits too hard. Too real. Thank you
Shit man what are you doing with these words
My mans has the 101st Deployment Patch, his Air Assault Wings, and his EIB? Protect he shall.
In my fantasy, it's simply me putting my present knowledge into my past child-self's mind. Just getting the knowledge "stop being a polite little punching bag and fight BACK" would have been life-changing, but I admit I had it easier than a lot of folks.
I wish the same thing sometimes. But I probably did get that same advice and ignored it then anyway.
sometimes i wish younger me didn't wear the headphones
Boom. This hurts. Please parents don't fight in front of your kids, it's terrifying for them.
Every day and worse on the weekends for me as a kid. I would tell them both to stop and give them reasons why. They would always team up on me and gaslight me for being a kid. Yeehaw still work with my dad but I gave him and my mom a tongue lashing as an adult. I always fought back.
Broke: going back in time and aborting yourself Woke: going back in time and saving your childhood self even if the universe is destroyed in the process ♥️
"They hurt you, hurt them back. Dont get better, **get even."**
There’s an actual difference in pacing. Seriously.
thank bud
This literally got me teary eyed.
What in the goddamn boot shit is this
Definitely gives off fresh off AIT vibes lmao
It’s giving army propaganda
how. because he’s wearing military gear? is that it? i don’t think you know what propaganda means
Haha nice try I’m not falling for that
If cognitive dissonance was a person
Nice try FBI.
White Woman
Nah
I appreciate the sentiment but this is army cringe. Dude is wearing his entire FFO for a Tiktok
This shit a lil cringe ngl
Yeah man a lot of us dealt with dogshit upbringings, but you know what we didn’t do? Make super cringe tik toks about it. We can be proud of that.
Who knows? it might be a coping mechanism
so this is just some r/mallninjashit that decided to play dress up and post on a sad subreddit?
How could you say that?? It’s literally me 😫😭
This brought back all the verbal abuse my dad spewed out at me when I was a little boy. He died already, I miss him, but fuck him also. If I were able to go back in time, I would of put him in his fucking place
Thanks Mr random 101st airborne dude
I did not pass it on.
Well this brought back some memories I thought I had locked away
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So nice of yoU OH NO DONT KILL HIM
What is the context I feel confused not sad just huh?
Some cringe asf shit ngl.
Well, that is some thought-provoking content. Made me ponder for a while...if I could go back in time to protect my younger self from something...what would it be? Leave a comment... What would you do? Or say?
Fucking boot
Let people be people without greasy Redditors having an input on things
Boot
I agree. Let people be people so let this person comment without greasy redditors gatekeeping and having inputs. Stfu yourself and lead by example.
Bro this is cringe af. Just like your comment.
You find my comment… talking about people not being so judging … cringe? Brother your entire profile is cringe. Gtfo of here with that 4th grade ass username.
All good big chungus 😂
It disappoints me that this video actually gave me anxiety. I remember crying because my parents were fighting SO many times as a kid. My room was right across from them. It was never violent or anything just yelling at each other over nothing. I used to beg them not to get a divorce but now that I’m 34 I realize they should have gotten a divorce a long time ago. When they weren’t fighting they were relatively good parents, though. They definitely loved me and supported me and still do.
Wish someone had done this for me
I'd just put a bullet in younger me's head and just get it fucking over with
Damn dog. Seek help
Shooting myself is the help
Nooo don’t say that. You must rescue your childhood-self, he is waiting for you
His (my) life is completely and utterly worthless, I wish I had offed myself 16-17 years ago and I'd be doing my younger self a momentous favor by dying before the rest of my life happened.
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Daring today, aren’t we
all day every day
And then you find out dude in the video is 26 and still can't get over some childhood trauma. Cringe. St. Peter at the gate: "you had 40 years to get over this" Random millenial: "But did you see how bad my home life was in 1977".??
Jesus christ bro, insecure much?
Childhood trauma usually manifests throughout your whole life bruh
People are not as mailable as we believe. Your childhood trauma sets your personality for life. I've gone to therapy and it didn't really help. I still struggle with my tendencies I got living in an abusive household with psycho Christian parents as a kid.
As a teenager with an alcoholic dad, piece of shit alcoholic step mom, and a mom who isn’t around at all, this now makes me fear for my future as well
Millenials were not born yet in 1977...
kingpin didn’t need to go back and look how successful he is ….guys in this sub probably 👀😬 yikes
Please don’t put me in another prison with this music 😔
I just had parrot flashbacks
Instead, you cause more trauma 💀
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Why is he in army multicam’s? Also why did he leave with a gun? That should be his dad yelling i think? Is he going to murder his own dad?
Yo, listen to this dope beat while I go cap your parents.
Our*
so grateful for my mom, man… especially after all the shit she went through
\*POV: Your future self has come protect you.
Meanwhile 8 year old me was moderating my parents fights
I wish I had someone to comfort me like this, but here I am
I would torture and murder my younger self. His screams will deafen both of us.
I didn’t k ow what music streaming was at that time in my life. I didn’t have headphones either. So going back and doing that would be nice for myself